Every moment,

has the potential to be life-changing

I dreamed of them appearing to surprise me.

It was only just a dream.

It can no longer happen..

Who invented whistle?!

Yes, I died again.
Blackout and almost fainted.
I won't deny if you call me weak;
I don't give a damn.
Because even when I'm falling,
I picked others up.
All you out there that leaves your comrades behind,
I do not despise;
I pity,
pity you for succumbing to a paper idea Darwin theorized
instead of learning the social law for survival.
I will come out on top.

--

I cannot believe,
we did it again.
All those warnings, threats, coax and whatever not; they never fail to make you ignore.
I'm not blaming;
that is not the point.
Learn, people, learn.
Now if the hard way don't work,
Repent.
But please, don't repeat.
Let's make this the last.
This is not the way to end it all.

--

Stop accusing him of exasperating the whole incident.
We merely stand on different view points possessing different perspectives.
Don't deny that you agree with him; we all do.
Admire, for though he may be hot-headed, he had at least the courage to rebel against a hierarchy so many fear to even speak up against.

I've been missing out on quite some things in life.

Evident from my blog,
where I'm posting things about one week old.

Woohoo! Decorated my room!

I was once messy,
then now I pass the stage of being tidy;

MY ROOM IS NOW DAMN CHIO!
Lol, ok in case you're wondering what's chio,
it's just that I've installed a cork-board
and put some photos on the wall
and projected the orange light onto it
-.-

HAHA. Anti-climax.

Anyway,
That's not enough,
I wanna put some famous quotes, some motivational/inspiration persons' portrait, some scenery pictures, some world maps and any other random stuff onto the wall.
I wanna change the clock and cupboard and table and even wanna buy a wooden book stand that I found in Times ($50 -.-) just now.

Revamp!!!

Getting fat indeed

Had ice-creams almost everyday this week.

Look carefully, it's in plural form. -.-

--

But it's okay,
I always see obese couples walking down Orchard Road very blissfully as well;
we can be like them! XD

3M really sucks!

wasted $15 on the 3M Command that's so heavily advertised and in the end I used the Blutack that I brought with $2. -.-

One question wrong!

-.-

Lucky I pass,
keep laughing at people who fail at such an easy test.
=X


--


And Congrats to Brenda who go so excited that she passed her driving (after 4 attempts) that she's going around treating people. LOL.

Hear Me Now

I left everything behind me
Searching for the strength
I thought I
Had inside me
Left you behind
So lonely
Praying for the day that
you would somehow find me
I was young
You were wrong
But I tried
I was strong
And the years that I have
lost are all I see
Hear me now
All I can say
Is I am not afraid
Of the world that I have
tried to push away
I fight everyday
But I am to blame
I am not innocent
But I am not afraid
I lost all the faith
Inside me
Still I find myself without
the will to
Free me from you
I'm a slave
Unhappy
Wanting oh so much
for you to someday
See me
Tell me how
I want to
Say it loud
I need you
To be the one who catches
all my dreams
Hear me now
All I can say
Is I am not afraid
Of the world that I have
tried to push away
I fight everyday
But I am to blame
I am not innocent
But I am not afraid
Anymore
I am not afraid
Anymore
I'm tired of sleeping
Alone I've been grieving
The life that I gave up
to feel alive
I want to feel alive
I'm not afraid anymore
I'm not afraid anymore
I want to feel alive
I want to feel alive
I want to feel, I need to feel
I want to feel alive
Hold on tight
Let's make this right
Take me, make me
Feel alive tonight

Doing math with my girl

makes me feel like going back to study days.
And the life during that period.

Some times, some people

Some people are just born to piss people off.
They're Singaporeans indeed.
Fking complaining about everything.
What's the point when you know you'll still have to do it no matter?

--

Some times I just feel like slapping some people in their face.
He who slacks and irks the superiors commenting that I am inefficient.
Fking wake up your idea, loser!
I use to think you're fine.
Now, you're just a piece of junk in my opinion.

Transparent

I realize I'm like a transparent piece of paper.
Everyone sees through and knows me inside-out.
Everyone knows what I've been through and what's happening in my life.

I'm just not that kind that'll keep things to myself.
I wanna share things happening around me with all who're close to me,
and I feel eager to express myself.

Sometimes, it's really a bad thing.
Perhaps like what some have told me, I need to be more secretive,
create a cloud of mystery around myself...

