Saturday, December 31, 2011

First meal of the year: BCM!!

Not surprising at all -.-

And last meal of the previous year:
Self-cooked BCM!!!! Lol

Crazier new year

Thursday night: drink with Rex and Guokai; part 2 with Desmond and Rubin. Friday: woke up to get food for the gathering in the afternoon; SC7 steamboat night till 11; supper with Alvin and Zac; mahjong and daidi with Alvin and Rubin until morning. Saturday: hit straight to the track for run; drove down to sentosa with Alex; went home for a 3 hour nap; woke up for mahjong with Huijun Alex and Guokai thru the night. First day of new year: breakfast after the game; headed down to sentosa for manual-labour work helping Guokai out; came home halfway and here I am now waiting for the Butter Boys to come over for steamboat and I haven't got the food.

Just when I thought Xmas was crazy, I didn't see "sleep" in the activities list for the past few days leading up to New Year Day. Sweet dreams tonight? Hardly possible with the wild gang I'm taking down later on. Naise.

2012 is gonna be a blast! XD

--

I swear the tiredness I'm currently feeling is like Atec all over again...

Friday, December 30, 2011

Countdown?

I've done that 19 times before, what's the deal? But anyway, what are you doing tonight? Word of advice: avoid the clubs! Staying home is definitely a better idea. Cheers!

Are you ready for 2011?

Got my hair cut, tanned my body, clipped my nails, did some body conditioning, went for a run this morning; that's about all the "preparations" I've done at this very last day of the year (albeit perhaps it just so happened coincidentally that I found time to do them today). Everything else suggests today as just another normal day. What have you done? =]

What if one day we no longer gather for CNY?

That day might just be coming soon... I don't wanna imagine it.

I won't know how to spend those two days that have always been so important and significant

One helluva nice sun this morning!

Finally, le Sun made it before the turn of the year! Close enough

What have you done in 2011?

What do you wanna do at the turn of the year?

Thursday, December 29, 2011

I'm not old

but looking back at how we try to create puns and act philosophical on our blogs during school days is just plain hilarious

BFF

I hate this thing.

Because we used to be brother/sister and it ended badly. Let's hope this will work out fine. Hope.

1st Jan

The only thing exciting about it is the new episode for HIMYM

Because we can

Because we are young
Because we don't wanna live with regrets...

Who would?..

Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breathe away...

Have your Right One appeared?

How many times do we get a second chance?

Don't wait till you lose something, then start to cherish what you had...

Surprises come when you least expect it

and time is an important factor

Same

9 years ago or now, the feeling of holding your hand stays the same. Exciting.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Friends as kids aren't easy to maintain

Why is it that friends drift in and out of our lives so easily? I've been trying, very hard indeed, to keep everything in place; but it's just an uphill battle.

Monday, December 26, 2011

The year is ending

it's always this kinda time that you start doing reflections.
Well, I still haven't have a job.
I've spent every single minute of my life wide awake in a dream

Thanks all who came along last night!

Baolin, Guokai, Libo, Andy, Alvin, Kaung, Heather, Ken, Renwei, Rex, Liping, Rubin. And Darren who wanted to come after just landing from his plane. Be back next year, people! Merry Xmas. =]

Sunday, December 25, 2011

You've been the special brother to me as well

Because touched is an understatement. Thanks for the gift and letter bro. I know you'll see this. I'm really surprised to know what you've thought about me. I'm flattered.

Thanks for always being there for me... Merry Xmas! :)

It doesn't seem possible for us to ever get back together again

Because life has brought us further and further away from each other.

Holding on is definitely a mistake. Let's move on.

Merry Xmas everyone!!!

It's just another excuse to celebrate.

"I'll try to be there..."

And none did! As expected. -.-

I've been awake for more than 36 hours!!

And counting.

It's been long since I last spent so much time on the mahjong table. And it's definitely one of the best experience!

On and off

That's what happened to the steamboat just now. PMS its way.

And it reminds me of my Internet!

Friday, December 23, 2011

Funshion's fixed

Now I know what to do to enrich my rotting days... XD

How you know Singapore is so damn small? How you know Singapore is so damn small?

When your Primary school, secondary school and JC classmates share a cab home together

I wasted $25 on Wed!

Should have just used the Citibank like I did yesterday! There was no queue at all... -.-
Zzz

Clubber siol!

So many I saw yesterday I've seen before on Wed. Naughty naughty... X)

Go away far far

If no one disturbs me, I swear I can concuss all the way till Xmas!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Road trip!

Because we took the bus all the way to Clementi.

--

And I forgot what else I've posted because my stupid iPhone Blogger screwed up. Zzz

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Because I'm really kinda enjoying my youth

Having the thought of me eventually going to marry that one particular girl in future is kinda retarded

I kissed a guy!

Numerous times actually. And I don't like it!! Hah. Things you do when you're drunk.. Zzz

The bond is so strong!

That bitching continues even after we've ORD-ed. And not forgetting the shit-stirring

The thing I dislike about Xmas

"What present to buy for the gift exchanges?..."

Monday, December 19, 2011

I didn't wanna drink!

But I'm drunk now. -.-

"Confident, I'll say that's what you are"

And I fit the bill, according to them. Do not scam me into believing that it's the best interview I've ever had..

Sunday, December 18, 2011

You're missed

because your absence is felt.

Even only after a few hours.

Rainy season

equates to season to get white!

Because all it does is, of course, rain! And so all we can do is, of course, rain bath!
No more sun-tanning. =(

No-party is the best party

You see, it's really difficult to organize one.

I don't see myself doing it next June

Alex's new house!

Maybe because it's new that it felt much more awesome than the previous one. And bigger.
And the bed was so comfy I overslept for the birthday party at night!

--

And his car became white

Julian's back!

And he changed his car to an Audi. Naise.

and I left my umbrella inside. -.-

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Gross alert... (Low)

Achievement unlock. I've been brushing my teeth everyday.
(Because Commando trains me so well, I can actually make do without it for consecutive nights during camp life)

But seriously because I see my toothbrush after I bath; and I sweat after I brush, so... XD

Gross alert (HIGH)!

3-day is very long when you realize...

CONSTIPATION SUCKS! -.-

--

Hopefully the laxative works, but not too well

Why can't I complete the 2.4km?!?!

Because at around the 2km mark the 3 Prata boys shouted "Jason" across the street to stop me. -.-

Disturb all the pigs!

And I shouldn't be disturbed.

Tummy's getting VERY round though. =(

Jealousy kills

And motivates.

Let's move on! And forward.
Because I shouldn't be the one that regret. You should.

Because Singapore is too mainstream

I saw Mr Chng CB at Malaysia. Lol.

Tiring day because of tiring night yesterday; didn't get anything; will be back when I'm rich.

--

The jam from one custom to the other was incredible

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Get a car!!!

Because buses get lost on the way, cab fare is on a price hike, and MRT breaks down in the middle of nowhere!
World class transportation system hor.

But seriously, we can't blame them.

It's actually kind of a good marketing scam driving everyone with no choice but to take the more expensive, recently-got-even-more-expensive, alternative of taxi. Naise. "Income opportunity" Joke! HAHA

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

"Have you met Jason?!"

Whole night. WHOLE night. Elisha's been going around telling girls that;
most devoted wing-man award have to go to him.

But taking care of him in that kind of condition is seriously no joke; and so my wing man got me the girls... but also got me so busy with him that I can't actually get the girls. Naise. Level: Impossibru! Lol.

--

Seriously, HIMYM is too much for Elisha to handle.

Elisha: "What are you guys bringing tonight?"
Me: "My soul. I collected it back from 9gag just for the night"
Elisha: "Oh, same. But I got them from HIMYM"

Claim back your soul bro, you're possessed by them even in a club.
True story
Because the next morning..

Elisha: "Fuck. What happened??"

Trollolol

--

Me: "You've been loving your gf, that's what happened.."

At 1.30am:
After half-an-hour of MIA,

Elisha: "I'm home! Have fun. I love HX (his gf)!"
Me: "WTF?!?! Why are you home suddenly?"
Elisha: "Love you all. Love HX!"

TROLLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL~

--

Epic Elisha is epic... HAHAHAHAHA

Grandson theory

Your own baby grandson is always smarter than other people's

$10 was enough for the cab home!

"As a guy, I'll take the $1.20 change; you can have the $2!"

Lol! See I how gentleman!!!

Why is my body clock so efficient?!

Even the glasses of liquor and mugs of beer I've had couldn't drown the need to wake at 9.30

Naise

Nice night

Except I have to look after some drunk bastards... (why am I not the drunk one?!?!?!)

And I forgot to get any numbers. Hmmm...

--

Clubbing isn't that fun when you have someone constantly on your mind

I hate Iris

Cos once again, it scammed me twice in a row -.-

Consumption before payment

Finished my Bailey's Original and Caramel before my sis got the money from me. Naise

--

Mum gave me $10 for taxi back later, "Don't spend it on drinks ah!"
Coolios, Mother.

But sad to say, not enough for either.

Getting old

When you no longer feel the pre-clubbing excitement anymore...

1 time please

Because the timing is so nice (bro going overseas the next day!), I must get it done once and for all!

22/02/12

pray for me too!!! lol.

Stinson

As a matter of fact, there's always someone more Stinson than you

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

What if we can't find more people to go with?

"Nvm la I still wanna gooo"

Naise

What pleasant surprise

She actually can make it. Naise!
But hmmm; let's keep the anticipation low lest the disappointment gets higher when it fails.

tl;dr

maybe I should add some photos to this site.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Simple math

If tuition is gonna give me a 1k income,
I just need a job that earns me 1.5k per month;
and that will fetch me $2000+ where I can save half of it and spend the other!
By June, I should have $6000 of savings which will cover my riding, diving and overseas trips!

XD

--

Problem is, I haven't found that 1.5k job. -.-

My tutee says I look like Gurmit Singh

Which part sia?... -.-

I'm so broke I don't have money to cut my hair!

True story

Santa Claus came early!

And I'm the Santa! (Ok, more like Shirlene is... but still, I'm there!)

