Peaceful New Year

Was looking back at my post last year this time and recollected the wildness we had. Every year's getting quieter, probably something to do with the age; but I'm glad it's this way...

Hopefully it'll be a peaceful 2013!

Love you too, blurblur ^^

As a man of few words (LOL!)... Happy new year! :)

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And of course, happy new year to everyone else!

You know you're growing sideways

when your eyes can't be seen in the photos... -.-

Anne didn't Hathaway

Still prefers the 25th anniversary's

Bridges

I saw this bridge under construction that's half-completed... And I suddenly started thinking whether it was a good decision to have dropped my double degree with civil engineering back then...

Sour cream

Sour indeed; a tat too bitter too. Did the onions made you tear?...

pnnttt

I literally LOL-ed when I saw it in the tag. Dafuq? HAHAHAHA

Yup you are

Different human

When someone tells you you're different, it's like saying you're being human. Yet, it's so nice to know that you are so unique and distinct from the others.

Let the wine of friendship never runs dry

The agony when you want so much to sit down and have a long talk with a friend you have long drifted away...

Meet ups

Finally, after hiding in my cave for so long, I'm gonna catch up with the dudes and babes all around as a last burst before school starts. But guess there just isn't gonna be enough time for all... Zzz

As a friend,

I'm being frank. Please try your best to take me seriously...

Not yet

Sem 2 is yet to start: bidding, IHG, Convening, mid-terms, finals etc etc. All these are waiting for me...

But unlike sem 1, I'm really looking forward to the end of the next semester. OCIP, dive trip, family trip, weekend escapades, camps, orientations, and even reservist; such excitement, what else is there to ask for?!

Since when a number became so important?

It's really the process that counts isn't it?

But there has to be a line drawn between idealistic and pragmatism...

Traces

Ya, you're bound to find some along the way. I'm trying to avoid them though.

Maybe I shouldn't even care

The seniors are chilling, why the worry then?

In between

Was mentally prepared for a range of 3.5-4.5 for my first result as an undergrad and wasn't surprised when the SMS came in this morning...

Gotta maintain next semester man

Not gonna happen to me

He went to her room, and found her with her ex. He came over and cried, collapsed, and got sent to the hospital...

It doesn't matter who's at fault anymore at this point. It's not healthy and have to end.

No present

But we all wish something good from NUS as a belated gift on Boxing Day don't we? I'm guessing I won't be able to sleep tomorrow this time...

No more steamboat...

Last year, it was much much more happening. But the peace has its charm...

Merry Christmas!

Someone posted this...

Sometimes, it's not about the feelings; it's about timing...

Dilemma

Some times you have so much to talk about something but you don't have that someone to talk to. And when you have that someone to talk to, you don't wanna risk worrying them.

It's really nothing significant anyway, just the stress that was donned upon so suddenly.

I tore my house down

raging over a lost key.

And it took someone else's loss to remind me that there are more important things that could have been lost but I'm still holding on to. There's rarely, or never, something that's really the most important when you consider everything you have.

Be grateful. Cherish those that are not lost.

Festive lesson

It's the season of giving,

but the season for this should really last 365 days every year

"What if the world really ended? What will be your regrets?"

Kangster asked and everyone just answered "no regrets"

Then it suddenly hits me that there's actually quite some things that I would have/have not done should time turns back. But no. Even if time goes ticking counter-clockwise, the same Jason will still do the same things. That I'm sure...

Then, there really is no point in regretting isn't it? Letting that girl go; having not spent enough time with parents; drifting with some friends; etc etc. I'm sure, they'll still turn out the same.

Paradox under the tree

You seek enlightenment your whole life when the true attainment only comes when you give up the pursuit, for the happy ones are only those that are happy even without all the material gains they have.

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What do you really pride yourself for? you can be so nonchalant about the whole world, but there must be something that keeps you as a whole and not crumble down with despair; some motivation to push you on. What if that something is taken away from you? Or for the matter: those somethings. It's really gonna destroy you and smack you right back to earth real hard.

But that's when we learn isn't it? That's when we know what our true selves are without the things that eludes the very pure nature of being.

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Most of the time, those that dare express their pride are in fact the most "real" people we'll ever meet; those that hide their deepest esteem, fears succumbing to failure and never dares fight or take a risk...

That's a burden off your shoulder with a lesson well learnt

Nothing beats that, so you're definitely a gainer in this whole shit. Awesome! Let's move on and see if help is needed when you're 30. ;)

Jockey! A jockey got me!

That jockey is called l4d2 and it's steering me towards addiction. But nah. This side of Jason is really rare. Any case, other than self-confidence I reckon self-discipline is something I'm rather proud of too. So try as you might, your fate is sealed and destined to end up in the recycle bin in a matter of weeks. Anyway, like what Mr. President says, the marginal utility is getting low...

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On the same note, have been smoke-free for more than a week. Let's hope this goes on well (but I have no good explanation how it started anyway)

Competence

Some people are good at this, others better at that. Some just not so. But it doesn't matter and there's bound to be something valuable to be offered.

I stand firm on my belief of life being fair..

Paradox of esteem

I realize self-confidence is never originated from self. You only gain it when you know you have qualities that are socially superior to others. But there really isn't such a term as social confidence, yes?

What will you do, knowing tomorrow's the last day for the world?

Meh. What kind of retarded question is this? Live like every other day? Cos if you haven't been living your life, the last day ain't gonna make a difference.

Jay Chou and Lisbeth Salander

Lesson learnt: academic results and social stigmatization never prove anything

I don't even know what to feel

For one moment, suddenly I was supposed to be the vice-capt; then at the next, something else came my way. I don't even know how to react. I realize I haven't really experienced the responsibility to carry a team before, not on such level at least...

Everybody's out in the world

And I'm just here striving for academic excellence we all deemed the sole stepping stone to a rainbow of future. Either my definition of rainbow or stone is different then.

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Lund University; Sweden

That's where I'm aiming to do my SEP, probably 2 years later. Meanwhile, I just have to be mainstream and score for my papers to earn that spot. Good luck to me!

Ya, why not?

If pubs and nightclubs can refuse entry to the drunk, McDonald's should be able to refuse entry of the obese!

Trying too hard

Family and friend's support to reduce the spread of HIV? That's really kinda far fetched isn't it? But then again, we all ought to be thankful we're not the ones contracted with the disease and it doesn't even matter what kind of sexual life you lead. Being supportive isn't about the prevention but rather, the process of accepting the unfortunates who are nothing but fellow mankind.

Stop

This is not healthy. I mean the kind of communication we're having. You were the one that chose to let go, now learn to move on. I wasn't destroyed, but I fell hard enough to learn another lesson. Now it's your turn. It's my fault to linger. And now, indeed, it's better for you to want nothing. Someday you'll find that someone new. For now, let's try being friends again... We've been friends since forever, it shouldn't be that tough anyway.

Troubled kid

Sometimes when I feel like I needa talk to someone about something that troubles me I'd go, "nah, let's not be an attention whore"

Then I come here ranting on

Now tell me the colour of his eyes

Some times, things aren't the way we want it; but the minimal we can do is to look at them positively and stay happy.

Maybe it's not that he doesn't wanna care but he just doesn't have the time and energy, or even moral courage to do just that.

Meanwhile, stay awesome.

Ya, sometimes I try to keep everyone happy too

But I don't even know what you're talking about! Just babbling nonsense. Lol. But I guess there isn't much stuff out there that can make you so confused... Must be something you don't have much experience I suppose ;)

Tell me!

What then, do you want?