Too cute

Me: "Walao, my nose bleed"
Her: "What happened? I never nose bleed before!"
Me: "Ya, next time you see me you'll get it"
Her: "You think you so cute to turn me on ah?!"
Me: "Ok lor, I go one corner turn the lights and fan on.."
Her: "HAHAHAHA! Don't waste electricity ah!"

-.-

I NEED MONEY!

So many things to do,
so little to support.

Diving, Driving, Riding.
Enough to kill,
my wallet.

Zzz

Lol, Alex Tan. -.-

Alex: "Wake up so early?"
Me: "Ya, gf coming my house later"
(pause)
Alex: "bro i got urgent nid ur help. later can go ur hse? nid to hide from ah long. pls pls pls. ask her come tmr!"
Me (contemplating): "haha. testing me you cb"
Alex: "HAHAHAHA, ok la."

I know you too well dude, hide from gf maybe... hide from ah long!?!? LOL!

--

Alex: "ok bye, too much crap"
ME: "=/=" (-.-)
Alex: "WHAT? Is that a face?!"
Me: "er... no. It's a typo"

Haha.

Frederic Chopin

I've been listening to his pieces these few days and I think I like them.
Should start Classic-ing

Don't take the wrong box of Magnum!

I open the fridge yesterday to see two boxes of Magnum.
I took out one box and it's Strawberry and Dark Chocolate which I had the day before,
so I took out the other box to see what it was,
and I went -.-

Then my sister walk pass and told me not to take the wrong box.

--

Guess what's that pack?
(She's breastfeeding her baby)

-.-

Haven't, for a long time.

I haven't had supper and beer with Rex, Alvin, Andy and Kaung for a long time.
I haven't caught a movie with Daphne or Calene for a long time.
I haven't mahjong-ed with Jingwei and gang for a long time.
I haven't went sun tanning with Junyang, Alex and Kang for a long time.
I haven't chill out with W&D for a long time.
I haven't had dinner with my VJ teammates for a long time.
I haven't gone clubbing with Shamin or see Zac there for a long time.

After NDP started and some change in my social life,
I really haven't done things that I used to do on a regular basis for a long time.
And now, I'm missing them.

With NDP coming to an end soon

It means life like this will cease;

Off days won't be so frequent,
Ops standby will start,
UC and Mod II will also be back,
RT will commence (and Sat will be burnt without Mon off),
And any case,
life won't be as good.

But who cares.
By that time,
we'll be counting down our days...

--

What will life be like after ORD...

A chore 2 years overdue

And I skipped the trial just now,
never mind, as long as I don't skip the actual one.

Finally, next week is the last week!

Last night's fireworks was really really really mesmerizing.
It can only get better.

--

The golden shower that you thought faded away and descending,
suddenly comes back to life with red flames.

Mesmerizing.

--

If you haven't seen this year's fireworks,
I strongly encourage you to.

Private no more

I've got so many things that I've wanted to say,
and if in the past,
I would have posted them all here;
but now this private space no longer belongs to me,
I have to watch my words

because this is a fking public post.

SAT

I've actually thought of taking a lap year before Uni to work and take SAT,
but NS have already taken up 2 years of my life,
so that option's out.

Now that Christ wanna take SAT and the latest possible for us is 28th Jan,
I'm doubting my ability and motivation to study it in so short a period.

Is it a waste of time, energy and money?...
Since I don't really have any use of it
and the only reason I'm taking it,
is so that there's someone to study with him.

Decisions, decisions.

Normalcy

I've always been normal my whole life,
Yet normalcy is so difficult to attain.

I admit I'm scared

For many nights after I've met you, that's what I've felt;
Together with anxiety, nervousness and a bit of paranoia.
But you gave me a totally new perspective to life,
and you brought along excitement, colours and laughter into mine.
With just so little time we've met,
we've been through so much normal people won't have,
if this love is not strong,
nothing is.

Feel no guilt,
because you have not sin.
Be not sorry,
because the wrong is not with you

Are you prepared for a change in your life?

A drastic one.

There are so many scenarios in life that can possibly happen,
and you really cannot anticipate any single one.
What if one day you got into an accident; you become maimed, blinded or paralyzed.
Or if you committed a serious offence and suddenly you realize you have landed in jail.
Will you be able to take that impact?

I know a lot of you around me are too used to you own comfort zones and frankly,
I doubt you can.