So someone picked up this wallet at SCMS and passed to her because she stayed near,
and when I send her home today we went over to the guy's house wanting to return him.
But no one's around at home.
So we decided to drop it in his letter box which we have the key to
(actually the house key as well, and we actually thought of going in, but ok, we didn't)
And so we opened it and put it in;
and the smart her unlocked the opening so that we can slip the keys back in.

Just when we were about to leave, I thought of slipping a note in saying "Santa came early!"
but while we were trying to find paper to write on,
someone walked passed us to open a letter box,
which is in the vicinity of the one we dropped into.
And soooooooo zhun, he's the owner of the wallet!

He thanked us and we left.

--

Naise. Good karma accumulated. XD

It's not that life is really that boring

just that every time life gets boring, I'll come here to grumble;
and when I'm busy, I don't post them here.

So,
it seems like my life is really kinda like a bore.

--

But seriously,
the fact that this post exists,
shows that life is really...
rather a bore Zzz

666 friends!

satanic... not that I'm religious at all. just bored. -.-

Things are only done

When you have a lot of other things to do.

When there's really nothing to do (when actually there's still a lot of work);
the only thing I do is to visit this place... and 9gag. Naise. XD

Whine when you're busy and whine when you're free!

I'm just not that easy to please...

I NEED A JOB!

because, firstly, I'm broke;
and, more importantly, I'm freaking bored everyday! -.-

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Maybe it's a mistake for us to meet

or even get in contact.

You see,
we were both serious bout the relationship,
AND the breakup
so it's really inappropriate to stay as friends.

--

Though I am serious bout a patch in the future as well.
I know, I'm screwed up. -.-

I manage to stay home the whole day!

Rot is a better word actually;

and guess what, it's a Sunday! Naise...

--

And am gonna rot for the next few days as well. Great!

Saturday, December 10, 2011

If I continue rotting at home...

I'll actually be saving up by cutting my expenses! HAHA

If we're BFFs

then I suppose it's okay for our photo to become my wallpaper?..

--

Everyone wanna know how my wallpaper looks like now!
XD

Jobless/School-less/Scholarship-less

Girlfriend-less
and at this moment: Family-less/Friend-less

--

It just feels like life's taking a long halt.

When's the last time life slowed down this much?

I'm bored to death alone at home. Zzz

Next gathering

I swear I don't wanna overbuy!

Thanks for giving face and showing up!

It's nice to see you again.
Remembering the memories and catching up some old times.

Bringing back what's long gone;
some desirable, some not so much.

Event's off

Means no temporary income;

and also means I gave up a scholarship interview's opportunity for nothing.

--

Life is full of decisions;
and I've been making right ones that turn out wrong. Zzz.

The world can't get any smaller

One of the basketball coaches that I've seen so many times on and off court happen to be my father's cousin; and we only just realize it today when he found me familiar. -.-

Time to take a trip down the family tree!

Lunar Eclipse

Naise

--

What a boring Saturday.
Everyone's either at SNSD concert or Zoukout, but I'm home!

I'm not actually complaining,
because being unemployed, I have no rights to moan about being bored.

--

And it actually sounds like a good time to stay home and study;
engage in some free activities like swim and run!

And sun tan,
like what I've done this afternoon at Sentosa;
albeit without the sun. -.-

--

Kang took home the hard drive before I transfer them over to mine!
Now I can really rot at home... -.-

--

Full...

Haven't had anything the whole day until Grandma birthday's celebration dinner just now where I had so much I wanna puke. Zzz.

Anyway;
Happy birthday grandma!

(And to the three other different persons celebrating their bday at the same restaurant as well. LOL)



Friday, December 9, 2011

Last pay...

Ah gong give me $48
and Aviva have to deduct $25 from the already pathetic balance. -.-

Thursday, December 8, 2011

你好嗎

墙上静止的钟是为谁停留
是不是和我一樣賴著不走
你說故事已經結束 很久
我忘了 向前走

我努力假裝現在過得很好
現在的你看來已不需要我
也許在不同的時空
還牽著 你的手

想知道你真的過得好嗎
沒有我也許是種解脫
將思念穿梭在宇宙數千光年
悄悄到 你身邊
現在我試著習慣一個人過
也許你已經開始新的生活
陪著我的叫做寂寞
陪你的 是誰呢?

想知道你真的過得好嗎
沒有我也許是種解脫
將思念穿梭在宇宙數千光年
悄悄到 你身邊
現在我試著習慣一個人過
也許你已經開始新的生活
陪著我的叫做寂寞
陪你的 是誰呢?

也許在不同的時空
還牽著 你的手

My internet miraculously comes back to life!

Out of a sudden;

like, *poof!*

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

I can't find the logic

You friendzone a guy you like;
And girlfriend-ed a guy you don't!

Naise...

Because I really hope you'll be the one there with me

Even as my BFF

--

The last time I felt so dejected, wasn't that far in the past. The world just comes crushing down all of a sudden. But I know I'll pick myself up really fast. All I need is some motivation; some directions.

--

Please, let miracle happens and fulfill our dreams...

Still searching

Searching for that certain someone to lead me back to my old self
To correct me of my wrongdoings now
To accompany me on my quests
To find my way back into love

Friendzoned!

Make you my BFF;
Upgrade one more "F"!


Great.
I just got into the amazing place all good guys end up in!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

The sad moment

The sad moment when you realize there's no new 9gag post to browse =(

Because for so many years, I've been wanting to spend some special day together

Nothing should go wrong

Monday, December 5, 2011

Grow old together; Forever and Always

We don't have to be in a romantic relationship to do just that, do we?

--

Because there's so many of you out there that means so much to me,
it's just not possible

Life after HIMYM

it's time for SAT!

--

Oh wait,
there's still Two-and-a-Half Men.

XD

And we said hi!

After so many years of awkwardness in the lift. Awesome. Haha

Teammates!

Nice meeting them up after so many years of MIA.

Though only 6 of us appeared -.-

6 bak chor mee in a row!

Is there a Guinness record for this!? Lol

Another scholarship opportunity missed

Cos of work this time round

--

If I go for this cycle, I get to skip round 1's interview which will greatly increase my chance.

But I can't make it =(

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Bak Chor Mee

That's what I had consecutively for the past 5 meals. Naise.

Post-race

I can keep my left knee in the cupboard already

FUCKING HURTS!!!

SCMS 2011

Heavy and spicy dinner at 12mn, slept for 20mins, had fever;
COMPLETE FULL MARATHON.

Beat that.
LIKE A BOSS!!!

--

Though I finished in 7hrs. -.-

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Thanks Julynn Goh (again)

for dabao-ing lunch for me before I die of hunger.. LOL

--

And also Rex for fetching me out for dinner! =]

New challenge

Marathon with fever. Naise.

Brother got a car!

some mega small one,
but it doesn't matter;

hopefully it's not heavy on fuel consumption,
and also (even more) hopefully I can get my license soon...

Starving to death I swear

Been up since morning and haven't had anything since the bowl of bean curb last night. Zzz

The world is small; proven again

Found her at last!

Though I just saw her in the lift like 4 hours ago. -.-

It doesn't matter that I didn't get through the first round

it's still quite an experience.
And the affirmation that fellow interviewee gave is sufficient to make my day.

Even if some made it further,
as long as you know you are better, it's fine.

(Or at least let me think of it this way. LOL)

Thursday, December 1, 2011

THANKS JULYNN GOH!

For being the awesome date of a lonely man for the night! XD

If Brandon didn't tell me

I won't have known that I cut down my salute before CO.

Things that happen when you're nervous...

--

and that includes marching off same-hand-same-leg in front of everyone during rehearsal. -.-

I protested so much to the dinner

I have to thank whoever that opposed me,
because we just had one helluva night.

4x2 + 1

I really felt lonely when I'm the only one there without a girlfriend;
I want that perfect one to come back to my side;
I wanna bring her to my gatherings,
tell her the life stories of ours.

I feel like I'm missing out in life;
I feel like, sometimes, somethings,

they just don't need a reason to desire.

Happiest day in the past two years

not only because I'm collecting my pink IC (finally) tomorrow.

--

I really think I look fucking awesome tonight. HAHA.
Thanks Kaung for lending me the vest anyway! =]

--

Pretty date, awesome dinner, touching speech by Jie Bo, great chilling at the bar with my be(a)st friends and their WAGs, and most importantly,

a perfect shock by CSM.

--

Two days ago, CSM smsed to ask me which of two watches are better; so I chose and told him, and thought to myself "knn, ORD already still needa work!" Though I swear I was secretly suspecting it to be something more.

Today at the dinner, he thanked everyone, even his girlfriend, but he missed Mathew and I...

Then towards the end, he mentioned us, "two most outstanding soldiers in the company"
I won't say I deserve it, but I was really touched.
He got the two of us up the stage,
and presented us with a present each.

It was the watch he got me to choose.

I wanted to make fun of him,
but I decided not to when I realize the red strands of blood in his eyes.
Maybe some of you may think that he acted sad,
but I worked with him; I know he reached his low point.

On my note to him and OC,
I briefly thanked them;
because I was in a hurry,
and given a chance again, I would do the same.

I cannot find a perfect word, or sentence, or paragraph to phrase my gratitude to the two of them.
Thank you Sirs;

thanks for the lessons you've taught us,
the patience you've given,
the scolding I know that was for our better future,
the love you've never showed but deep down I know you two have it within.

I hate it when people suck up, and if you're reading,
you know I don't do it even when people think I do
(and all you people reading, no judgement is required)
But I still have to say what I've said.

And once again,
Thanks.

--

I don't think the past two years were the best in my life,
but they were good enough to go up the chart.

But now, even when we remain an unity deep down,
let's move on to our own individual future.

4th Company,
Swift and Deadly
Redcon 1,
For Honour and Glory

HDB is so desperate for scholars

that they're actually sending e-mails out to people because they are "keen on making [you] a scholar with us"

Naise.

I'll take my own sweet time tonight

Because I know everyone will be late. -.-

And I've been rushing to waiting and waiting to rush the past two years;
time to take a break.