Not exactly

But yup, almost truth.
To be honest, I've long known the power of a year.

Superhero kids

We have a world to save!

I can't believe it's happening

My best of friend is actually married!!!

14 years ago, we met. A few years after that, we were all sure you're definitely not gonna be the first to fall into the tomb of love. Seems like you've proven us wrong once again...

On this special day, you're officially married. Truth is, I don't even know what to feel. I'm happy, sad and excited altogether. No matter what, wishing you all the best and eternal love...

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Just for today, you're the handsomest amongst us all!

Congrats bro

Hit the books, bar, mahjong table and gym!

It's once again the start of a long-awaited term break from school! Technically, the first one in 3 years. Time for some reading and meeting up with the dudes (don't say bojio, all jio together!), for a drink or two for some, and to settle old scores over the six-kinsmen-no-recognize "war-zone" for others.

Gyms? Meh. Just kidding.

Lemonade

Today I learnt that it actually cools someone down, literally. But still, not to my liking. Hahah

Slave of technology

Either my iPhone or Facebook has some problem that caused the photos to fail to upload. One of it is then pissing me off! Zzz

Long gone were the army daze

Went into a frenzy after failing to find my army uniform which got thrown deep into the store by my mum. Hidden deep in a box at a dark corner of the room, it's the same as where it belongs in my Mind. Got it in the end after ransacking the whole store; couldn't imagine how frantic a scene it'll be if tomorrow is reporting day. Truth is, there's still 7 more months before that day.

No matter. The stale smell of the clothes stings my nose and the dusts covering my boots are literally half a centimeters thick. Time really flies... Long gone were the army daze!

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Anyway, found some cool gems in the sacks... 10 years worth of difference:

End of sem

Last year this time, I won't have thought the day will come where I'd be reading books instead of clubbing when the whole world is there

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And yup, everyone came back drunk

Numbed

In the end, it does matter.

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After writing 19 pages worth of essay in 4 hours today, my thumb doesn't feel like it retained any sense of touch anymore..

After several grueling hours of studying and examinations, I've recalibrate my grades expectation, mainly in view of the easier nature of the finals

Yup, awkward indeed

Every time I browse my fb homepage I feel like people around me are judging me for looking at women clothing which are actually just photos shared by Kellie that floods the whole page. It's like I'm forced to be homo.

And I don't like to be forced

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Sent a message to the wrong person with same name

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Saw my uni student tutee with her boyfriend...

Exams are over

Last two essay papers conquered today. Fingers are still numbed. Roommate's still mugging hard. Torn my schedule for the exams. Kept all the textbooks away. Bringing all my notes home. Packed my table. Ready to head home.

Suddenly, it seems like there's nothing to do with life. But there's still quite some stuff to settle. I've anticipated this to happen. Not my first major exam anyway.

No matter, lets just return home and see my parents before the world goes on without me. Then continue to pray for a pleasant surprise 23 days later...

Happy December Day

Last year this time, I've finished my ORD parade, waiting to collect my pink IC, and preparing for the Stand Chart Marathon. A year passed on, many things happened; it will not be an overstatement to say that this has been my most eventful year of my life thus far...

This year this time, I'm preparing for my papers on Monday...
Let's hope the coming year will go by as happening as it was

When your parents are poor

PAP provided preschool and childcare programs for your parents to send you for education;
now that you have benefited from the economic growth and are financially well-off, you fight for your kids to attend top private schools and conveniently vote against your benefactors for not meeting your luxurious "needs"...

Is this really what our society is heading towards?

Suddenly, everyone went their separate ways...

Was Whatsapp-ing my siblings and realized we're all all over the place now

Sis continue staying at her own place, bro moved out to the rented house, while I moved into hall;

All that's left at the place we all once called home are my parents. Joanne goes there every morning, Jack goes home every weekend, while it's becoming a monthly affair for me to head back home.

I'm filled with friends at this place I call home, but I'm still feeling a certain home-sickness.

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It's the same for every other clique.

I really should be sleeping instead

Tomorrow's my first finals in uni. Every uni student has to go through this. Every uni student comes out with a grade. Every uni student wanna do their best and beat the bell curve.

Some will come out victorious. Some will come out weeping. Definitely. Someone has to lose. And no one wants to be that someone.

But it really doesn't matter. I'm saying this not because I don't care about studies. I'm saying this not because I'm trying to console myself. I'm saying this not because I'm trying to be cool about my grades. In fact, I can't. If I fail, I don't just come out a loser; I don't just tell myself that I'm not cut out for it; I don't just accept the fact and move on.

There's a certain pact that I've signed that forbids this scenario. Something about the money I have to compensate. Something about my future. Something about the pride I've always held on to.

But really, it doesn't matter.

I may lose all that's relatively important, but I know I've done my best in at least trying...

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There's no need to cry, babe.
Sometimes things don't go the way we want it. Sometimes we lose focus of our priorities. Sometimes we don't understand why we didn't fight hard enough.

But most of the time, life goes on.

And in life, everyone's a victor.
Only those that doubted their actions and regret the consequence lose...

One year ago...

You know it's been long, when you see photos of alpha company ORD-ing, and it is not your batch...

The only easy day was yesterday'
tough times don't last, tough men do

You can walk straight through hell with a smile

Be believer, be leader;
Be true seekers

You can be the greatest; you can be the best

Not the same

Jack's wedding photos came out.
And I realize it's been 8 years since Joanne's.
Things really look kinda different.
Times have changed, circumstances as well...

But maybe, just maybe, I am still the same old me in many ways.

Money no Enough 2 (28:00)

Search the movie on Youtube and stream to the 28th min..

We've been to an Old Folks Home just two weeks ago. Perhaps the smiles we saw and the laughter heard were genuine, but not all were the same. Even so, some are putting up a strong facade to the sad story that landed them there. Poverty; selfish priorities; unfilial children; childlessness. These are real problems that we see and we know many a time there really isn't someone we can blame. What's more discouraging is knowing our own incapability in getting these helpless folks out of a place they don't desire in. The food, the money, the 2 hours spent there keeping them accompany; these really isn't the things they ultimately want.

But there just isn't anything much we can do to fulfill their deathbed wishes.
We are not their children; our time doesn't mean a thing to them;
they want the children to visit, to bring them away, to plan a great escape from the cruel reality.

But at least we tried...
Don't be disheartened, what we give isn't exactly what they yearn; but at least it keeps them preoccupied. At least, it provides them an alternate source of love. At least, it gives them hope of a better life...

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They sacrificed everything to watch you grow, don't give them up just because they are old.

Behind the foam party and the journey to the west

There're the firefighters...

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=465227546862890&set=pb.100001269463487.-2207520000.1352917085&type=3&theater

Remarkable is how he encourages all to put aside our differences and give credit to at least the hard-work/sacrifices our own brothers/sisters are putting in for a secured Singapore

Not many secrets to tell

Don't take those that stood by you for granted because someday they will eventually leave...

But in any case, stay happy!

Finals

Ironic because it's really just the first major exam in my undergrad life...
But anyway, good luck to all.
To those that are falling sick, take care;
to those feeling despair, a little song for you! (On the video column)

Alvin Tan got charged!

Seems like I needa be more careful with what I'm blogging from now on...

GABAnite

It didn't work on me by the way, just like any other sleep-enhancing drugs.

I love how people can be so opinionated

http://milomel.blogspot.sg/2012/11/how-ignorant-singaporeans-ruined-obamas.html

Insomnia

Resorting to GABAnite, hopefully it works.

Why doesn't other student suffer from this problem; hopefully my CAPs doesn't reflect my chillness...