I'm advising you now, exert caution. Be prepared.
Because life, is really unpredictable.

--

It's not the end of the world when you're down with some serious illness.
I admit I've a feeling something's wrong with me now,
and for some reason,
after one sleepless night of thoughts,
I wish I'll have it.

I want it,
so that I can tell people about my experience;
and how I have lived through it normally and happily,
and continue to pursue my dreams even knowing my days are short.
I wanna spread my optimism;
but I also wanna preach my experience.

It may be a mistake,
but it is not regrettable.

--

I take ownership in my actions,
and whatever I do,
I'm ready to be held responsible for the consequences.

--

If you now take a peek into my life,
you can write a book;
and hers,
you can make a movie.

Piece them up,
we're just a simple love story.

I realize it's really impossible to have no regrets

Everytime you sincerely feel sorry for something, you're regretting its occurrence.

But to regret a decision, I so far haven't had one.

No,
None.

I've once again proved that you can outrun others, without sleeping

And anyway, the stupid planks last week made my hand bleed,
and now, my white shirt's stained with it. -.-

Magnum Craze

Whole family's suddenly crazy over it;
everyday there's a new packet of Minis, and sometimes, two.

And it all started with me and my cravings. XD

No matter what I decide to do, there's a part that's reasons of my own.

Hard to accept

I'm no longer yours,
and you belong to someone else.

Thanks, let's move on;
like you told me to.

Sometimes, you just wish for a simple life.

When the pace slows, you push yourself forward.
Now, I wish everything will just slow;

simplified.

We've never been normal

Let's at least try to do it now.

Planking kills!

at least it killed some of my skin cells.
Now it hurts,
and best: the blood stained all over my mattress. -.-

Phonics

If learning a new language is a bitch,
try phonics.

So who's noisy?!

On the way home,
Jack (SMS): "come home quietly, don't wake baby"

After reaching home,
Jason: "don't wake which baby?"
Jack: "the new-born!"
Jason: "but he's noisier than me when I'm drunk!... -.-" (baby crying in the background"

Less-than-three-ed

Measure your life in love

=]

Rapid acceleration

2 seconds, we talked;
2 minutes, we got crazy;
2 hours, we did something wild;
2 days, we slowed and we realized;
2 weeks, we got serious.

Rule #3: Don't get too involved

Rule #(Whatever): Don't fucking care

--

Now I finally understand what you meant on your fb

And I'm telling you,
We're in it together.

--

They say it's just a game;
play it, game over, restart with a new one.

But fuck off,
hell no!
I'm playing serious.
Let me be stupid or retarded,
it's my fucking choice.

--

Deja vu

but different outcomes.
This time round,
it's not my fault,
I'm not to blame,
and I'm not guilty.

But I feel worse;
there's more pain to it.

--

People say laughter are more often shared in honeymoon period than any others;
I guess that applies to sorrows too;

just that majority don't come across bitterness in honey.

I'm not the kind of person that'll keep things to myself

But there's no one I can talk to about it,
except you;
whom I'm trying very hard to not bring this up to.

--

I can't keep secrets well,
but they really belongs to me.

Don't steal them.

What's the most unimaginable thing to happen when you just have a new gf?

This is the kind of scenarios we'll joke about during guys' talks and we'll conclude sarcastically: "that won't be the worst thing to happen huh"

But now that it's real,
it doesn't seems much of a joke anymore;
and it definitely don't seem like the worst.

We'll get through this
and grow stronger.

2King1Queen

That's the people staying in my house now.

They are:
Queen Joanne,
King Jack, and
King Jason.

Because they each got a room to themselves,
and poor mum and dad are sleeping in the living room..

=X
Guilty...

Regrets

I realize,
it's really difficult to have them.

But when you have them,

it's really difficult...

Why am I troubled?!

Daffy: "how can u haf a gf AND still be troubled?"
Me: "wrong. it's only when you HAVE a gf then you can be troubled"

--

=X
oops.
Haha.

Don't get numb baby.

It's not healthy to get numb to anything;
not this at least.

But haiz,
maybe this is the only feeling that'll help.

Do people still use blog?

Stupid high flyer ask stupid question. -.-

Like, duh?!

--

Without blogs, my life'll suck.

I fking need this escapade.

Alcohol quotes

If you know someone who tries to drown their sorrows, you might tell them sorrows know how to swim. ~Quoted in P.S. I Love You, compiled by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.