--

Tomorrow's finally the day.
I've thought about it,
but never dream of it happening.
So near, yet so far...

Money vs Portfolio

A high paying job at $2.8k/month

vs

A job at MAS

--

Tough choice

So everything isn't so bad afterall

I should have just taken a breather and relax

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Everything just isn't

Just when you thought the night's gonna be a wild one with crazy partying, some are chickening out, while others switch location, and some others just go MIA.

When you thought you're gonna get a job, suddenly your friends got it instead; and that became the reason for you having to collect your race pack all alone tomorrow.

Just when you thought your livelihood is secured with so many options of jobs available, you suddenly find yourself unemployed with $17 left in your bank and having a hugh debt to clear.

When you wanted to get this opportunity to work as hard as you can to earn the budget for a trip you wanted so much to go, you realize you can't even support yourself through 3 meals.

Just when you thought everything's gonna work out just fine, everything just isn't.

After a seemingly perfect plan

comes the far-from-it reality.

Nothing ever works out the way you want it.

Why does it hurt so much to lose something I don't have

Because I've always thought its gonna be mine, and have given up so much in the process. There were so many other opportunities available but I turned them all down.

I've put too much faith in it that it landed me in this sorry state, but it's alright; I'll pick myself up some day, some day...

If I ever get to live pass it.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Reacher vs Settler

My whole life, I've been the former

It's the end of November!

Looking back, I really haven't done anything much this month.
And by that, I'm actually including "camp stuff" in as well.

--

This coming month's gonna be a poor one... =(
UNEMPLOYED!!!

reconsidering

because it really isn't a bad idea if there's a scholarship for it (hard to find though) and brother's idea of him working there for a year while I study is really motivating, but the application for UK schools are really tedious

Hold yourself together!

Please do no break down, I need you...

Be strong,

knee.

Plan failed

14km reduced to 10km.
Not that bad actually.

Last chance to ran with my bro!

Internet is back, bitches!!

After a 12-hour breakdown, it revived!

Monday, November 28, 2011

约定

说好的三年不见面用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定

就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了

就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了

你会记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了

Bond-free

The idea of getting a bond-free scholarship is really appealing to me now;
I can have the freedom to be crazy before I'm too old to do anything.

One of the best performance in an interview of mine

But still, not confident of it.
They only want overseas scholar,
and they are not really interested in my pursue of a business degree as second major,
and Susu went for the same interview. =O

Lol.

All the best, Jason!

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Happy 2 years old!

Dear blog,

I'm sorry that I missed the date by 3 days.
It only came to my mind that I created you few months before my enlistment and now that I've ORD-ed after 1year 10month, you should be around 2yo!

Take care,
Jason

HIV positive

Kang: "Seriously?"

Of course not la!!! LOL.

--

HIV negative; Certificate of Achievement; Grade A for Performance and Conduct;

best thing: ORD lo!!!

--

Only bad news of the week is that I realize my Medic course result was a B grade. Zzz
AND (ok, two bad news then) we still have to go back next week. -.-

What's the best way to transmit information?

Telegraph? No
Telephone? No
Television? No

Tell-a-women.

LOL!

--

I think this is better:

Tell-aaron

HAHAHAHAHA

Anyway, Thanks for coming to my parade!

Mum, Dad, Sis, Bryan, Oliver, Kang and BP!

I remember and I don't

"Homat ORD company"
I really used much effort to hold back my tears.
I've done it twice before,
now, it's finally my turn...

The first day of enlistment is still so clearly stuck in my mind and the feeling and emotion I had will forever be etched in my heart. I remember looking around and thinking all those faggots are not gonna make it in the commando formation. I remember myself finding out about the courses and wanting to go leaders course. And I remember myself chickening out in the end. I remember myself struggling to pass IPPT; I remember myself being proud of my improvements week in week out; and I remember dreading the book in.

I remember reaching the camp and frantically looking for familiar faces in Chin Boon, Leo and Zac; I remember the first stranger I came to know was Joel. I remember thinking this white chick is gonna fall out soon; I remember looking at the blur Kar Wee thinking he'll definitely not make it; and I remember we all made it through in the end. I remember being jealous of Nicholas for getting Best Signals; I remember hating Jesse for always trying to act like a leader but gives us trouble; I remember people telling me how wayang Elisha was; I remember hearing people saying Gabriel shouldn't have gotten Best Weapon; and I remember the shock I got when I came to know that Christ and I have met before.

I don't remember, when we started to become good friends;
but we did and we still are.

I don't remember when we actually started to countdown to this day, and I don't remember how much the anxiety was.
Because today, this day, the day has come. And we're finally parting ways. After leaving so many different places in the past, we know we will eventually miss it even when we can't wait to leave it. And true enough, some part of me tells me I'm hating that I have to leave.

I remember the moment when I prepare for my first jump out of the plane; and I remember the last second before I landed on my last jump in Thailand. I remember the turn out we had the first day in Battalion; and I remember the bittersweet parade we had to get our Red Beret after the 72km. I remember waking up early to go for practice missions for ATEC; and I remember hearing "Heaven now" through the comms on our final one in Taiwan. I remember the anxiety we had last Xmas when we have to check our pager once every few minutes; and I remember the ferry ride back to camp after the Tekong deployment. I remember the blood, sweat and tears we shared during our training; and I remember the laughter and joy we had reaping the reward of Redcon 1 and going for R&R.

I don't remember missing out on anything;
and I don't remember the pain.

--

We've been waiting for this day to come, wanting it so badly;
now, it's finally here.
Really here.
2 years have past since.

--

The last time I had my pink IC, I haven't met that bunch of awesome mates.
The last time my hair was long, I haven't grow up.
The last time I went to school, I haven't learnt anything.



Wednesday, November 23, 2011

I watched it again

And I still hate the ending..

--

And I still feel sad about it

Monday, November 21, 2011

A big step backwards

Wdl tuition has been cancelled, Garden's tuition center slot taken up by others, Keppel's admin job requires an interview. Where is my money gonna come from? I hope I don't have to go back YCKPS to relief teach for the next 6 months...

And Kang's parents not keen to let him go.
Who's up?! Application now opens, but subject to interview! Haha

--

The trip now seems less likely,
but I just became more sure that I want it to happen.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

HIMYM really screw up my plans

Not reading my books, not touching my library items, not revising my econ, not preparing for my interviews, not studying for my SAT, and most importantly, not sleeping. Zzz

But still, it's too hilarious! HAHA

20/11/2011 2011hr

That was the bride and groom's march in timing just now. Cool huh.
Even though it's not my big day nor is it anything significant to me, but having my presence there at that moment was historical; at least for being part of their love story.

My room is really in a goddamn mess

Time to do some packing!
Hopefully I can do them tomorrow, in preparation for ORD!!! LOL.

Some mums are better than others

How can the aunties resist me?!?!
LOL.

Gonna screw my SAT

Haven't touch it in a while

Wedding

Seeing people getting married is really quite euphoric.

The next time,
I guess it's my brother's turn! XD

Heavy rain + Slippery shoes + Bad knees + Rushing for time

best combination you can ever have;
thankfully I brought my umbrella when I went out...

Striked!

Mum striked 4D again! Shiok; debts cancelled off. HAHA

You haven't been in my life

but I have been in yours,
here.

You haven't done anything

if you haven't made a mistake

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Knees

Y U NO RECOVER?!

My left knee hurts so bad I can't walk =(

Watching the MV, again

after the movie,
makes it even more sad.

--

I want to know,
what happened to the guy after she got married...

I thought I might not be able to cope with all the tuitions

Apparently I need more of them now,
because I don't have fucking enough money!!! =(

I AM BACK

to start off,

I AM BROKE, too. LOL

So many of you ponned the Alumni event!

So disappointed! Especially those that said they are going but in the end didn't even appear. -.-
Lol.

--

Shirlene Koh and Lynette Lee! Never go never mind still get caught by us at Kovan!!! Haha. And Rubin/Ken you two best, one botak don't want go the other brother also follow. Zzz

Batam

2nd time there, totally a whole new experience.

The first thing we did after landing at Batam was to drop Jiebo off to his hotel (which happen to be quite posh) because he have got no cash with him and his phone has no auto roaming; and he have to wait there for 4hrs doing nothing while waiting for the rest to return. Best thing, he's only gonna be there for the night and the next day. -.-

Anyway, so we checked in. First impression: IMPRESSED
For $90/pax we get this kind of sea-facing, tree-top, nature-style resort, only Joel Liew will think it's only Okay.
Haha. Any the case, I find it a steal.
One down point is there being no facilities but the nearest place with food and things to do is only 200m;
BUT there's 2 steep knolls in between that made every journey there feels like a route march.

First night's plan to BBQ was voided cos the charcoal was too expensive (real reason being everyone's just too lazy). So we decided to just chill in the resort after returning from breakfast shopping and the traditional (painful) Javanese aroma message. And oh! THE PLACE IS A SCAM! EVERYTHING HAS A F*CKING HIDDEN COST! They first say the driver is free, then it turn out that we have to pay him SGD$50 and this happens to almost every trip we took Zzz. The taxis are so much safer in terms of pricing than the transport arranged with the resort (though they are all equally unsafe on the road).