Faith in Americans restored

And the world heave in huge sighs of relief

Are grades really that important?

As a student, nope. I really enjoy all the learning and exposures I get in every single module that I am currently doing and it doesn't matter if I do average or get a distinction.

As a student highly dependent on my scholarship, however, yes, sadly, they are.

But they really are not mutually exclusive; in no way does this fact devalue my learning experience. So why think so much? Enjoy what you're learning and the grades will come along with awesome uni life. =)

Some things about twins I don fancy

Awkward moment when you only know one of the twins personally and the other by name, and when the one you know says hi, you return the greeting with the name of his brother you didn't know...

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Awkward moment when you said hi to a twin on the way in, and when leaving, said hello to an identical person, unsure of whether you said hi to the same person twice...

Chasing~

Catching up on lectures in double-quick time.
More to go, but time is running out fast!

This adrenaline feels good ;)

MCQs

I finally see the prowess of it... 5 retarded hours for 5 stupid philosophy MCQs.

Heard the finals last sem for this mod had a highest score of 14/20 for the MCQs. Hmmm.

Take PH1102 they say,
It'll be easy they say...

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Then again, it's still the most enjoyable mod ^^

I have faith in myself~~~

A dream is a wish your heart makes

Dreamt that I had a dream within a dream! Got a surprise re-mark of my SE1101 paper and got an A and SSA2209 paper came back with an A+ too! Then I "woke up" in disappointment. Waking up one more time didn't help much too...

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Dreamt that the few of us (Butter/Divine Boys) visited the dentist/doctor at the same time and got admitted into the same ward together out of coincidence. Let's hope the setting changes in real life...

While you are sleeping...

Wait, no one is sleeping!!!
It's funny how people always post about them mugging/doing project at ungodly hours and assuming others are sound asleep. Bitch please, majority of the population study as hard too!

Bro's back

Dinner's on

It's been long since I last saw him and I'm expecting stories!

TOC

Only reason why I "LIKE" it is so that I can have a perspective of what they're saying on the other side

Vocab time!

Overmorrow

This is cool, there's actually such a word to mean 'the day after tomorrow';
too bad I only found biblical origins...

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By the way, did you know 'lepak' as we mean it in army/malay/singaporean term is actually in the Oxford dictionary?

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Just to check, do you know how to pronounce 'facade'?

Dang, I was wrong

Suddenly realize NTU still have the majority after Mr Lim talked to me... =(

Alright, let's all just meet up soon. I'm missing out too much on 'old' friends!

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I am still right about the fact that times have changed though.

Let me tell you a story...

Once upon a time, 3 bros were in AJ and 1 went Victoria; the story repeats now when one defected to NTU while majority is in NUS.

Victorian always head down to meet the Andersons okay (let's skip the reason behind),
Nanyang peep's turn to come NUS meet us thanks.

Mr Ng! You are missed and please start appearing! Get a NUS girlfriend yo! LOL

Politics

I'm seeing more and more of these day-in day-out.
Morale of the story: don't shit in your own playground, or at least clean up your crap.

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I'm not acting calm or forcing a neutral front,
I really just don't give a shit

THearts Special Project

While some exploits superficial beauty for personal gains,
others are showering sincere love with their inner charm...

It's a wonder why the former is conquering the world while the latter goes unnoticed; distortion in the axiom of beauty and chasing a deceiving paradigm of perfection, is this what we're left with in humanity?

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We are all guilty in some form so forget the façade

Stfo about how disgusting gays/lesbians are

Unless you're intending to get on the bed with them.

Even then...

Apt

Down to the details like the timing

Lol

Happy birthday, Ms Living-in-denial

Refuses to grow old... Argh! Lol

Happy Halloween!

Still not as scary as my assignments and the impending finals

Let's not take that one step too many, and believe me

to go further will be beyond our possible explanation.

DANG. What philosophers like to do... Zzz
The more readings I do, the more I'm starting to doubt the intelligence of these scholars. Seriously? It's really becoming who-can-bullshit-more-while-denying-limitations.

What a conversation stopper. -.-

Le awkward moment

When your superiors gay-talk bout perky butts on Facebook...
U MAD BRO?!

Sticky Chewy

Really came as a shock when someone I used to be close to is now moving on with life without us.

Still the greatest regret...

偷拍我的小蓝！

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You're welcome ^^

Halloween!

Can I dress up as my assignments cos they seems scary enough to me...

Screw them, let's get the party started!!!

14 hours

That's my current record of consecutive sleep ever since school started. Not my personal best definitely.

It sucks when you have insomnia at night and headaches in the morning, knowing you really didn't want it to happen but badass brain just fucks you around. ><

Rage mode

So my dad got me so pissed I took the road for F1 course and sped through the traffic. He was proven wrong but there wasn't a point in it.

I literally felt the boil in my blood. What's wrong with me...

Everyday, 120 million people are engaging in sexual intercourse

You know how small your world is when neither you nor any of your neighbors in hall are one of them...

Or are they?..

Are you home?

Some times some things we do are not on its own a mistake,
but when everything pieces up, it's disgusting.

Naked. Like we see you top-to-bottom uncovered.

At least we all agree it's a good news for the one that got away.
Some are plain disturbed, others just nonchalant;
let's seat back and relax,
and watch the drama unfold!

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It's great to have a girlfriend like this bro,
and it was a good choice you fought for her back then.

The ones that are angst at the moment are the clear-headed ones;
the ones sleeping peacefully in their dreams are brewing storms.

That irony...

See the world

I want the literal means of travelling, like what my brother is doing right now...
Fly, and escape from this city; escape from the routines

It's an addiction;
now give me the drug!

Here I am

Sleeping in a hotel room, when I'm supposed to be home finishing my assignments.

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Bro, you've found your freedom; I don't know if this is what you really want, or just a void from your previous scar. No matter what, all the best ;)

You're writing more and more

And being yourself less and less.

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Sometimes truth are more cruel than deceiving. Something we used to hate, now becomes the only means.

Something you could have had, you've lost it. I feel sad about it.

Yes, it's you I'm talking to...

Halloween

While others are enjoying their time at Sentosa, we went to the real challenge - OCH.

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Happy birthday bro!

How you know your academic week from Facebook comments

When school first started everyone was saying things like "I survived week 1!"
Then it became "4 weeks of school and I'm still in holiday mode"
Suddenly, you see "OMG, it's already recess week?!?!"
After that, the countdown begins... "4 more weeks to finals"
Soon, you'll see "D-day tomorrow"

Talking to the moon

The blue one.

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Realize if I stop posting so regularly, regulars won't come here so routinely

5:22am

I rarely sleep without the sun the past week, something is really wrong here...

Stop talking to yourself

And people will start hearing you ^^

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Living in your own world as always -.-

C&J

Oh, that familiarity.
Let's move on...

Spaced out

I napped and woke up and saw everyone on Facebook all excited about the Space Jump and so I joined in the fun. I must say I'm really impressed by the feat and disappointed that it didn't beak one of the record; what I am more impressed, however, is that YouTube manage the traffic pretty well!

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On a side note, what is really the most impressive, is the love you see from Felix's mum. I am touched; for she gave the freedom for a son to pursue a dream while bearing the pain of seeing him leave in the balloon. I am absolutely touched.

Congrats Felix, you did it!

It's really not easy

But I shall just ignore you, until time comes when the problem fades.
Someone did it to me, and it worked; let's do it.

Flashed

So is my car; so did the camera.
And so did the event!