If drinking is interfering with your work, you're probably a heavy drinker. If work is interfering with your drinking, you're probably an alcoholic. ~Author Unknown


I feel sorry for people who don't drink. When they wake up in the morning, that's as good as they're going to feel all day. ~Frank Sinatra


This is one of the disadvantages of wine: it makes a man mistake words for thought. ~Samuel Johnson


If four or five guys tell you that you're drunk, even though you know you haven't had a thing to drink, the least you can do is to lie down a little while. ~Joseph Schenck


What's drinking?
A mere pause from thinking!
~George Gordon, Lord Byron, The Deformed Transformed


The chief reason for drinking is the desire to behave in a certain way, and to be able to blame it on alcohol. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960


I envy people who drink - at least they know what to blame everything on. ~Oscar Levant


Drunkenness is temporary suicide. ~Bertrand Russell, The Conquest of Happiness


Everybody should believe in something; I believe I'll have another drink. ~Author Unknown


Beer is the cause and solution to all of life's problems. ~Homer Simpson


Drunkenness is nothing but voluntary madness. ~Seneca


If you are young and you drink a great deal it will spoil your health, slow your mind, make you fat - in other words, turn you into an adult. ~P.J. O'Rourke


Never cry over spilt milk. It could've been whiskey. ~"Pappy" Maverick, in Maverick


Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy. ~Author unknown, commonly attributed to Benjamin Franklin

It's been a long time

Since the need for some booze to put me to sleep.

Feels like insomnia.

Sometimes in life, you've just gotta adapt

Because most of the time, things don't go as planned.
And the hiccups are things that make it interesting.

Embrace it,
I'm so gonna learn.

Scream!

Scream out loud,
when life's like a roller-coaster ride.

I might just gonna do something stupid

So if you care about me,
I'm sorry people.

Sometimes, we make mistakes;
sometimes, we become irrational.

Just don't regret.

Because we're only human.

--

I'm no superhuman.

Welcome back Christ!

Though, sadly.

But you're seriously missed. =]

Roller-coaster

And I'm gonna tell you now,
I really don't care.

I just wanna be with you.

--

Even if it sounds like a fallacy;

But I do wish for normalcy.

--

I'm scared.
But this is no time for that.
I needa be brave,
brave like you, baby.

I know I shouldn't even be lost,
but forgive me,
because I really don't know what to do or how to react.

I,
just don't want
you,
to tear.

Gemini Sheep

These Sheep are quick thinkers and very sociable. Going to parties, talking on the phone and hanging out with friends and family are all constant needs in their lives. These people often tend to become good public speakers and charming as well.

Scorpio Roosters

These are very persistent and determined individuals. They see what they want and keep going after it until they have it, whether it be someone or something. These Roosters also have a foreboding side to them which could surface at anytime.

Penguins with blue-stripes

Great huh, now that we've looked so great already,
we're gonna add some colours to the dullness.

What a joke we're gonna be.

So angry, I could feel my rage

I really can't take it anymore,
this is getting off hands.

People just don't learn from their fucking mistakes.

When some are trying so hard to keep themselves trouble-free and not implicate others;
There will be some others that are trying even harder to do just the opposite.

They don't fucking understand;
1 person taking responsibility for their own fucking action is okay,
but 60 over people taking the rap together,
insanity.

Play ball,
not in our coy.
Because they somehow don't feel the pain.

But on the other hand,
we've worked hard;
and what rewards did we actually get back in return?
Now all that we've asked for is for us to play hard:
is it so difficult!?

I'm really not blaming anyone;
in fact, I don't even know who's to blame.
There's just some serious issues of maturity and justice/fairness in this company.
Wake up, people; grow up!

--

And that applies to me too,
I needa fucking learn.
Learn how to manage my anger.
Thanks to my sleepiness last night,
nothing happened.

But I was so flared up I thought I could kill someone.

Fed-up. Zzz

M1

Why's everyone complaining about you all at the same time?!?! Lol.

I think...
You must really suck!

Penguin really sucks

Though other people loves it. LOL!

--

Changi V's Stingray and Sotongs are damn nice,
but the smell that lingers on the white shirt is just...
gross.

Bad boy, Bryan!

Me: "Wanna go Ah Gu (my) room?"
B: "No!"
Me: "But Jie Jie (my gf)'s inside! Wanna go?"
B: "Ok! Yes!"

=.=

Congrats, sis!