The second day is the highlight. The whole trip's success lies in this morning. We prayed hard for the sun. But we didn't get it. Good thing is, the rain didn't appear too; at least not until noon. So it was cloudy the whole morning. Apart from us not being able to get some tan, Joel also couldn't do his much anticipated Wind Surfing (but don't worry, a found a much cheaper version in Singapore that is kind of like a course; and it's cheap only after August next year when we become students). I did Parasailing which would have been really fun, if not that we have actually done Parachuting before. The initial take off and the eventually landing into the sea was really the more exciting part (check out the video of how Jian Yu did a failed take off LOL!) with the time in the air just feel like a flight that never ends. But I really enjoy that kind of freedom felt; if not for the constant reminder that that is the height to get ready to land when we are doing airborne (so there is this constant fear in me that tells me to "prepare for action" when there really isn't any action because it hangs). And based on our experience with the harness, we know it have to be tight to be comfortable but the instructor says loose is good; so we trust him and thought maybe it's different. It wasn't. Scammed. So I spent half the time adjusting my seats in mid-air and that's when something caught my eyes. SOME OF THE ROPES ARE HELD TOGETHER BY CABLE TIES!!! LOL. The best part is there's so much sand around it that it looks like it's gonna snap anytime soon. But I figure that falling from that height into the sea probably won't kill me but maybe just give me a good slap on my skin. Ha. Anyway, here comes the highlight. JET SKIING!!! I'm so gonna go for PPCDL course to get a license for it (actually to get a chance to play it again is more important). The euphoria I've gotten from that experience can only be described in one word: SEX. IT. WAS. FREAKING. FUN. LOL!!! Jumping up and down the water, almost falling off after making a sharp turn, speeding up after a turn to catch your own wave, raving the throttle to literally fly in the water, bumping up and down when the water gets choppy, crossing the path of a by-passing boat to hitch his trail of waves, everything just adds up to make that 10mins one of the best time in my life and the $10plus dollar f*cking well-spent. THIS made the trip a nice one. And then it rained. Just after we paid for the windsurfing (which the refund caused Gab and I to have to walk back to the beach later in the afternoon when everyone else is sleeping -.- and it is not cashed back into my account yet Zzz) and therefore have to cancel it.

And we tried to hitch a ride from Turi Beach back to our resort because it started to pour really badly and when we offered a $4 tips, the old couple was so angry. My interpretation (since the language barrier was kinda big) of it was that they don't want our money as they find it an insult; but apparently the others think they find $4 too little. HAHA.

So we hid out in our bungalow with Mie Seddap for lunch! Oh did I mention the breakfast we made was a big success? So is the lunch! With only the instant noodles and 4 eggs left, we scrambled the eggs and fry the noodle to such perfection that it felt like a restaurant-made $20-a-plate dish. LOL. (We did this actually to conserve some space for our buffet dinner but we ended up having an average of 2 packets each)

After that we napped (with Gab and I having significantly lesser sleep cos of the above-mentioned event)in the nice weather. Then we woke up at around 6 to a splendid dinner: Mediterranean-style buffet dinner with live cooking and entertainment for just $27/pax; and the ambiance was great! Totally classy, especially with the Desert Wine we brought that cost us a $10 cockage charge that I thought was worth it (though the angmohs beside were all drinking totally classier Red Wine. LOL)

Then, what happened in Batam, stays in Batam.
and the next morning we woke up, checked out, lunched at Nagoya, shopped at Batam Center and finally ferry back at 4pm. And that really summarize the whole trip. Not eventful, but happening; not exciting, but interesting. =]

Bailey's, Vodka Mode, Mojito

Sounds like we're gonna rock and roll for X'mas and New Year!!! LOL

YCKPS!

It's been long since I last stepped in.
And it was really really nostalgic.
It really made me wanna go back there to teach.
And that's maybe what I'm gonna do.

--

And our photos are still outside library!!!
LOL
Naise

My brother-in law gave me a full-length Skins!!!

Because it was too big for him
when it says "S" -.-
And it's just nice for me!
Rock and Roll!!!
LOL

What a pleasant surprise...
XDXD

Kinship

Because I found the Skins just before we leave for our run,
Jack wanted it too,
so he texted Joanne to ask whether Kenneth has got any lobang;
that's when sis told bro that his elder son is sick,
with the younger son under her care as well
and bro-in-law out of town.
So we decided to run to her house
to pass her the thermometer for Bryan
while Oliver is sleeping.

True friends are there when you ask for help;
siblings appear in times of need even when you didn't ask for it.
Perhaps it's all fated.

--

And maybe it's karma
because it all started off from Kenneth giving me the Skins!

Learning lab rejected my internship...

"We found your candidature to be strong. However, we were unable to find an immediate fit within our organisation for you"

Oh well, rejection don't feel so bad when you don't want it badly.
Maybe I can try for their scholarship!

--

Thinking bout it;
now that my schedule allows me to start work only at 10am,
and it'll end by evening,
teaching tuition after that...
Maybe I can skip Wednesday, Friday and Saturday night from tuition,
and work at Rebel or other clubs!
Naise.

Then I won't really have time to rest. -.-

And learn my driving/riding.

--

But now that Batam trip is done with,
my wallet's kinda done with its job too.
I NEED MORE MONEY!!! zzz

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

I feel like talking to her

Me: but there really isn't anything to talk about
Kang: uh, talk about exams? haha
Me: nah, nvm.

*moments later*

Me (on fb to her): eh when's your exam?

--

LOL!
I just remembered I wanted to ask that. HAHA

Learning Lab

they really accepted me for my internship!!! (Amazed, stunted, shocked, surprised, whatever)
And it's really a good chance to get closer to their scholarship (which FYI, is equal in value with Keppel's)

--

But the down side,
I have to give up my current tuition jobs.

The pay and everything is gonna be competitive,
but dashing my students' expectation of me;

morally wrong.

--

Seems like I've made up another life-altering decision.

Why this holiday so short?!

so many things I wanna try...

I'm really tempted to take a gap year now.

--

Should I go get a chance to experience the world?..

--

Give me advice, friends.
SMS me on this; just do it randomly if you care enough!

XD

Cool parents are cool

Just told them I'm gonna enroll for 2B.
Didn't say a thing.

Like a boss! HAHA

Should I Urbanathlon it?

it's $128!!

Beast boy!

Because the normal me is crazy
So the crazy beast you guys saw in me is actually me being normal.
I told you I wasn't being crazy when I drink!! Lol

Though I'm abnormal normally.

Like a boss.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Extreme friendship

Maybe now you are having a lot of good friend, and I am just one of them.
We may be meeting up every 2 or 3 month and when people ask, we'll say we're best of friends.
We say that every time we introduce a good friend of ours.

--

But what if tomorrow I pass away, to an accident; from a murder; for a crime I've committed?

I'll become the story of your life.
Yours, yours, and yours.

I'll leave a mark;
I'll suddenly become more important.
More significant.
Because I leave a story for you to tell.
A life story of yours...

--

If you really want your friends to remember you,
die.

That'll create a greater impact than however more memories you're gonna weave in future.

Why are we not dying then?
Because every single one of us are selfish.
Don't boast or even talk about how much you love your friends.
Don't lie and give the excuse that you don't wanna leave them because you don't want them to cry or even feel sad.
Truth is, you don't wanna leave this world ahead of them;
we all wanna outlive each other,
because only the fittest survives,
and because we hate to be the one being left alone while the others stayed together.

The weird part of friendship is,
the greatest memories and strongest emotions are always short-lived.

--

Like artist, you become a legacy when you die during your peak:
Bruce Lee, Marilyn Monroe, whoever.

what great examples.


perhaps we don't have to die, maybe,
we just have to leave when the time is right; or rather, wrong.

Don't wait for change

I worked to make it happen

3x4

That's the (distance/round multiplied by number of rounds) of the impromptu run I just had in km.
And the conclusion? I better start training longer distance before I die on the 4th of Dec.

--

But the feeling was damn good.
Left. Right. Left. Right.
Legs just move on their own as if they're running on dynamo.

On my mind,
it was just how much money I wanna save and what I wanna do with them.
I wanna spend every single bit of the salary I earn this coming break.
There's just so much to do!

And of course, the one thing that constantly pops up is the June trip.
I'm so looking forward to it;
it's definitely gonna happen.

--

I wore two different shoe for each of the feet by the way; totally accidental.
The right NB 380 was half a size too big at 12 and the left NB383 was half a size too small.
The result was blisters on the left and ache on the ball of the feet on the right.
Lesson learnt: get the right size. =]

The anxiety for it is so great

I wish I'm setting off this moment!

Barely enough...

$150/week

= $600/month

= $3600 for 6 months

Hater's gonna hate

it's gonna be AWESOME

Monday, November 14, 2011

I've applied for 2 more jobs!

Despite already have too many at hand.
But Facebook and MAS?!?! One-up people!!
If I ever get them, it must be a dream!...

So, this diarrhea sucks

actually all diarrhea sucks.

But this one particularly cos it disallowed me to sleep last night,
resulting in me unable to get to work this morning,
and cause a risk of possibly ruining my driving lesson later. Zzz

It's great to be talking to old school mates again!

The conversation never seem to be stopping. =]

Xmas and Newyear is near again!

And that just mean......

PARTY!
HAHAHAHAHA

Ok, the first clash occurred

It's really attractive.
Because Keppel can only pay me around $8/hr (excluding $400/month for CPF) and this tuition center job pays $25/hr!
But the thing is, it's only on Saturdays; and so my weekday job have to be relief teaching at YCKPS which I'm not sure if it's available everyday (the pay's better than Keppel). And relief teaching will actually free up more time in the afternoon for more tuition jobs!

The only thing is, do I really want my portfolio to all be teaching related, or to have a stint in corporate work?
I guess the answer's more likely to be the latter.

So the best case scenario now will be Keppel allowing me a 5-day work week to free up my Saturday! (Which I think is also kinda impossible)

Decisions, decisions...

If everything goes well...

I can earn $558/month teaching, without my current student!
Wow... Please go well!

$1150

that's the cost of the bartender course conducted by Association of Bartender Singapore. And you have to be 21yo. And they didn't state when the next course is. Sounds like a good summer course two years down the road!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

This is tough

Even the time when I first made a move,
even the time when I made you angry,
even the time when you played hard to get,
even the time when I asked for a patch after breaking your heart,
even the time when we have been separated for so long,
even the time when you left me,
even the time when you told me to move on,
even the time when you no longer belong to me,
even the time when we became strangers,
even the time when I realize all these are real,

they were easier...

You are the one I really wanna bring for my 21st

and yes, it's impossible...

--

You're so important that I only want that person to be you.
Because you exist, any one else I bring seems less-than-significant.

I've been thinking

it's really difficult to think that you're my friend,
but I really don't wanna lose this "friendship".

Maybe being strangers is better for us than being friends.

--

But I'm not strong enough to let that happen.

I'm lost...

Experience

is the sole purpose in life

Looking back, what have we done?