It's really over!!! Okay, still some ends to settle but I'm really really glad nothing (major) happened during the event itself. Bad weather in the afternoon; cock-ups with the Mac breakfast; manpower shortage; lorry capacity issue; food shortage; external complaints; people grumbling here and there; some got slight injuries; bimbos making our lives difficult; and not to forget the fella with mental illness that picked a fight with Haowei (and of course how Dingkai joined in the fun)!

But all these didn't spoil the fun and the game was on even as all were "two-tyred"! Yup, maybe the only down side is the speed camera...

Oh wait, it's not even my car!

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I don't know how sincere when people remarked that it was a success, especially when so much grumblings were heard; much less when people said you did a good job, because there were just too many screw-ups. But it doesn't matter; everything was awesome because I chose to look at it that way.

Jasmine and Marc really gave their all and I wanna thank them for giving me such a nice experience; while without the guidance and advice of Jack and Kuok this event will never be such a success too! Sharon and Lynette (err, ok just give her the credit) really did helped me a lot as well and I'll never cope without any of them (serious)! The list can go on forever so just to mention some like Zongrui and Mayer that helped out quite a bit and seniors like Haowei and Zemin as well! Oh, Tracy and Dave, thanks for your discounts and sponsoring too! ;)

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Good day everyone, this weekend's gonna end in a flash!

Get set, go!

Everything's set in place, now all we can do is to hope everything runs through smoothly on Friday!

She's flashing green indeed

and so is he.

Put them together and you get a really weird combination...

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So much is going on in here!

What if I tell you money is really just a creation of man?

What if I tell you all your dreams and aspirations will die someday, like perhaps when you yourself die?

Something you fight hard for may not appear practical or even legit
but truth is, nothing really is.

Two more days

and it's the night cycling event;
I pray to myself that all will run smooth, though there are still so many things unsettled up till this point but everything's gonna turn out right! ^^

$13.48

My lousy memory only can be sure of the first two digits;
not gonna waste another of this amount to park my car in the TH car park,
and that is why here I am blogging from my own bed in Hougang on a Tuesday night (Wednesday morning technically, and I only reached at 1:30am).
Gonna experience the pain of rush hour tomorrow!

Deck K

The rooftop was right in front of me; overcrowding near its extreme. Time to curb those lorries from using our car park!!!

Pain in the ass

Literally.

Dammit just go awayyyyyy

I know how it feels to lose an escapade

I'll pretend I don't visit so you can keep your privacy ;)

3:57am

It sucks when you have headache, insomnia and a 11am tutorial later...

I finished one season of Family Guy in the past one week

That's the amount of work I've done

It really isn't about whether it's enough

Neither is it about keeping everyone around, just be yourself and be with whoever allows you to be yourself.

Stay happy.

Rose and kisses

I'm gonna get mine soon

Don't you feel sad?

Yup. Truth is, after so long, something deep down will sometimes be triggered and a sense of regret will somehow surface.

But trust me, it fades.

Live the moment and enjoy what you have bro.
Sometimes, it's good to take a break once in a while and enjoy the wholesomeness and awesomeness of being single.

Cheers! =)

2:47am

The weekend after midterms (not exactly since others are still having papers this week);
I spent my weekend slacking and mostly watching Family Guy.

#mylifeisgood

He's gonna jump a few more ships

Yep, trust me, he will.

It's one thing we do gang reflection, another to be a bro. No conflict.

I had a dream last night

I dreamt of me walking out of this and moving on. I dreamt of our paths crossing some time after. I dreamt of the awkward silence and deliberate avoidance.

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In my dreams I caught a glimpse of you crying;
I woke up, and found myself tearing

Everything felt so real.
I know the cost of leaving, and I won't let it happen. I won't let myself lose you babe...

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They say your dream is either something you desire or something you fear; definitely not the former.

Mess

There's gonna come a point in time when the people coming here will start getting confused of the subject and person I'm referring to in my posts. So do read with discretion; read with care.

Don't take everything too seriously

Unfamiliar you

The part of you so filled with emotions, the part of you I've never came across; I don't think it's healthy...

Nothing beats a glass of Bailey's before sleep

Goodnight world

Korean drama

The one showing on channel 8 now had three crying scene in 20 minutes; the counterpart here at Hougang corresponded.

Idgi

Awesome moment

When something you once thought of was actually conceptualized way before you were born by a person you respect...

"Memetics"

It's so naive of me to think of myself to be so genius as to theorize something so great and it's awkward because it's a popular title, now I'm laughing at my own ignorance.

Some things can't be changed

Most can

To all that are stressed out over mid-terms

Who says life's short?

Live it to your fullest and nothing's not enough

Recess week is over!!

Finally.

Not that I hate it but I've been way too slack to call myself a student the past week. After the wedding fiasco, a world war with my wallet, a power struggle with my sleep and a coup by the textbook that decided to parnish its owner, it's now time for midterms (without the s technically) and more mugging.

Good night world! Wake me up, when September ends!~~ Oh wait, the alarm just went off -.-

Mid awesome festival

Happy childish day!

Mugger mode on

Or so I hope it'll happen.

Think about the weird math and the CAP I have to maintain together doesn't help... But still, some things just need to be done

OAC Recce

We forgot to take a photo =(
But it's alright! It was pretty successful though there were some confusions here and there.

Great job guys and once again, thanks for coming down today!

Disclaimer: I AM NOT EMO!

Just being the normal me ranting things that this place is set out to be for. =)

It's never easy

To be friends after you make that step forward, then try to move back.
Either you haven't been serious about the relationship, or the break up.
Sadly or not, I am for both.
It's weird how I used to think I'll give up everything for you; things really changed kinda fast. I'll still sacrifice for your sake if need be because I wanna prove the above-mentioned theory wrong.

But some things just aren't meant to be;
some things just don't go back after you've given them up.

Let's try to be friends while serious about the split.

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If you fall for two, choose the later.
Nope, you just don't fall for both at the same time.

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It's always the one that initiates that regrets.
Don't be, life is an experience from the lessons learnt.
No matter how your hormones betray you,
stay happy like how we used to be

=)

Happiness will keep us alive

As so does it make us age faster with a speedy clock.

Or does it?

Recess week

You mean it's here??
Bro's wedding during the weekend and random time wasting just seems to make this week past by super fast.

It's now midweek. There's four more days left to salvage my midterms...

I should refrain from indirect communication

It never turns out well

It might just be me you're talking bout

I really don't know what to say...

But in any case,
You really gonna leave the problem alone until it goes off? Or is there something you wanna say?..

Emo kid

Cos you turned the attention to me. Otherwise, there really isn't much time to think so much at the moment.

You better take care and stop being the emo kid that you're accusing me of being.

Someday

Someday you're gonna be less happy than you are now, then you'll start contemplating where to move on to from there.

But that decision point only comes if you think about it. So ya! Why think so much? Everything's gonna turn out fine if you believe it that way.

Stay the happy kid you are!!

^^

My theory still proves right in the end...

So is another; but that I really can't figure which is the first in the case.

Someone once told me something, and it's probably right too...

Truth is, it felt like my best friend abandoned me...

It's 5:30 in the morning on a Saturday night; I'm in a hotel room with 9 other guys. Probably more than half of them are contributing to the snores I am hearing, and the cigarette smell still lingers...

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Sentosa. Limousine. Martel. Poker.
My brother is married.