She's finally gave birth to a healthy son!

--

World war 3 might just start now that she's back.
She just scolded me for sitting on her bed with my working pants. -.-

--

Still haven't decide the English name (which 'Basil' had been much-bombarded);
but his Chinese name is Yu Hao.

So together with his brother, they'll be Hao Jie (literally, Heroes)! Lol.

--

Bryan doesn't want his younger brother to look like him because he's afraid Ah Ma will not be able to differentiate the two of them.

HAHA!

--

I can already sense some jealousy around.
Kids, oh kids.

--

The full-month celebration's on NDP.
My presence will be there....
on the television screen! Lol.

Mum's getting old.

Repeating sentences that no one's really interested in. -.-

This blog.

It is this blog that brought us back to talking terms.
It is this, too, that separated us once again.

Friends, strangers again.

I really like the new watch I brought.

$150-Fossil that really looks like my brother's $2000-TAG Heuer. Lol

Fuck the drill boots

It caused blood-clots on my toe-nails and even chipped off one.
And the blisters all over. -.-


Zzz

Blood, sweat and tears;
this is my Majulah moment.

Life's really a bitch

Remember back in BMT, I really hated Jesse and finds that his opinions and the things he does are damn destructive. And after VT, many were still bitching about Gabriel getting Best in Weapon. I found Nicholas Ng damn dao cos he rarely said hi when we rub shoulder though we knew each other beforehand. Joel was the first friend I came to know in army and I didn't think that 'white-chick' would have made it through Commandos. Elisha was so slack that I didn't wanna believe he's from HCI. And Christopher, I really didn't recall us being acquaintance and even actually had that lunch together so many years back.

Now, we're fucking a clique.

--

When I first met Lydia, she told me she hated smokers, and I said I hate lesbians. And after exchanging class e-mails, I realize Julynn was on my contact list for so many years before we actually became classmates. I remember the first time I saw Peiying I thought she's really an ah-lian. And the whole basketball guys team, they used to hate me so much for the misunderstanding of me saying them being lousy.

But still, we ended up so close.

--

I remembered Kangster as the Attitude Bastard that really fires at everyone he's pissed with. I got to know Alex as the spoilt kid that's fucking rich. I thought of Junyang as the whimpy kid that dropped so many subjects for O's. I used to be close to Jingyi, but that was the other clique that's mostly defunct now. And Brandon, always the kaobei-kia that rebels against the teachers.

We were so impossible, now so real.

--


There's even more to talk about if I mention the Z-gang where Kaung and I use to fight each other, or SC7 when we tried to disintegrate Melly.

But it's enough.

Life's really a bitch.

You really won't know when your enemies will become your best-friend.
A random stranger has that potential, why not someone who cares so much about you.
It's so unimaginable, but it happens.

Hypothesis we hope will fail

"Why you so lovable?"
"One year later, you'll be asking me 'why you so insensitive, busy etc'"

--

We've so often talk about how much we'll drift apart in a year's time,
but I know while trying to be realistic,
we really do hope fantasy exists and something magical will happen to this relationship of ours.

--

And you still haven't tell me the magical phrase that takes 3 seconds to say, 3 hours to explain and a lifetime to prove.

Free time!

Is a good time to check my mails in inbox,
finish reading my John Grisham,
clear the magazines that dates few months back,
revise my French,
and pay some sleep debt.

--

All those are just in theory,
so many off days have gone by,
but none of the above are accomplished. -.-

Lazy boy!

Watching fireworks on the Helix bridge

Mesmerizing.

--

Even without the fireworks,
standing there watching the city view itself is...

Romantic.

--

Liked.

Why is my fb friends above 600 again?!

I remember clearing it until it's less than 500;
like just few weeks ago?

-.-

Ok. Totally lame.

--

I bet at least 10% of them I won't say hello to on the street. ha!

Inside/Outside

I finally know that only when you love someone's character and personality more than their looks and appearance, will you love her truly and more.

Not that I don't do in the past,
but it's just a sudden realization.

You gonna love her deep, F&L

Not blogging on weekends

That does shows a lot about a change in my life.

It's gone all the way to Aussie!...

Please stop telling me how happening my life has been,
Anymore, you people can make a movie out of it,
or maybe a biography?

Zzz

-.-

So now, will you be happy or sad when you ORD?!

Mixed I guess.