What sort of events constituted our memories?
We don't have much exciting stories to share.

So much of our lives together have been spent studying.
We smiled, because we managed to complete that particular chapter.
We frowned, because we didn't do well for an exam we studied together.
We quarreled, because we couldn't agree on where to study.
And we all we did share was the reason, no emotions.

Is this really the life we want?
I've said it before,
next time, when I have the chance,
let us see the world, experience our lives,
together.
If,
we ever have the chance.

--

What have I gained?

I've spent my whole life studying,
and to the very end,
I ain't exactly great at it,
and I haven't achieved a lot.
I enjoyed the process,
but what have I reaped?
Knowledge? The path to success?
Not exactly.
I sowed the dispensable with irreplaceable time and energy.

I'm not a geek, nor a nerd.
I've had my time to hang out with friends I love,
spent my energy on the sport I like,
worked the job I enjoy, and
slept the sleep I need.

But I really haven't seen the world,
I haven't experience any life.

--

It's time for a change.
It's time I start planning for the real future.

--

In the next ten years to come,
what will be the most exciting things you've ever done that you'll wanna tell people you interact with?
Not about getting 16 distinctions out of the 20 exam papers I've taken,
not about getting champions with the team I played with,
not about loving the girl I want to marry, still, ever since I met her at 13,
not about working since 14 years old to earn my own pocket allowance,
not about flying an airplane in the sky with my instructor fast asleep,
not about the 42km that I've been running every year and the 72km I've marched,
not about having the courage to jump out of the plane hoping the parachute will deploy,
not about achieving Redcon one, holding multiple appointments, promoting to CFC,
not about having a 50% attendance for school and ended up being the top few,
not about being born in a family so imperfect, we've shared tears and laughter every day,
not about having a Mum that supports everything I do, even tattooing,
not about having a Dad that wakes up at 3am just to keep me accompany,
not about having so many good friends around that will readily die for me; correct me if I am wrong.

One of these may be what you're dreaming of and dying to have the chance to boast about.
For me, I don't deny, it used to be;
now, they're forgettable.

I want exciting stories,
really exciting ones.

It's about time I start planning my life

Not about studies, not my career, not even my future family.

But what I really wanna do in my short lifespan.

--

I wanna see the world with my own naked eye.

The people, not the place.
The experience, not the stories.
The memories, not the photos.

The (Bigger) Game Plan

Riding (commence March '12): $500
Diving (Basic; March/April '12): $600
Diving (Advance; May '12): $700
SEA backpack (Birthday trip; June '12): $1500
Europe backpack (will it happen?!?! Summer '13 or '14): $5000

Things to do:
Earn and save up!!! =]

Will it be stupid to take a lap year?...

I wanna try out so many different part-time jobs that all seems so fun and exciting to me, but I don't have the time to do them... After graduation, it'll be meaningless to do them. Guess I've wasted too much time on a single job in the past. Haiz. Relief teach, private tutoring, clerical work at Keppel land, support staff at MAS, shop-keeper at Kinokuniya, internship at Learning Lab, bartender at Rebel, sales at A&F, air steward for SIA... I've got so much options and I wanna try out every one of them. The body is willing, but time is not. Goddamn it!

3-hour straight of H2 Math

it's really kinda tiring...

what's more: 5-day straight. o.O

I really needa tune my body clock back to normal!

Not healthy being nocturnal

Wasted trip!

Ok, I did manage to return one book and borrowed two more, but when I tried to borrow a third one which I wanted most, it says that my loan quota has reached. So I went to the concierge to check it out because I just returned one and they told me to wait. Before that, I thought it was hopeless, so I left the book on the table. And poof! When I return (after 1min) it disappeared! -.-

And then I went to Popular, wanting to get a Vocab book and travel guides. Got the former but couldn't find the latter. The only productive I did was to get cakes for my dad and Starbucks card for myself. The best thing is, I forgot the most important thing of topping up my bus card!!! -.-

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Tough decision

I'm deciding whether to do it solo or with a partner.
Solo is not an issue;
but if I wanna spend it with a partner,
who will I wanna bring that is willing to go?

The thing is, every single one of you bitches out there are my best friend
and everyone one of you is so different that bringing any one of you brings along several different pros as well as cons. So I give up; I really couldn't decide.

The ideal one? Impossible.

--

This trip is hypothetical,

but I'm really having a strong desire to make it come true.

--

We'll see.

ORD's knocking on the door!

Many thanks to Rex who took the effort to drive me to camp to get back my kitbag and then drive me home.
This just means... ORD lo!

And the talk the next day (which was the cause of me returning) made ORD felt like just tomorrow.

I'm not exactly excited for it,
more like nervous actually.

Who knows,
life after may just turn out sucky.

My face's rotting

peeling actually, when there wasn't even sun this morning at Sentosa to start with. Zzz

21st

The Game Plan: Backpack tour around South East Asia in 10days

--

Anyone up for it?

Life

I wanna live life to the fullest; to make it meaningful, to fill it with colours.
Because there's only one chance at it.

I wanna stop doing things to show others, I wanna do them to prove to myself.

Even if I were to die tomorrow, I wanna have no regrets.

I've tried

I've tried to let you go. I've tried to move on. I've tried to live my life. I've tried to be happy. I've tried to go out with other girls. I've tried to get you out of my mind. I've tried to shut you out of my heart. I've tried to tell myself you're no longer mine. I've tried to make you less important. I've tried to not love you. I've tried to forget. I've tried to forgive myself. I've tried to be less emotional. I've tried to treat you as a friend. I've tried to stop dreaming.

And I thought I was successful.

There wasn't even a maybe, there wasn't even a perhaps.
I was so sure.
Now I start to doubt.

Maybe.
Perhaps...

I finally know what's my greatest fear

He smiled at me while I was preparing to alight the bus, then when I went down, he rushed down to alight. Then I walked home, and he followed me. I stopped to smoke, he stopped and stared at me from afar. In the end, I just walked towards him and asked him what he wants.

"Anything"
"WHAT DO YOU WANT?"
"You stay here?"
"Ya, I stay here, why?"
"Going out?"
"Ya, so?"
"Want to go Geylang?"

I walked away and he followed. So I decided to walk to the police station to seek refuge. Then he finally disappear.

FUCKING CHEEBYE!!!

--

And the best part, the police on duty was Siddiq. -.-

Realusion

I've been telling myself so much that we're gonna end up together; now it's just the time to go out and live our life. But I know deep down that everything is an uncertainty. I tell myself I wanna marry you. But it really isn't up to me, or even you, to say that that'll happen. Maybe you will find a better guy and eventually settle down. I don't want the day when you call me to inform me that you're marrying to come. But truth is, like how I don't want the movie to end off this way, it may just be the case.

They say that if you really love that person a lot, you'll want her to be happy, to be loved by a guy who loves her more, care for her more, and deserve her more. But it really isn't easy to achieve. I can wait, but I don't wanna lose my chance. The next time, next time when it's possible, I wanna grab hold of you, and never let go again.

I know you may just read this. And I know I'm not supposed to say all this crap. But I still have to. I love you. Even if it means changing anything we have now to something less, I still wanna tell you that.

I felt so down when I heard how you're moving on with life; how you're partying without me with your boyfriend; how I'm less than important to you; how we're no longer together; how you no longer belong to me...

I don't want all these to be happening. But I really have no one other than myself to blame. I'm sorry. Even of it no longer carries any meaning. Please. I don't know what I'm begging of you, but please...

All the best...

I know I shouldn't have watched the show

Because I didn't wanna tear.

--

And I kinda don't like the ending.

First hundred buck!

And I'm gaining hope in teaching yet again. Cool.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Happy birthday Danielle

18, finally!

I've said this on fb, via SMS and called to tell you; I figured I might as well do it here as well.

No matter what, you were once the most important girl in my life. Even if it was just for a short period of time, we have had the memories isn't it. :)

And ya, I'm glad you're moving on well. Hopefully being legal for clubs gives you more happiness than the miserable bit I gave in the past! (see wasn't such a bad thing I left right!!!) XD

Enjoy, babe. :)

Just two messages I didn't have the courage to send out

Because I know things will just turn out worse

Shall we?

Do you feel like time have passed and things changed? Like we're no longer the friends we used to be? I'm sorry but I can't help it... It just feels like you're avoiding me or something or maybe it's just me thinking too much. But perhaps this is because of a certain mistake we've made? Let the past go and move on shall we? I'm sorry if I'm making things awkward but I hope not! :)

Restart

I'm sorry but I just have to say it. It's something in my heart for more than a year. I think when there's a problem, we shouldn't be avoiding it. I don't like how two good friends turn out bad. It's obvious we're trying to stay away from each other. The way we started drifting away, fading out of one another's life and eventually even cease to acknowledge each other's existence. I've been trying hard to reconcile, but I still somehow feel that you're resistant to me. Stop acting like strangers in person and try so hard to maintain a friendly outlook through the phone; face it, we've changed, we're different, we are no longer who we were. We've made a mistake, but we can always learn. We move on, not away. I know it's impossible now to go back to us being best friends like in the past where we can eat together every week, play mahjong together overnight, run together in the night and study together till late in the wee hours. All I'm asking for is for us to stop avoiding each other and become good friends again. Is it not possible? I hope things won't turn out more awkward though, will it?

Rash on my face

sucks

It feels good to be back on talking terms

Naise

It's okay, as long as the face of Yusof Ishak is nice

I'm fine, I'll just do it. HAHAHA

Soul vs Brain,
BRAIN WON!

They saw it but just don't reply

I don't understand how girls work!

--

Oh I was reading this book and they started to talk about the scientific explanation for difference between a girl and guy's brain. And there's this part of the brain called frontal lobe which allows us to "next" or make plans for the future and the lobe also plays a key role in emotional control, personality, and judgement among other things.

Within the brain there's two different kinds of brain tissue - White and Gray.

So girls apparently have got 10 times more white matter (a fatty protein called myelin) in the brain than guys; this matter is the brain's communication network linking different parts of gray matters and the gray matters to the rest of the body. And these white matters are found in high concentration in girl's frontal lobe while men had none. And guys, on the other hand, has got around 6 times more gray matter (where the actual processing of information is done) in the brain than women.

