It's fucked up.
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There isn't even a way for me to use my delayed return as an excuse cos I can't even be sure I'll be as good as I wanna be anymore. A major part of me wanna just ask if there's any way out of this and let me be a part of the whole, but that minor part that persistently nags me about how they might not need me basically stops everything.
I should probably not let such minor things in life affect me (what more, it's actually within my control...)
But I've given so much the past few months just cos I have made a "promise" and was given a certain sense of responsibility. Now it all suddenly doesn't matter anymore......