Talking bout classes,

Julynn tagged my in a link to s51's blog,
and that's when I realize even JC seems so far away.

I remember once when we were asking each other what we think will happen of us all 5 years down the road.

We don't need that long to know that we'll move on to lead separate lives.
And we look back, to regret the lesser bonds we shared together.

CHS SportsClass'07

Just saw our class' graduation video to realize how much have been missed,
and how vague the memories were.

I've forgotten what jokes we once said,
but I still remember we laughed.
I cannot recall what we were fighting for,
but I can still taste the sweetness of victories we shared.

--

4-10'07, best class ever.

Book-in/Book-out

That's basically the major event for this month.

Not that I'm complaining there being too many off-days and half-days,
but many people's wallets are grumbling (mine included)!

And all these are gonna finish when we start our stand-by duties;
not to mention we have IPPT to clear before RT sets in,
and the worst part, I've still got more than 2 weekends to burn for my 7 extras.

So the best plan is:
get them all done tgt!
Do Guard/COS on the NTM period when there's RT! LOL.

--

We almost couldn't book out on Saturday
(and if we really got stuck in camp, I'll go crazy;
and that book out prove to be worth it!)

And think this is gonna happen every Saturdays until NDP ends.
Zzz.
They are all gonna end at fucking 10pm! and buses to come at 2230.
So by the time we board it at 11, we can only reach camp at 2330;
how are we to send arms, pack bag, shower and change out to book out in 30mins!?!?

-.-

--

But the stupidest of all these,
is that the guard room now no longer allows people to book in/out after 2359, until 0600 the next morning.

So what?
So the next time we have offs at night; after clubbing,
we have to lodge at the macs, or just sleep at the bus stop outside camp and wait for the fucking gate to be opened.

Great huh. -.-

Stupid girl!

Look at my blog to make yourself angry. lol.

--

And I just realize what I told Gab is very true.

I don't care;
The last time I had this feeling,
was fucking more than 7years ago.

I almost thought I'm forgotten.

Thanks for reminding me that I still exist. lol.

Unfriend you

Nice song.

--

I've done it before,
not so childish anymore.

--

I've no idea why am I so angst over your disappearance.
No, not anymore.

We've promised to move on,
and yes, we will.
You've did,
I've got to, and I'm going.

I hate it when my blog's getting less privacy

But now,

I don't fucking care.

You agreed!

That's lying eh.

--

But I don't care,

I don't care that you have his photo in your wallet,
I don't care that you tattooed his name on your finger,
I don't care that you may still like him.

Because all I care about is now, the present.

--

And all your fb posts are so emo,

start smiling,
because you have me now.

I haven't got the feeling of falling in love for a very long time

Nostalgic indeed.

The juniors are posting about their posting!

I've never had that feeling of anxiety before. =(

--

Maybe I do, when I received that orange letter,
that really changed my life.

Maybe I do, when we listened to our vocation outside PSC's armskote,
till now, I still hate that.

Am I just a substitute?!

Somehow, I've got a feeling;

you'll leave me for him someday.

--

Insecure, I'm not,
Experienced, I have.

"You make me smile"

No,
You, make me smile.

We succeed in our mission yesterday!

And that is to fail!

I swear I didn't get any girl's number yesterday to K.I.T. with them.
Though I kissed two and gamed another pair.

--

Playing the game too much makes it no fun anymore;
fail once in a while, to excite things.

XD

And Dan, your mum loves you so much

And you know,
and I can see that you love her equally.

Then why?

Is the urge to do things you wanna do and the satisfaction in return proportionate to the possible heartbreak you'll cause your mum?

--

I'm in no position to critic,
because I'm a smoker, against my parent's will as well;
and I wanna learn riding, that they'll never agree.

I'm rebellious like you.

But I really envy you,
your courage.

So much more than I can ever muster.

--

It's an admiration.

I like you too,
more than you me I bet. XD

My mum wanted to give me $2000

that's the amount she set aside for me after I cease to take allowance from her.
And that's the amount she plans to give me when I need it, like recently when I ask her for help with my driving course.

--

Even though she lost half the amount at Genting, and can only give me a thousand;
this fucking thousand makes me feel like a millionaire, emotionally.

Because I realize, my mum really loves me.

Even with the limited money she gets from my siblings each month, she managed to save some for me; touched, and nothing else.