--

Hmmm...
So they think too much by linking all the limited information they stored
while we have so much ideas of what's going on but fail to link them up!
This is especially so in areas of emotional control, personality, and judgement?
Sounds true enough...

Ok, two more jobs

$2000; 10am - 6pm 6-day work week: sounds good so please let me get it (though it'll just screw up every other jobs except the tuitions)

AND

$32.5/hr for Calculus tuition (intensive and probably gonna last for just the next week; but... never say no to Yusof Ishak!)

LOL.

enough to kill!

$12.34 and $11.11

that's the amount in mine and Gab's Ez-link after we topped up $10 each.
And today is.... 11/11/11!!! make a goddamn wish! HAHAHA

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Fastest student

Thanks Mr Lim, I take that as a compliment. Lol

But that scumbag that came late and took my parallel parking practice spot.

You. Watch. Out.

LBJ, again?

but they have a pay raise and it's now $7/hr...

AND!

it's $15/hr on CNY period!!! How to reject. HAHAHA

Job hunter

When everyone else is fighting unemployment,
I am too!
Lol.

But with better luck and opportunities.
Please, let the different jobs I'm taking on not clash!

I can stay at Kinokuniya whole day...

and that's why I applied for a job there!

Those modeling agencies are out on the hunt again!

I take it as a compliment
Though I know it's a scam.

Lol

Please don't rain!

I still needa walk back to the MRT!

--

To think I rushed and sweated so much my shirt is drenched just now.
Zzz

The only good thing: I finally got the chio dentist! Hahaha

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Not exciting now...

WHY SO LITTLE?!?! =(

The most exciting day of the month!

PAYDAY!

3 tuition offers in a day!

1 got declined by me (pre-school, seriously?), 1 cancelled the assignment (school teacher for higher chinese?) and the other's pending (PLEASE let me get it) =]

Why, Prudential, WHY?!?!

I went down to Popular yesterday to check out the books I wanted to buy,
then I decided to go home to check whether they're cheaper online;
and before I left, I went down to the bank to confirm my bank statement and I still have $90+ left.

So today, after checking that it is cheaper at the store itself,
I went over to my sister's place to get her Popular member card
then went over to Compass Point to get the books I want.

Since I took LRT, which landed at the 3rd floor,
I didn't wanna re-route to the 1st floor to draw money and so headed straight to Popular hoping to use Nets/Master
And guess what, they both got declined!

So the puzzled me went down to down to check and I'm left with $19 in the bank!!
-.- The angry me end up going into Starbucks to spend every cent of it. LOL!
And now I'm home and checked, my initial suspicion was right, Prudential was being a bitch.

They were supposed to deduct it on the 5th, so I assumed I missed it,
though there was a slight doubt that they might be doing it yesterday cos of Hari Raya,
I let that thought pass. BUT IT'S BACK TO HAUNT!

Zzz.
So, wasted trip.
Actually, not exactly.

Starbucks' Belgian Waffles are really kinda worth!
And I got 5 books from the library.
Hmmm...

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Now I'm gonna blame HIMYM for this sleepless night

it's just too funny to stop at THIS episode!

WTF my EMA interview clashed with my schedule AGAIN!

=(

First with ATEC on the previous round.
This time round with dental, then AGAIN with Batam.
Why my life so sad!!!

I was already contemplating while on the way home,

that I will not get angry when I see them playing mahjong in my room.
Since the house, which the room belongs to, belongs to my parents, and they have every right to use it.

And so,
I got home,

Angry.

-.-

I was drinking my Cranberry White Chocolate Frap

then my brother asked me into his room and started talking about the wounds on his butt and how they burst;
the next thing I know, he got me to change his dressing for the bloody (literally) opening.

My Cranberry Frap never tasted better. -.- HAHA

Back to camp after a 2-week break!

Met up with friends, played some mahjong, talk-cocked with superior, showed face, packed cupboard, returned equipment and poof! here I am back home to enjoy my one-week off followed by next week's leave!

Life's good...

Oh
and TK was trying to learn mahjong! HAHA

--

Poor Nic, why you volunteer to support??
Or you'd be like me at home now,
and for the rest of the week!

Why haven't I thought of it earlier!?

Maybe she told her something
and that's why she's always leaving us alone...

But it doesn't matter anymore,
it's been so long;
now that we're no longer talking
and with all the avoidance,
I think this will always remain a speculation on my part.

I shall not dwell too much into this.

I finally recall why I'm so hard-up on cash this month...

Try $160 for ORD dinner, $125 for the stileto and $50 for reservation of hotels with a month's (miserable) pay.

Gum,

Y U SO PAIN!!! =(

After Book Depository changed their default currency to SGD,

it seems like the books they're selling are getting more and more expensive!

Are they trying to cheat my feelings or it's just Popular getting cheap? Hmmm...

M1 Xplorer no more!

WHY?!?!?! =(

Monday, November 7, 2011

Finally, after almost 3 weeks

I'm coming home... of the Commando! -.-

The Game Plan

maybe it's the fact that I'm home alone,
or just these kind of parent-issue movies,
or I guess it's just me,
being weak...

I'm watching HIMYM season 1

and there's so much similarity in the plot agreeable to my life.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Why is the Sun so nice today!

I mean the clouds so nice as to not form up.

--

So why am I not suntanning?!?! =(

Awake after 4 hours of sleep

Ok, maybe more of hungry than awake.

Headache and blurry eyes... AGAIN

Alcohol + 4 rounds of Mahjong game + NO sleep since last morning + every other things negative

--

I didn't waste my life! =D

And if it's only the 7th day of November...

it just means...

there's still 3 more day to payday!
-.-

And I'm broke.

Thank goodness (Ok, thank Tengwee instead) that I won some money just now to tide me over this "storm" XD

It's only the 7th day of November

and I'm posting more than I do the whole of 2009.
Great.

This is what staying at home does to you.

--

Time for some 9gag!

Geek.

This is not a ramble

You're not being s*****, or at least so I think.

Nicely put, it's mutual trust at work between us.
Just, go wild while we can afford to!
=]

From the way I'm rambling nonsense

I bet everyone knows I'm half-drunk.

--

The other half?
I can't find it!

This made me think that the iPhone is actually quite a good buy

timely, at least.

I've probably considered this period of block MC/Leave/Off back then when I was buying it I guess.

--

Whatever

I NEEDA BOOK IN IN 12 HOURS' TIME~~~!!!

A sudden realization when I wanted to charge my iPhone and thought, "But I am not gonna use it for the rest of the week!"
-.-

=(

And it's just so not justified to put it under "hobby"

But it really is!

Why is "Shopping" a hobby but gambling -- wrong, Mahjong-ing -- not?!
=(

Oh, and I just Mahjong-ed!

First time in 3 weeks, by the way.

That seems like ages to me.
When will I ever stop?
I'm not hoping it's never.

When you're so close to this pair of couple

and you see them saying mushy stuff on Facebook,
don't you have the urge to "like" it knowing how sweet that is?

But you just never wanna intrude their own private lovey-dovey space
(though it's public -.- )

And he didn't call back

like always, as expected. -.-

Alright, time to catch some sleep

Goodnight peeps;

at 0850Hr in the morning. =]

The most hurting words in love

Not "Sorry"
Not "Break up"
Not "I hate you"

But "We can never get back together"

One section of SAT test with an episode of HIMYM each

perfect combination to spend the Sunday.

I'm not

I'm not the commitment -guy,
I'm a single-guy


I don't want a relationship,
I wanna be free!

--

Really?

Kinda true that it exists in every guy that's attached;
that some times, we feel like this.

Until perhaps when we're old and mature enough to wanna settle down,
to start a family with the one we really love.

--

Sometimes,
some things we regret.

I need both grammar and vocabulary practice books

NEED. =(

Who prays to god on facebook?!

it's irritating knowing it's attention seeking. Zzz -.-

Stupid diarrhea

Somehow I think you're the cause of me eating so much. Zzz

It feels good to be studying at home on a weekend

I don't know why but I just like this feeling of being studious.

And understanding/knowing something really does lift up my mood;
am I a nerdy geek or what?!?!

Lol.

I don't like corn stuff

But this one's good...
Not too corny. LOL.

Everyday, I wake up anxious to check my mail

but there's just no progress every single time.

--

I'm not asking for money to fall from the sky,
but why can't the opportunities come more readily?!

I'm starting to feel the despair of being unemployed.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Headache and blurry eyes

Am I getting old?
Or is it just because of the late nights?

It's been raining the past few nights

Nice weather...

I really don't like the feeling of having to book in

Though this is the second-last time I'm gonna do it;
the past "holiday" has been too laid-back.

So much, I've forgotten how life used to be back in camp.

--

I'm sure I'll miss it someday,
perhaps soon.

"Backspace" is not functioning properly on my keyboard

that sucks;

reminds me of life,
where we cannot delete what we've said or done.

--

Where we can't "Backspace" to the previous page...

I swear my Vocab sucks

And that's why SAT practices are killing me.

From today onward,
I'm gonna mug like I've never mugged before!!!

--

Then again,
the mind is strong but the flesh is not;

how to?!?!
When I have so much distractions around...
not forgetting it's back-to-camp week. Zzz

--

For my 2400,
I will...
LOL

I wanna travel around the world!

I bet my brother said that when he was young too.
The difference: he's made it.

Almost 200 cities, how's that.

--

Was discussing the Newsweek's 100 Places to Visit Before they Disappear & National Geography's 100 Places to Go with my brother this afternoon;
then thought about his crazy (or luxurious) 30-day 11-country Honeymoon trip next year...

Just envy.

Then he gave me a thought of railing from Eurasia to Europe on backpack and work-as-I-travel.
Sounds like a plan after grad;
sounds, just a plan.

Let's hope I'm rich, and have the time, and am single (or have a crazy gf), and still have the passion by then.
It really does sound cool to complete much of Europe at one go...

What a crazy thought...

I haven't collected my McDonald's free stuff yet!

And I think I just missed the expiry...