The one that watched me grow up. The one that I fall asleep with every night of my childhood. The one that whacked me when I poured water into his desktop. The one that comes home to accompany me when I'm alone and scared. The one that brought me to a ktv for my 18th birthday. The one that climbed mountains and surfed waves with me. The one that taught me how to do all my homework. The one that really is my motivation in academics. The one that I always am proud of to show off to my friends. The one that showed me what life really should be. The one that, really, made me who I am today.

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I really cannot believe he's actually married. He never felt like 10 years older, or maybe age really doesn't pose a gap on best friends. The kid within him that I know of made this fact hard to imagine, but his vacated room made it a hard truth. At some point in time he's gonna take a lesser space in my life.

Today is probably that day...

--

Suddenly, the whole household's responsibilities befalls on me. Give me some time to breathe, give me some time to live!!!

--

Congrats, Jack and Zoe!
Have a blessed marriage. :)

Now it's time for me to combat the heat and sound before sunlight seeps in!...

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5:49am

Whatever you've done, you did it with a reason

You don't need the world to judge, you don't need your investment to pay off, you don't need a social measure of "life" to determine if you've lived yours. So what if you're being used, if being beneficial to your friends brings smiles to your life. So what if your efforts don't pay off, if the process is more important than the ends. So what if there's only so much one can do, if what one does is what one loves.

So what if you can't let go, if holding on is less painful?...

--

Nothing is futile, nothing is worth your disappointment, nothing is a joke; someone somewhere will someday appreciate what you've done for whatever reasons you do it for

It's funny

Because the reveille timing I used to have in Secondary school is now my lights off timing in uni.

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Oh no, wait! There is still tons of assignments to settle before I turn in early. Early in the morning that is.

Time value of youth

Don't believe when they say you're mediocre
Savour whatever streaks of life you are entitled
They really are not wrecked and twisted
Remind yourself the awesomeness of me
Then look for your own escapade...

Exhausted

Problems here, problems there, problems everywhere!
Stress here, stress there, stress everywhere!

Oh well, that's life.
Brace yourself, a hectic week is coming!!!

Everything is drawing near!

Essay submission, project due date, proposal dateline, bro's wedding, hall DnD, recess week, mid term, actual night cycling event day... Everything's gonna zoom me by real fast!......

I need my body to slack less -.-

Thus the week-long break

No posts.

Weekdays have been pretty busy. Now weekends are trying to compete...

Goodnight, Sun

It's 6:49am on my phone and I'm not sleepy. Back in the hall on a Saturday night; nothing special, not even the insomnia.

Gotta force my eyes shut so that I have more energy to rush the essay out by tomorrow (I mean later)...

Fluffy hair!

It's been long since I went out without anything on my hair! No cap, no wax! Awesomeness of long hair, and it's really pretty cool-looking I must say ;)

Glutton

Think I'm more than that. I ate 3 lunches on Friday, 1 dinner and a filling supper. Today, I ate 2 lunches, 2 dinners and a filling supper. Almost puked rainbow when I went for a midnight run...

I can feel the fats nowwwwww

Love

Is when you see your dad covers blanket over your mum when she fell asleep watching tv...

Young indeed

It's been long since I've been checked for ID by 7/11 staff

Piling up

But what I'm stressed about is nothing academic...
Maybe it's time I shift my focus and prioritize what's important.

Wombat bear

Is luckier to be there for you

"As long as you are happy"

Really?...

A storm is brewing

In the sky, in my head, and in my pile of never-ending work.

Let's enjoy the nice weather and sleep off this stupid headache (hopefully) before the new day begins for me to mugggggggg!!!!

Recce 1 - done

It's so hyped up I'm really excited for it. Just really wanna make it a fun night for everyone and have a good head start for the club this year! Pressure is piling together with the workload but it's all gonna be worthwhile!

--

I just hope this nausea feeling and the stupid headache will go away soon!!! -.-

Awesomeness is far too mainstream

If you are living my life, you'll understand how important some people (bros especially) are;
but you might be too engrossed in this shit to express your gratitude.

I'm taking that step back.
I'm realizing that I'm the lucky one.

I'm saying "Thanks bro" *fistbump* #truebrostory

Prioritizing (is) the bitch

Some things have to be dropped out of my life, but it's definitely not gonna be the friends that I hold so dear to.

--

I need the money.
But I really don't have the time and energy to commit. I really don't know if it's more responsible of me to hold on and struggle (and screw up) or to give up now. Perhaps either way it's gonna be wrong, then let's do the right thing now.

I'm sorry.

Scumbag friends

One by one flying off, one by one posting photos of awesome life overseas (even Mr Ng JunYang the once anti-facebooker)

Really thinking about doing exchange, but there's just too much to keep my heart tied up here

Dark little dirty secrets

We all have that one, or few. But we don't really know it, and it doesn't come to us unless life probe you with the question, "what's your secret?"

When it hit me, I was lost; my life is an open book.
And then I realized, some of my darkest secrets come in the form of lies.
Strong fronts, forced smiles, fake enthusiasm, insincere attitude, and whatever not...
I'm gonna give all my secrets away......

Slightly richer

Ahgong finally decided to give me all my money!!!
Now it's time to work hard to keep it. =)

We are young!

Jul says I'll look like this if I continue growing younger...

But I really growing younger meh?...

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(This is the 2345th post)

Happy 60th month! ^^

More to come...

Unless you grow a male organ

You're gonna be mine no matter what!...

At the end of the day, it’s just about being a decent human being

http://berthahenson.wordpress.com/2012/08/28/meritocracys-demerits/

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"... exam-smart, not street-smart"???
Seriously? I'm not from an elite school (RJ or HCI) nor am I an overseas scholar doing undergrad in the Ivy leagues. But as a humble local stat-board scholar from the decent VJC, I won't say I am exam-smart any more than myself being street-smarted.

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I strongly disagree with the stereotyping of people who are academically inclined (even a subconscious bias to think all scholars must look studious/geeky) to be less "socially intelligent" than any other average Joe

--

But I have to concur with the author about the snobbishness of the "elites". If having a better scholastic standing means a right to look down on the others then be ashamed of what you proclaimed to be an education because you haven't been educated.

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My father is a cancer patient forced to retire, not a doctor; my mum is a housewife, not a lawyer. I am who I am by dint of [my] own hard work. Admire me, not for my journey, but for my refusal to be classed together with the "elites".

At the very least, I am not blind to my own de-merits and merits of others who are less favoured.

Secured

5% of 20%

10/10 - morale booster
Way to go!

Thinking with the bigger head

After a few years love starts to fade and shit starts to happen;
this is the time when one side have to put down your ego and put in some effort.

--

As a guy, sometimes you just have to friendzone a girl not because you're not attracted to her but because we have our commitments and a responsibility to those we promised to hold on to.

Unless you have an abnormal penis, think with the bigger head, bro.

Thick and thin

It feels heartwarming when your boss still calls you buddy because you've been through so much together in the past

In the middle of September..

It suddenly dawns on me that Jack is getting married in 3 week's time... The clear up of his room also means our house is gonna be really empty by then.

--

That means mid term is coming soon too -.-

This is not my brother!!

Too handsome!!!

Go back in time?

I don't understand how we could do it in the past, when you stay so close to me yet gone unnoticed.

Go underground? That's something really pretty tough. I'm not a good actor anymore; I can't pretend I don't wanna talk to you when you're just a feet away.

IFG

Nothing spectacular except for the new friends made (and sunburn of course).
Will be back again next year!

ARTS!

Now give me all my money!!!

26-20=6

Now people finally agree that I look like Bryan (instead of him looking like me, because I'm growing younger)

Thanks Ms Jul.

--

I wish this grow-younger process continues, then maybe someday I won't look like a pedobear beside the nun.