--

You may not understand,
but it's okay.
Imagine you have to work since you're sec 3 to earn your own living allowance,
because your family's not that well-to-do,
suddenly, you realize you mum have a sum of money for you in times of need.

yes, you won't understand.

--

Karma indeed,

I was laughing at Gabriel getting stick by the girl,
and now I got it.

I was laughing at Elisha for dancing with that girl the other time round,
and then she clinged to me last night.

Zzz

I've proven capable

of completing an 8km run with a considerable speed faster than many,
even after and intensive night of drinking and no sleep.

--

I'm proud,
but now I'm shagged out.

Should I sign on as an AEO?!

Like my brother...

--

The money and scholarship's really so tempting!

Why be couple when you can be friends with benefits?

I'm starting to contradict my stance,

Soon, this philosophy will crumble.

What is it called?

The illness that makes you fall into love rapidly.

--

Or is it an illness?

The 3 girls most important to me

8 years ago,

are still the 3 girls closest to me now

--

I wanted to post this like 2 weeks ago.
And in the span of this 2 weeks,
this post seems to be meaningless.

Seriously, it was crazy.

Thinking about it now,
4 people in the room, it's the wildest thing I've ever done;
so far.

--

I like.

Camera

One dangerous weapon

Continue not to reply me lor.

=[

Swimming with the tennis ball

3 guys, playing with 1 small tennis ball in the pool.

I swear we actually look quite retarded...
lol

So I waited from 12 to 3 to get my lunch

Thanks ah people,
for being late leading to us missing the last order,
causing us to look for alternative buffet,
having to cab down to Marina,
and when finally settled at HotPot Culture,
met with accident that scalded Rex's gf.

Great. Series of unfortunate events.

Random Sand

While sun-tanning at Sentosa...

3 random girls: "whoa, this place is good, the sand so fine..."
Alex (waking up): "Jason, the sand got difference meh?"
Me: "No, but there's a difference in company"

Totally not healthy

Some day, soon,
all these have to stop;

We're really reaching the peak of this whole crazy shit.

16

Legal age of girl to have sex.
And I didn't know it until this morning!

Cool,
it's just for your info.

--

I'm relieved.

ya, I'm definitely getting a tattoo.

If people are getting it at 17,
Why am I waiting for 21?!

And it's fucking awesome, I swear;
not being childish.

So tired I'm walking like a zombie

Breakfast with sec sch friend
Lunch with pri sch friends
Dinner with jc friends;
cheong home to change and meet army friend.
Then late-night activity with new-found friend.

So I ended up walking along Orchard after an afternoon-swim like a zombie

Kukup Boy

What are the chances of the trip being successful?
Low.

Ha!

Uneven Tan

That sounds like a name! Lol.

But that sucks;
seems like Sentosa every Sunday is inevitable!

Do you rather have lots of close female friends that are pretty or male buddies that will die for you?

No jealousy involved,

but I'll rather the latter.
Totally.

Happy birthday Alvin!

We met like millions of years ago,
and we met again when I was low.

That breaking-up event gave me friends I may very well lose,
I'm glad.

Life's a bitch

I just suddenly had the revelation that JY and JH may very possibly been friends and comrade-in-arms that go through shit together, but a little twist changes everything;

their life still twined, but in opposites.

Friends with(out) benefits

Yes, to be frank,

that's what I want.

I really am broke!!!

And I owe too much money!

--

Too many things to do,
too little money to fulfill them.

Zzz

What's the best way to fall out for a parade?!

Stand under the tree and wait for the bird to shit onto your shirt.
Probability of succeeding: ultimately low

And ya, that's what happened today 2minutes before the start of SAF day parade.
And guess who's the lucky/unlucky fella; ME!

*Clap clap clap*

And so the substitute was called upon (and the weird him was fucking happy. LOL)
and I get to go back for some rest.

--

Good luck, or bad?
I really don't know.
Some was jealous of me not having to do this ultra-long parade;
while others feel sad for me wasting all my previous efforts (including fainting once)

I really don't know,
but I know I'm glad it's over!!!

Happy SAF day!

Others get half-day, we work OT.

But at least my tan wasn't so bad today.

Hmmm... I wonder why.

--

Now it's one down, one more to go!
NDP!!!

Been home like I've not been home

I've came back home for the past few days,
but it doesn't even feels like it.
Now I'm home to sleep,
I have to leave early tomorrow.

And the best part,
I'm home alone!

--

I've got so many things to do,
but still...

Bored.