I'm a honest kid

you should know

Temptation, I resist!

No clubbing until nearer to ORD mutherfockers! Lol.

Don't let yesterday take up too much of today

It's so hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember

Friday, November 4, 2011

We spent most of our time together studying

Next time,
Next time when you return,

We'll go out and have fun.

Dammit, my stomach's really wobbly now.

Fats,
Y U NO DISAPPEAR?!?!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Ok, let's be honest, I need LOTS of money!

Diving, Riding, Tattoo, Holidays, Shades, Wallet, Bag, Specs, Laptop, Books, Bike, etc etc.

Y U NO MONEY?!?!?! =(

More interviews please!

Job interviews, Scholarship interviews, whatever interviews!
As long as you got monetary value,
COME COME COME!!! Lol.

New past-time with my brother,

my new running mate.

--

But it's not gonna last long. Lol.

Finally at my 6th lesson...

I moved on to parking!

And it wasn't as difficult as I've thought
(because there were no cars beside. -.-)
LOL!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

La Kopi

Back to pre-enlistment days!

--

This is pre-enlistment too,
for Ken and Alvin. Lol

All the best bros. Ha!

The break is so long

I'm losing track of time.

MJ Black or White

Yep, that's the theme for ORD dinner.
What a lame one indeed. Lol...
Penguin ftw!~

--

"Damn her hair is already wrong colour"
HAHA!

Quoting Nicholas, "it's gonna be an interesting dinner"

I shall start with How I Met Your Mother

Since both Bleach and South Park lag like hell. Zzz

Movie marathon tonight!!! XD

Ice cream ftw!

Since it's recommended by the dentist. Lol.

Fats, please do not be so efficient in forming up. =]

Now that Kang lent me his hard drive...

I swear I can stay home whole day without feeling bored!

Hooray for my wallet! Lol.

Why are there so many people looking for tutor

When there are so many people looking for students at the same time?!

I really have no idea,
because I've never been the student;

all I know is,
I wanna get one! Zzz

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

I'm "vigorously" looking for job now

Desperation.

I need money!

--

Lobangs, anyone?!

This emptiness I've long forgotten

is back.

I haven't really been touching my phone for quite awhile,
and this hasn't been the case for an even longer while.

Alright, I'm getting lonely:
The price of freedom.

--

Still,
it's weird not having my phone ringing.

I'm so pissed that he's angry at me

And I don't think I'm at any fault.

But it's alright...
I've contemplated to conclude that it'll be a win-win situation to apologize on my part.
It doesn't really matter whose fault is it anyway;
I keep my cool, he keeps a friend.
Happy ending. Period.

But yea,
check your temper mate.
In my opinion, it wasn't that big a deal;
and the main thing is, it got cancelled.
Chill man.
=]

And I got no reason why my comp's lagging like hell

But it sucks.

Think my wounds look good.

Swelling isn't very bad and the pain really subsided a great deal.
Now I can even eat Char Kuey Tiao!

Hopefully it'll recover soon... =]

--

And my appetite's back too!
3xPorridge + 2xBeancurb + AlotxBiscuit + AlotxSnacks.
Zzz

Bad point about staying at home whole day!

Every news feed regarding you

makes my heart beats faster.

Monday, October 31, 2011

And guys,... It's November!

ORD is really smell-able now...
Ummm!....

No physical activities for a week

Now that I think of it,

it means no Basketball this Sat, no running to train for Marathon, no swimming/tanning this weekend!
Zzz.

Life sucks.

The insomnia is more irritating than the pain

and what's worst:
I'm so hungry because I can't eat that it's getting even harder to get to sleep. Zzz

Hopefully this ordeal will pass soon! -.-

--

Oh, and even drinking water hurts.
Good thing is, it doesn't feel a thing if I leave it alone.

And the gargle-water's really amazing!
One shot and the pain is gone... Lol

Oh, and there's the 5days MC

Like...
Lol.

Block leave came early!
XD

The dentist's not some chio bu like I hoped!

Saw one, but she's not mine. -.-

But I feel more relieved;
Mine's old...
Old with experience!

The whole operation took less than 20mins and I didn't feel any pain!

Just the numbness on my lips and jaw now sucks.
And I've gotta eat porridge and ice cream for the next don't know how many days. Zzz

--

Shouldn't complain,
Cos it's freeeeeeee!!

XD

There are 14 patients ahead of you

Estimated waiting time: 14min

*look around*
Not a soul. -.-
Who you trying to scam!! Lol

*Walk to the counters*
Not a soul. -.-
I see...
All the pharmacist went out definitely need wait so long ah!
><

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Bleach!

It's been 123456789000milliseconds since I last watch you;
this block leave/off/MC, I'm gonna conquer you together with South Park. LOL.

--

Oh. I should be studying...
SAT, screw it!!!

Because it is not convenient

it is time I slowly let go.

Again.

Slept from 7pm to 11pm

How to sleep now?!?! Zzz

I'm so hungry,

I don't feel like eating.

Someone save me! (help me packet food back. HAHAHA)

Half-an-hour to study something I haven't touched for 2years and teach it to a teacher

I can't do it man.

So, guess I'll be having one less job opportunity;
time to look for more!

--

Now I'm losing faith in teaching.

--

And they cheat!
didn't tell me I would be tested on the subjects;
what interview was that?!
-.-
But can't blame ah,
my bad. =(

--

The only good thing:
they sent a pretty girl to interview me!

Haha!

Saturday, October 29, 2011

I'm in love with the show even before watching it

I can imagine how much tears I'll shed;
even listening to the songs makes my heart slows.

【那些年】

又回到最初的起點

記憶中妳青澀的臉

我們終於來到了這一天

桌墊下的老照片

無數回憶連結

今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約




又回到最初的起點

呆呆地站在鏡子前

笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結

將頭髮梳成大人模樣

穿上一身帥氣西裝

等會兒見妳一定比想像美




好想再回到那些年的時光

回到教室座位前後 故意討妳溫柔的罵

黑板上排列組合 妳捨得解開嗎

誰與誰坐他又愛著她




那些年錯過的大雨

那些年錯過的愛情

好想擁抱妳 擁抱錯過的勇氣

曾經想征服全世界

到最後回首才發現

這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳




那些年錯過的大雨

那些年錯過的愛情

好想告訴妳 告訴妳我沒有忘記

那天晚上滿天星星

平行時空下的約定

再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳

緊緊抱著妳

Dear Jason, please let my interview tomorrow goes smoothly!

And I get the job!!! XD

I found the last 3 posts in my Draft box

What the hell are they doing there?!?! Lol.

Tumblr vs Facebook

Not much of a difference now;

but trust me Blog,
I still prefer you.

XD

I really tear easily.

Even watching a comedy (and, quoting others, sub-standard) show of Homecoming makes me shed drips of tears on touchy scenes covering family ties, that's not very manly indeed.

Weak emotional controls, not the best of character traits to have.

Mediocre Me

I am just an Average Joe;
a normal human being with no exceptional skills or talent,
nor do I look like some superstar or possess superpowers.

Neither do my friends around me do.
Nor any non-fictional character that I know of.

But some people just lead a life more colorful than others, irregardless of how you define the word color.

好想擁抱妳 擁抱錯過的勇氣

那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你
告诉你我没有忘记

Nice one.. (From 9Gag)

If you choose an answer from this question, what is the chance you will be correct?

a) 25%
b) 50%
c) 60%
d) 25%

--

Sly dog

--

Anyway, Kangster and I had a discussion on this;

I believe the answer is 0% so/because (both a cause and a result/effect) there's no answer to it.
Agree?

We cannot choose 25%, nor 50% (whereby upon choosing, we will not be answering the question)

--

So what happens if we change the options to:

a) 25%
b) 50%
c) 0%
d) 25%

???

Choosing 0% would actually means a 25% chance of getting it correct.

--

WTF?!?!
Mindf**ked. LOL!!

I think the emoticon " >< "

came from South Park.

Lol.

I'm watching an episode of South Park now and it's all about Halloween!

And the original air date is 29th Oct 1997;

and the date today is... 29th Oct!!!

Lol. ok. -.-

Home on a good Saturday afternoon

Time to rest...

I initiated for the dinner hor,

but ALL of you couldn't make it.

Put in some effort please...
Haha.
But can't blame ah, last minute.

See you bosses soon then! =]

Not tanned enough!

Still white;

stupid dark clouds, Zzz! (why you darker than me?!?! Lol)

Some things are better old

Just changed back to the old Braun Bruffel wallet,
cos the fake LV one really suck (and it's tattered).

And I realize the old one is really much more handy.

Friday, October 28, 2011

I've been drinking to sleep all these nights

Back to the old times,
nostalgia.

Why are they so retarded

I'm really lost,
they broke up then now become close friends.
Or are they together again?!...

Hey, wait!
It sounds familiar...
=(

--

She was guilty over her;
it was a mistake,
now?

But what Kangster says is right,

work is definitely more important for the next 8 months.

I'm so gonna slog my ass off

because I've got so many things to do,
and I need so much money for them.

When I talk to you,

Why you no reply?...

--

I'm finding it hard now to draw the line.

The bond is so strong that once we've been in contact,
it takes ages to separate it again;
at least, it is so on my part.
Is it wrong?...

--

Fate,
why you no help?...
=(

I realize I lost your number

How could it be?...

All you mutherfockers out there!

Wish me good luck for my scholarship applications please, thanks. ^^

--

Last chance.

So sad, NUS don't want me

Why everyone got the letter to go for the special-term talk but me!
><

--

Feel so neglected. =(

3rd job-hopeful

Yay! My application for relief teaching has been approved!
Morning job - more or less secured. =]

--

Now all I want is Sunday's interview to go well so that I have a weekend job that'll last through my Uni days! XD

It rocks to have your driving instructor staying opposite you

and what's better?
The next student cancels his lesson,

what that means?
I get to drive the car home!!!
(and it's one of the rare few occasions you hear him saying "drive faster" because it's the peak hour and there's lots of cars)
So I just happily went all the way to...... 70km/hr!
-.- Nothing impressive to those driving day in day out. Lol.