Hi, Ms Crystal

Congrats on finding this place. You have won yourself nothing! ;)

Repost

Spent 4 hrs reading my posts from the past last night (this morning actually) and I realize some still made sense; some still as thought-provoking; and some still applies aptly to who/what/where I am today. I was amazed by the younger version of me indeed.

But some are just plain jokes now that I look back at them. Childish, naive, attention-seeking and emotional. I'm not saying I don't have them now, but I've improved (I hope) on the skills to hide my flaws and morph them into subtle forms. No matter how senseless these posts were, I won't delete them. Because each one of them adds up to make Jason who/what/where he is today; each one of them is a lesson learnt.

Emo kid?!!!

Nun says I'm still like the emo kid I used to be. -.-

*draws circles* ='(

Hectic ah hectic

August is coming to an end and my posts are at its all-time low since last March! I'm so busy I have neglected this place. It's been long since I last spent more time on Words than on my escapade.

I'm falling into reality.

Player

Nope, I'm not. Whatever happened previously, in my own defense, are just consequences of unintended events and uncalculated risks. I stand firm on believing that I have been through enough to make rational decisions now (or at least one month back). It would prove to be a mistake if things go wrong. I do not shun errors in life because we can learn from them, but one is one too many and I have learnt enough to willingly give up on this one-lesson-too-much.

I don't embark on a journey to give up halfway; no one does, or at least I hope you don't.

--

Okay, yup. You won't! ^^ Hahah.

Slowing down = Going down

Falling sick is the last thing you want in this fast-paced academic environment;
even on your death bed you are expected to finish your readings and prepare for your tutorials...

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Dear fever/cough/flu/whatever,

This is the first time I'm asking such absurd request but please visit me only during the term breaks.

kthanksbye,
Jason

Graded assignments

First 5% of ONE mod submitted.
Good thing about uni is that it encourages you to be consistent;
Bad thing: I'm not good at it.
Hope not only for the first to be good, but the rest to be better!

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Anyway, 1% for all the modules - checked
Cos I went for all my tutorials this week! (And participated in those that requires me to do so... it sucks)
I conquered 7hrs straight of class yesterday by the way.
Good job, Jason! ^^

Mad rush

Feeling the pressure of having all these backlogs. Readings, webcast, lecture slides, tutorials, assignments, summaries, etc etc.

Never-ending.

Then again, what else can I ask for? This isn't that bad after all. There was a time when I might just not even have the chance to do all these. So life's good; keep calm and mug on.

Do you know we don't care?

Oh, by the way, the world doesn't revolve around you.

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Haven't posted in Facebook in months
And I just figured the reason why. I don't want my life to appear on the news feed.
Make an effort to find my escapade if you're interested.

We don't have time to be troubled

Live life to your fullest; live like you're dying

Let's take it slow

I'm sorry, and I mean my apology.
We shall not get ourselves carried away;
Let's set our priorities right.

Stop raining!

My dear M1 only works under the sun... Damn the clouds!

Obstacles

Because they're meant to make us stronger, embrace!

Nostalgia

Mugging at 3 in the morning

Be with me like you're in kindergarten

You don't have to pretend you are anyone but yourself. ^^

--

Let your streaks of life go on and show me what you have ;)

--

It's sad because the girls are always alone and you never get to see their faces. Why be alone when you have so many that cares about you; why hide when you have so much to show and share?

--

Then again, quoting someone: "indirect communication is unhealthy and detrimental, don't indulge too much in it"

--

And on another note, I found a past lesson to learn and experience to ponder: "Commitment. Once you are in, sacrifices have to be made; priorities have to be reshuffled." But we shall move on and not think about it. ;)

Pageant girl!

You got the most important vote from someone!!! ^^

For now, let's go back to our slightly more normal life... =)

Yes!

But I have no regrets for the mistakes I learnt from

最佳女友

You keep saying you're lucky to have me doing all these things for you; truth is, I'm luckier for the mere fact that I have you...

They say two is better than one, so I dug up my courage and took that brave step ahead. There's no turning back, and I won't give up.
No matter what we become, I love you just the way you are. =)

Happy 15th 19th Birthday dear nun!

^^

3-Day work-week

Badass

Let's keep this dream awake

And stay happy

Obscene post

Yes. It's been removed! -.-

Happy belated birthday dad!

No matter how many more we celebrate together in future, it's never enough.

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Cherish the time you have with your parents...

Jiayou!!!

See see. I'm beside you :)

And also worth staying up for

Pretentious

Pretending something doesn't matter when it actually does kinda hurt.

Telepathy

On this very night, I realize I might have been the cause of what has been troubling me for quite a while.

On this very night, I tried to salvage a friendship many has given up; hopefully she wakes up and comes back to us.

On this very night, Oliver started crying so loudly the whole block can hear him in the middle of the night.

On this very night, I realize some mistakes are beautiful and this one turns out to mean the world to me...

Independent

(adj) not relying on another or others for aid or support; not influenced by the thought or action of others.

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Nah.
You are only independent when you are worthy of others being dependent of you.

If you know what to do, NOW

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=332726576822201&set=a.332725703488955.77123.323686984392827&type=1&theater

Sad but true

What's your destiny?

--

Photo courtesy of Kellie

"Why so zhun?!!"

Glad you know!!! ><

Lectures

Really not something I enjoy.
It's the first week and I'm already ponning lectures, I wonder what my uni life will turn out to be...

I dunno how to not sound sarcastic so I'll say it here

Even though I prefer the natural you,
You look beautiful for your pageant photo. =)

Awkward

I also don't know what's so awkward about it,
but I just think it's better for me to not appear. =)

Don't be so busy and start chilling!!!

No feel

Excitement, yes.
But I don't feel the impact of school starting, yet.

Dreams

What's wrong with saying I'm moving on?

That's really what I'm doing. Unless you want me otherwise.

Talking to you again makes me realize it's been quite a while since we parted ways and we really felt like history. Let's live our lives with less of each other now. Till the next time we talk, take care!

PS: It's really quite tough to have awkward moments with me, I realize. Hah!

Tug-of-war

Last time round, Chris got so emotional when Dingkai and I won that game for A House. This time, no pride was felt.

Things just weren't the same. Perhaps it's because of the high expectations I have after arts and temasek camp. Perhaps it's just me...

Aonkey

Let's hope we get past our personal grudges and move on with life

Just live your freaking life

Change to the same old you

Please. You're no longer the one we know. Or maybe we were all just wrong about you. I don't wanna lose a friend, but it's really getting harder to keep you with us...

Don't let where you are change who you were. Time to get back to your normal self.

It's over

And I don't feel a bit attached to it.
It's really my fault.

OGL fucked up.

Way too slack

I've been pushing my responsibilities away. And I'm really the one to blame.

Thanks for tanking all the shit, Kellie!

Shattered phone

The tempered glass at the back of my phone shattered. Something similar to what I dreamt about few weeks ago. Damn

I found these before everything happened

^^

School reopen

After 2 and a half years; finally.

--

Following the end of Hall camp and Arts oweek, it's really time to switch off my camp mode and move on. It's been fun, but it really isn't what I'm here for. May the bell-curve be ever in your favour!

Happy 47th!

One year ago on the exact same day we were all full of excitement.
It was the highlight of our NS.

Now, I'm just a bystander looking at other's glory of my past.
How big a difference this one year has made me...

I like you more than you do?

Nah. Who cares?! It doesn't matter. We're gonna stay the happy people we are anyway.

--

Everything is happening way too fast! I don't want it to slow down. Let's just stay the way we are ^^

Moving on!

Good to know that everyone that once mattered to me have moved on with life.
I'm doing the same; and now there's only this one girl that matters most to me.

Suddenly

One month ago I was disturbing you playing SP games;
one month later I became a Special Person of yours.

--

Everything happened in a flash and it really did felt like a dream.
And only after everything became so clear that we realize how many stupid things we have done to cover up for our mutual affections during the camp. Retards. =)

Live like we're dreaming

Red light.

Even if it's gonna be a mistake, it'll be a beautiful one.

--

But nah, it's not gonna be a mistake ^^

Obvious

Should I?

Fortunate me

Honoured.
"Good with girls"? Nah, I'm just better with people in general than introverts. But serious considerations have been made to fix my traffic light and turn it red. We shall see folks.

And suddenly I'm talking to another girl about whether you can choose who to love

I stand firm that you can't choose who you love but you can choose how you deal with it and what you do with it.

Student again

Need some time to adjust to this fact

I don't wanna lose anyone anymore

And I regretted missing parties of my old friends for the new friends I've made. In human, new things are always more intriguing; but in life, old ties are the ones more worthy to keep. I'm really starting to feel the pressure coming in from all directions and coping with them really requires some skills and self-discipline; and all of these takes time. I'm just hoping I'll survive and not crash...

--

The title is pretty apt for another context.

What if someday you fall in love with a girl you cannot love?

It's a crush

Chaotah Bear and Blur China Nun.
Is the relationship so weird that people are commenting on us?
Then maybe it's time to take a step back.
Because it's gonna be a wrong move to do otherwise.

Rethink the situation

Wait a minute. Is this falling in love? Maybe it is; maybe not. But no matter what, it's gonna be stupid to make a mistake now. Even if it really is love, circumstance doesn't allow further progression. It's gonna be a tough battle to regain my rational self, but it's definitely a crucial one. Too much is at stake to take the risk.

And I can only blame it on no one.

I don't get it

So you getting drunk is more important than me working. I'll skip work then

One more fucking love song I'll be sick

If happy ever after did exist
I will still be holding you like this

And suddenly the emo songs started playing

Nah. This feeling doesn't feel good at all. I've been trapped in this place far too long to be normal. I'll find my escapade someday; soon.

Abnormal

I hate it when Jason stops being the normal Jason that's nothing but awesome. Heart defecting from the brain and it hurts kinda bad.

Repairing the traffic light

Jason is not being himself.

Reserved seatings

Maybe someday I'll come out with a project to paste the blue arrow above every seats to mock the backwardness of our country in being courteous. I have to admit I myself am guilty as charged; but every single seat, irregardless of whether or not they are reserved, really should be given up to whomever needs it more. So why the need to mark out a "reserved" seat to remind our "educated" population?! Effective as it seems, it backfired. Excuse has just been given to hog the "non-reserved" seats because well, they're not reserved!

I'm sure someday a fine will be slapped on misusers and trust me, it'll only highlight the weakness of our authoritarian governance instead of solving the problem. Education, I'd say, is the key.

Life's humour

The ones that appear happiest usually have the saddest heart.
The ones that seem really confident often are the easiest to crash

Played

I hate it that you become the scumbag you are now, bro. If there is one thing you shouldn't play with, it's feelings.

Fought

I teared not because of the future I'm promised but of the past I've journeyed.

I earned this.
The scholarship doesn't matter, the fight does.

Bitxh please

I don't wanna care about all your internal conflicts and unhappiness, but as the head of this group now I just hope we can talk things out and stay as a family. Stop being petty and play childish games, girls.

We are one.

You don't scare me leh

How awesome to have friends that are like-minded;
what are the chances.

Life's great when you have lots of such chances.

Loaded does not equate to being rich

I have been trying to drive this point across:

I'm rich with no money

Batman: spoiler

When the bunch of bats comes out and he rediscover his fear of them and his reason for choosing his fear as his symbol before he takes that leap of faith, the dark knight rises again.

Tight

Missed Golem supper outing; missed Matthew's 21st; missed windsurfing session. Schedule's like a school of sardines.

51

Longest ride; soundest sleep!

14:48-17:04

Never gonna do it again. Lol

Wild ones

Looking back on my crazy youth during army daze, life's really moved off pretty fast. But I've never regretted one bit on spending those days that way.

Flashbacks have been so frequent I'm beginning to worry about my own ending.

Do you remember?

I still do.
How we first met at Amk mrt station then called each other silly names; how we went "steady" in sec 1 and how I've always waited for her badminton training to end at Hougang stadium. How devastated I was when we broke up after 19 days and subsequently for the next few years how I'd deliberately sit on the right-side upper-deck of 88 to look into her house every morning while on my way to school. How I'd once in a blue moon pluck out some courage to ask her out for a concert or movie. How we got close once again after a one year or so break. How we studied for O'levels together at J8; how we coincidentally met each other at the bus stop under my house on O'levels results collection day. How excited we were about going to JC and how firm we were on not going to the same school. How I first went to her house to meet the parent and how we eventually got close. How we celebrated each other's birthday with her baking a cheese cake for mine and me learning "Happy Birthday" on violin for hers. How we studied for A'levels together at SSC and Amk library. And how we eventually broke up and moved on to our own individual life.

I still do remember a lot of things. I'll really consider it my first love and first loves are never easy to forget.

But all these memories no longer feel like just yesterday. I've grown, and the fading of these memories are good testimonies.

What am I supposed to do?

I'm slowly losing old friends that were once so close. I've lost some and I don't wanna lose any more.

Commitment is such a bitch.

Palm reading

Yunfeng says I don't have much responsibilities. Probably started off with myself hating them.

The heavy loads of commitments are making this disgust deeper. Time to let some go I'd say.

--

But never trust what those lines on you palms are telling you; you make your own fate, definitely.

Nothing's for certain, except that my traffic light's gonna blink amber for quite some time before it becomes fixed. Awesome singlehood!

Spoiled plan

Because plans are meant to be screwed

Slowing down

After a hectic week, things are finally slowing down (because I choose to pon them) in preparation for another energy-drainer whole of next week starting this thurs.

Y U NO NEW POST?!!

Awesomes of me; you 3 weeks no new post already! Life's getting kinda boring on your virtual side!

SCMS12

I DON'T WANNA MISS IT!
(Then my finisher tee will be outdated...)
But I have a paper on the next day after the race. How?

Wounded with joy

Shoulder injured, multiple cuts on fingers by barnacles, torn skin, muscles ache, heavy eye bags.

Windsurf, rock climb and night cycling consecutively is kinda overloading but definitely worth it.

For now, sleep is more important than anything else.

Best OG

Even if we didn't win it, we've been through it.
It's not any single camp that changed me;
I guess they all adds up to make a whole big picture clear enough for me to understand myself so much better.
No, this is not some self motivating thrash talk or a master plan to life;
it's really just a self reflection and revelation of what I really want in the near future.
Or at least, in the prime of my youth.

Just live like you're dying;
just do anything you want.

Because you only live once.

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Some day we'll all be gone.
Some day we'll look back and there's definitely gonna be regrets.
You don't measure life with what you've missed out,
you do it with what you've taken up.

Life's short

Your youth is shorter;
your prime is even more so.

If there's a time for you to give all out and live your life to the fullest, now is the time.
I'm gonna live my next 4 years as though it's the last 4 of my life.
Life's short; stop wasting it

One year...

We're supposed to be celebrating our one year anniversary soon but things didn't turn out as we've expected. But anyway, happy one year worth of friendship! And many more to come...