What's next,

FTT off my mind, now I can concentrate on my SAT.
And I just realize most of the scholarship's early-cycle application ends this weekend.
More work to do!
(Zzz Essays AGAIN)

--

And best thing to happen today,
Cousin Samuel says there's vacancy in Rebel as waiter;
it fetches $10/hr excluding tips. Hmmm...
Interesting... XD

Oh, and I saw someone I least expected

WO SAMUEL!

Lol. And it slipped my mouth to ask him "still 2B?!" when I ask him what license he's taking.

Oops. Haha!

FTT - passed

Though with a lower-than-BTT score of 48/50.

Lol. Proud.

--

Please let me pass my TP on first attempt also! :)

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Please let me be safe for the wisdom tooth extraction operation on Monday

(though many have done it before)
cos there's still a less than 1% chance of me losing my senses on my jaw;

then kissing would suck...
=(

--

And please let the pain subside fast!
cos they have no dates for General Anesthetics,
I can only go for the Local one.
Sad kid.

But still,
it's free! XD

I friend you!

Don't "break-friendship"!
XD

--

And don't expect anything more...

Something about the keyboard

that makes us say things we normally would not in real life.

I was reading someone else's blog post about times in the 90s

And stupid things we do when we were in Primary school.

--

Our time together didn't feel that short when we were young,
but now that we've grown older;
it really wasn't enough...

--

So many of you are still so close to me,
but even more of you are now gone;
fading and drifting away.

--

We used to fight; in the parade square, at the voiddeck, on the playground,...
We used to get punished together; staying back to re-do "Ting Xie", stand up in class,...
We used to play sports together; badminton, soccer, basketball, volleyball,...
We used to chase girls and get chased by them together; going to their house, hanging out,...
We used to go home late together, staying back in school for games, studying at Hougang Point,...
We used to be in different classes; sitting at the back row, rocking our chairs, finding each other,...
We used to share things; recorders, apple, food, bed, whatever,..
We used to eat together in the canteen; fruit punch, Tom Yum Soup, noodles, rice,...
We used to sneak out of our house and visit each other,..
We used to walk long distances just to save on the few cents of bus fare,..
We used to go overseas together with the school and have helluva fun being ourselves,..
We used to own those time...

Now, we don't do them anymore.
All we have left,

are memories.

--

But we're still together.

Only I will judge myself

Alvin: I like the surprise look on people's face when they look at me and assumes I'm the BTC gangster but my results own them

Lol. Totally agree.

--

Stop judging books by their cover.

I've been asking myself why

then I realize I just don't wanna appear too geeky with my results.

--

What an excuse!
I like.
Lol.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

I plucked out one of the "mole" on my cheek few days ago

And now the peripheral feels like it's gotten collateral damage.

P.A.I.N =(

If not, there's no other dates unless you want... tomorrow?

Lol.

And Aaron had to wait for a month to land a date on Block Leave. Ha!

So, in the end I had to "ps" Ignite and go for my Dental surgery or not I'll have to pay (!@#$%^&*) for it!
I'm kinda happy that everything's falling nicely into place timely and there's not much clash in schedule.

Totally eventful week anyway.

And guess what,
it's MEDICAL LEAVE next week!
WHOLE of next week!!! Lol.

Stay home kid.
=]

But guess the following week's offs will be forfeited then,
oh well, give and take I shall.

--

And sounds shiok for free surgeries and dental,
but...

I'VE TRADED 2 YEARS OF MY LIFE FOR THIS!

So don't compare you girls. Lol.

Dear dentist,

I've been taking care of my teeth pretty well these few days,
please don't bring me more bad news,
or use those metal spoons on me again.
And please give me a good date before my ORD
so that I can remove my wisdom tooth for free! XD

Thanks and regards,
Jason

While I don't get pimples easily

I have these pigments on my face that some times become like, I don't know, mole?
Haha.

Life is fair.

--

And I think I'm getting whiter;
look at the photos I've taken,
some are over-exposed.
Lol.

Time for some sun tanning session!

--

Then again,
I think those pigments are a result of my constant exposure to sun.

Anyway,
who cares!

I wanna be like the couple I saw today;
Even the girl has got beautiful skin colour!
Like coffee!!!
Lol.

--

So please,
do not rain on Saturday,
at least for the morning.
This, I cannot control.

=]

I'm really kinda afraid of the medical FFI that's coming up

If you know what I'm talking bout,
pray for me, to whichever god you believe in,

while I pray to myself.

--

8-person affair,
or 7?

Or perhaps, 6?

We won't be awkward

that's one of the best reasons why
I like this arrangement.

Don't fly my aeroplane please. =]

I wanna talk to you whenever you appear

But I don't know if you're there,

or if you're with your bf,

or if you are busy,

or if you even want to...

--

Talk to me,
I'm waiting. =]

In being a perfectionalist

I realize I've killed quite a number of trees.

So I conclude it's hard to be a perfectionalistic-environmentalist.

Some songs,

You just never get tired of them

And I just realize Ann Kok looks like

someone that used to be close to me...

50, 88

HERE'S 99 FACTS ABOUT GUYS
More than 70% Things are right about boys..

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys hate flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is or he really don't know or understand what you're talking about..

5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!

14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what? Uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate nice boy!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”

59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

I didn't steal your rice bowl!

Haha, your reply should be in soon!

I applied for Geog and Econ, while yours are sciences,
plus our results are the same;
shouldn't be my fault ah bro. =]

And yay!
First job interview for post-ORD life!
Heard the pay's good... XD

Shit, I'm stuck to the TV!

Cos the Channel 8 show now (9pm) is really funny!
Lol. Jessica Liu and Christopher Lee.

(Though local show still sucks)
Haha.

And I trust TCM k!
-.-

--

I should be studying my FTT!!

No YOONA please, I'd rather my TUNA!

Aaron: AND THERE'S SUBWAY WHICH YOU CAN ADD A SCOOP OF YUNA FOR A DOLLAR!
Me: hahahahaha! really got YUNA?! heard she's pretty.. and only a dollar?!?! LOL!

--

By the way,
there's really a Yuna in Final Fantasy.

HENTAI!!! LOL.

I have been living with the assumption that CSM 3 is good cos he got Redcon 1 for ATEC rating

Only now did I realize he's actually last (according to Aaron who heard it from 3rd Coy)

Well done, WO Edwin (and myself)
HAHAHAHA

Almost here

(BRIAN)
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

(DELTA)
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

(BRIAN)
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

(BOTH)
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
(BRIAN)
Haven't I always loved you?

(DELTA)
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here

(BOTH)
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts

(BRIAN)
Haven't I always loved you?

(DELTA)
But when I need you
You're almost here

(BRIAN)
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you

(DELTA)
And when I hold you you're almost here

(BRIAN)
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted

(BOTH)
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
(BRIAN)
'cause I know I'm almost here
(BOTH)
Only almost here

Sheridan+Bailey's+HotChocolate

The new sex

Are you the boy that ran away?

Yeah. Where are you heading?
No where exactly.
Me neither, hop on!

I heard, that you've settled down

I heard your dreams came true.

Old friend, why you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back.
Or hide from my life.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
but I couldn't stay away
I couldn't fight it.

I hope you'll see my face
that you'll be reminded that for me,

it isn't over.

--

I don't wanna find someone like you,

I want you.

--

Only yesterday,

was the time of our life.

--

I've hurt you once,
now all I want,

is for us to restart,
to let it last,
instead.

I haven't run for quite awhile

Almost died running the cross-country the other day.

--

Then again,
I didn't sleep the previous night.

And then again,
with my running speed that day,
I'd finish 2.4 in 11m35s,

faster than some "commando"

-.-

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

The best thing about this place,

is that I can always read what is blogged,

and 99% of the time,
I'll agree with what's written.

Lol

Every time I'm online late at night, your name will appear on the chat list;

but I never had the courage to talk to you again.

What's gone,
may never be back.

We could have been best of friends.

--

You know why do we wanna go back in time?

Because as we move on in life,
we encounter regrets.

Only at the inception,
do we not have them.

--

And after realizing that so many people I didn't expect actually visits this place,
I secretly wish that you are one of them.

I'm waiting,
for that one day you'll start talking to me again.

And you, if you know I'm talking bout you,
let's not make one mistake
a lifetime regret. =]

I wanna die

when I'm sleeping,
or when I'm unconscious,
or when I'm in a coma,

or,
when I'm drunk.

--

I don't want the pain,
I don't want the suffering,
I don't want the agony,
I don't wanna see the tears.

Rolling in the sleep

No matter how much I roll,
I cannot get to sleep!!! -.-

We are all irrational that's why...

He likes you,
Who likes me,
Who likes her,
Who likes (the other) him.

--

And she's asking me not to be sad over her..

Wrong.

Now, we go out and have fun

Then,

When do we know when to stop and return?

--

What if,
You get use to this life of being free,

Will you change your mind,

Never to return?...

--

Or what if,
You return,

But you continue this way of life?..

I want you

Because you're independent,
I feel safe for you to go out and live your life.

Because you're understanding,
I know I can put my heart and soul into my career

Because you're filial,
I can be sure you'll take good care of my parents

Because you're loving,
I know you'll do a good job taking care of our children

Because you're always the one there for me,

Because we've been together half our lives,

Because we are from the same world,

Because we know we have a future,

Because I know you still loves me,

Because,
I love you...


It's really a tedious process to apply for UK schools

Maybe,
I'l just drop that idea.

Monday, October 24, 2011

I'm assuming so many things now,

what if,
they don't come true?

what if,
someone is missing?

what if,
she change her mind?...

--

I don't wanna imagine.

Tell me, please.
For how long do you wanna stay out of my life?...

When,
do you wanna come back to my arms?...

Am I some disgusting monster or what?!

Why would someone be "uncomfortable" seeing me?!?!

Depressed.

--

Cheap plastic surgeons anyone?

On 9gags: Moment of Truth

You're not deep
You're not an intellectual
You're not an artist
You're not a critic
You're not a poet

You just have internet access.

--

So hurting...
I thought I am!
Lol.