Thanks for the memories, babe.

Tweet tweet!

Dink says this place is like a private twitter. Seriously? It's way cooler! Lol

It's mid-July?!!!

Time is really moving too damn fast! In a month's time I'll be attending lectures! Something I once thought too far while in army, and now it's freaking just a month away...

I started working at Akzo Nobel half a year ago! And it felt just a minute away. And hasn't army just started yesterday and vj life the day before?! Just got mindfucked by the calendar. Can't it just CTFO?!

Youth is really running away. There's too many things to be done and I'm left with 9 years before the big 30 approaches. Hold on tight, game on!

This is the orientation camp state

Some day, that other side of me will be back. Just don't be stunned when you see him.

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I actually don't mind him hibernating forever.

Prioritize

That's something I realize I am bad in but really need to master it fast, especially now that I have so much commitments at hand.

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Paper at 5 later with 100plus more pages untouched and here I am blogging after doing some packing of the room.

New-found friends

I'm still trying to make sense of them while they attempt to figure me out. How many really will stay close and last till the end, I don't really wanna know.

What I know is, the old ones are not gonna leave.

End of a 2-year break

It's finally time to chill the fuck out;
and I have four years for that.

I just don't know if I really am ready for it!

I'm gonna give it up

I don't normally do.

And it's really a rare opportunity to be invited by the school to join a prestigious second major but I really just wanna stay where I am and take a chill pill.

I'm gonna screw up all the plans I have on my list of intended modules and just do what I think is really interesting. What double minors or second major; screw it! I'm gonna spend my uni daze with my awesome groups of friends...

Attention attracting

Am I? Time to tone down then.

45 years

Dad was telling me about how he met my mother and how they got together. Just another five more years, they'll be friends and soul mates for half a century.

I'm jealous. I want that girl in my life too. I'm still searching, still waiting. Still envious...

As our lives change

Come whatever,
We will still be, friends forever

Valid reason

I just found one for why I'm starting to dislike gambling...

Gossip SPs!

What machine gun. -.-

So I heard my two SPs spent the afternoon ranting about me. Naise...
Settle scores soon! Hahah

Hall scam

COS THE FREAKING ORIENTATION COST $365!!!
They are charging us additional 2 weeks of hall fees cos of the orientation... What the shit is this. -.-

Though mine is probably free, it's still pretty unreasonable!!!

Irritated

Some people are just so retarded that they piss you off without them realizing it. Irritating max. I've tried my best to avoid but some are just not meant to stay

"Tracy"

That's the name of the imaginary ghost the girls came up with during the whole rovers camp. -.-

Oliver

My nephew is celebrating his first birthday today. His actual is next week.

He kicks his soccer ball around the house and sometimes does tricks with it, and loves to sing himself to sleep. He enjoys flipping through books my brother and I have got in the house and he picks up phone to pretend he's talking to someone.

He's only one; genius...

True story bros.

Profile visitor

Wts is this?!! FB is becoming like Friendster in the past!!! Why would we wanna let people know we have visited their profile?!! That said, time to check out who checked me out! (It's really making the social networking system counterproductive)

Amber

What are we...

How small can the world (NUS community) be?!

Awkward moment when you realize your Arts camp SP is good friends with your Rovers camp SP and they are meeting up to squash (-cum-bitch-about-you) this weekend! Hah!

Best Freshie

But any one less, it would have been much less interesting! Thanks everyone for the fun and joy!!!

I don't normally skip group outings

Being left out is never fun,
but my schedule is just too packed.

Awesome OBS!

One word: Fun!
Did multiple times of climbing the logs to earn more (redundant) Lego bricks but it was all worth it...
And mostly because of the awesome people there!
Next up: Rovers; just pray I don't dieeeeeeee

Chris says I'm emo!

Which part?! Hahah...

If my memories didn't fail, the last time I see myself emoing is quite a few months or even years back! Move on, peeps! =)

Wrecked iPhone

I just dreamed that the back cover of my iPhone got lost and all the parts in it start disintegrating! Time to change a phone...

Live like we're dying!

Thanks Didi and Bobo! I'm drunk but still, thanks bro!!!!!!

Bah, I just waited 3 hrs for Mr Alex Tan

And he's not even coming.

I'm hungry! :(

Starving with a Heineken

Cos I've been flew an aeroplaneeeeeeeee

Modules are out!

But there're so many clashes. Zzz

Do you have the Cat High feel?

Apparently it's you acting like a jerk when you are not one...
Am I?!

Grades don't measure intelligence
and age doesn't define maturity

Tiring indeed

Having too many commitments makes life move at such a fast pace you don't feel the tiredness until you reach the threshold on the amount of rest your body needs. I''ll cherish the next 1.5 hour of nap!

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Wondering if I will have the time and energy to train and participate in this year's SCMS...

The one that got away will one day be that somebody I used to know. I'm not over you, and for the next thousand years I'll hope that you remain safe and sound, while I find someone like you.

Stagnation

Not many new posts coming up;
that just means life is reaching a standstill.
NUS/HDB/Tuition/Prudential/Exams/Friends/Family..

Whose 24-hour has got some spare to lend?!!

Regulars

I realize I'm too used to having regulars in this place. So much so that I don't like having newcomers judging me all over again.

As we go on

We realize there's a lot of things and people out there that has got so much more stories to tell.

What's yours? What's yours compared to them?

So what if you have all the paper qualifications, all the certificates, all the things today's society deem superior? You just need a story to tell...

Seeing from afar

If I knew he went there to see her, I won't have agreed to meet him there.

Because I know how it feels to see from afar,
and I don't wanna witness it.

I FORGOT TO BUY 0-0!

But my dad got that, so I should still hope both team don't score with 7 minutes left! =)

Thanks Gary!

It looks good cos it's on me, bitch! Lol!

It's been long!

And life's good!

Cos it's been bleeding non-stop for a few years

Nothing's gonna happen!

They shaved the tree!

I always look up to check if there's any high-rise littering and when I did the same thing tonight, the tree was bald!

And it felt so unfamiliar...

Live it again

Bruises, wounds, uneven tan lines, eye bags and level 9999 tiredness;
plus I had to cancel my test tomorrow because I didn't have enough time to study for it.

But it is all worth it. You never know why everyone talks about their camps and got so close to their OG mates until you really go for one yourself. You all thank me for the fun, but it'll never be the same without any one of you individuals. All the tears we shed when it all ended is pretty pointless because we'll stay awesome all the same even with the end of the short 5-day camp. Rock on, A5.

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Most awesome, seeing seas of Red, Blue, Green, Yellow photos floating around on Facebook; we all had fun indeed.

Artspocalypse

Shoot, Shag, Marry

Why so serious?!
But still, thanks to the brave souls who shagged and married me. Lol

Hectic

I just came back from a camp with an average of 4hrs of sleep per night and here I am in front of my comp trying to settle all the admin loads that HDB is sending down and reading through emails from every other where... Most frustratingly, I have a paper tomorrow and I have barely touched the textbook! Life's gonna be as rush as this the next one month or so. I can't wait, but I rather take a chill pill and relax!

Induction programme

HDB is having this induction program for all its scholars, and other than the first day to Ubin for OBS, the others are just boring site visiting (and guess what, last day is a cooking lesson at Shatec!!! Random...)

Anyway, it clashes with Rover's camp so I won't be able to make it. But (surprise surprise!) from the latest mail they sent out, I know 4 other guys from that 17 people group!!! How small is Singapore?!?! It's good to know you're not missing out on the friends-making session...