Peaceful New Year

Was looking back at my post last year this time and recollected the wildness we had. Every year's getting quieter, probably something to do with the age; but I'm glad it's this way...

Hopefully it'll be a peaceful 2013!

Love you too, blurblur ^^

As a man of few words (LOL!)... Happy new year! :)

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And of course, happy new year to everyone else!

You know you're growing sideways

when your eyes can't be seen in the photos... -.-

Anne didn't Hathaway

Still prefers the 25th anniversary's

Bridges

I saw this bridge under construction that's half-completed... And I suddenly started thinking whether it was a good decision to have dropped my double degree with civil engineering back then...

Sour cream

Sour indeed; a tat too bitter too. Did the onions made you tear?...

pnnttt

I literally LOL-ed when I saw it in the tag. Dafuq? HAHAHAHA

Yup you are

Different human

When someone tells you you're different, it's like saying you're being human. Yet, it's so nice to know that you are so unique and distinct from the others.

Let the wine of friendship never runs dry

The agony when you want so much to sit down and have a long talk with a friend you have long drifted away...

Meet ups

Finally, after hiding in my cave for so long, I'm gonna catch up with the dudes and babes all around as a last burst before school starts. But guess there just isn't gonna be enough time for all... Zzz

As a friend,

I'm being frank. Please try your best to take me seriously...

Not yet

Sem 2 is yet to start: bidding, IHG, Convening, mid-terms, finals etc etc. All these are waiting for me...

But unlike sem 1, I'm really looking forward to the end of the next semester. OCIP, dive trip, family trip, weekend escapades, camps, orientations, and even reservist; such excitement, what else is there to ask for?!

Since when a number became so important?

It's really the process that counts isn't it?

But there has to be a line drawn between idealistic and pragmatism...

Traces

Ya, you're bound to find some along the way. I'm trying to avoid them though.

Maybe I shouldn't even care

The seniors are chilling, why the worry then?

In between

Was mentally prepared for a range of 3.5-4.5 for my first result as an undergrad and wasn't surprised when the SMS came in this morning...

Gotta maintain next semester man

Not gonna happen to me

He went to her room, and found her with her ex. He came over and cried, collapsed, and got sent to the hospital...

It doesn't matter who's at fault anymore at this point. It's not healthy and have to end.

No present

But we all wish something good from NUS as a belated gift on Boxing Day don't we? I'm guessing I won't be able to sleep tomorrow this time...

No more steamboat...

Last year, it was much much more happening. But the peace has its charm...

Merry Christmas!

Someone posted this...

Sometimes, it's not about the feelings; it's about timing...

Dilemma

Some times you have so much to talk about something but you don't have that someone to talk to. And when you have that someone to talk to, you don't wanna risk worrying them.

It's really nothing significant anyway, just the stress that was donned upon so suddenly.

I tore my house down

raging over a lost key.

And it took someone else's loss to remind me that there are more important things that could have been lost but I'm still holding on to. There's rarely, or never, something that's really the most important when you consider everything you have.

Be grateful. Cherish those that are not lost.

Festive lesson

It's the season of giving,

but the season for this should really last 365 days every year

"What if the world really ended? What will be your regrets?"

Kangster asked and everyone just answered "no regrets"

Then it suddenly hits me that there's actually quite some things that I would have/have not done should time turns back. But no. Even if time goes ticking counter-clockwise, the same Jason will still do the same things. That I'm sure...

Then, there really is no point in regretting isn't it? Letting that girl go; having not spent enough time with parents; drifting with some friends; etc etc. I'm sure, they'll still turn out the same.

Paradox under the tree

You seek enlightenment your whole life when the true attainment only comes when you give up the pursuit, for the happy ones are only those that are happy even without all the material gains they have.

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What do you really pride yourself for? you can be so nonchalant about the whole world, but there must be something that keeps you as a whole and not crumble down with despair; some motivation to push you on. What if that something is taken away from you? Or for the matter: those somethings. It's really gonna destroy you and smack you right back to earth real hard.

But that's when we learn isn't it? That's when we know what our true selves are without the things that eludes the very pure nature of being.

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Most of the time, those that dare express their pride are in fact the most "real" people we'll ever meet; those that hide their deepest esteem, fears succumbing to failure and never dares fight or take a risk...

That's a burden off your shoulder with a lesson well learnt

Nothing beats that, so you're definitely a gainer in this whole shit. Awesome! Let's move on and see if help is needed when you're 30. ;)

Jockey! A jockey got me!

That jockey is called l4d2 and it's steering me towards addiction. But nah. This side of Jason is really rare. Any case, other than self-confidence I reckon self-discipline is something I'm rather proud of too. So try as you might, your fate is sealed and destined to end up in the recycle bin in a matter of weeks. Anyway, like what Mr. President says, the marginal utility is getting low...

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On the same note, have been smoke-free for more than a week. Let's hope this goes on well (but I have no good explanation how it started anyway)

Competence

Some people are good at this, others better at that. Some just not so. But it doesn't matter and there's bound to be something valuable to be offered.

I stand firm on my belief of life being fair..

Paradox of esteem

I realize self-confidence is never originated from self. You only gain it when you know you have qualities that are socially superior to others. But there really isn't such a term as social confidence, yes?

What will you do, knowing tomorrow's the last day for the world?

Meh. What kind of retarded question is this? Live like every other day? Cos if you haven't been living your life, the last day ain't gonna make a difference.

Jay Chou and Lisbeth Salander

Lesson learnt: academic results and social stigmatization never prove anything

I don't even know what to feel

For one moment, suddenly I was supposed to be the vice-capt; then at the next, something else came my way. I don't even know how to react. I realize I haven't really experienced the responsibility to carry a team before, not on such level at least...

Everybody's out in the world

And I'm just here striving for academic excellence we all deemed the sole stepping stone to a rainbow of future. Either my definition of rainbow or stone is different then.

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Lund University; Sweden

That's where I'm aiming to do my SEP, probably 2 years later. Meanwhile, I just have to be mainstream and score for my papers to earn that spot. Good luck to me!

Ya, why not?

If pubs and nightclubs can refuse entry to the drunk, McDonald's should be able to refuse entry of the obese!

Trying too hard

Family and friend's support to reduce the spread of HIV? That's really kinda far fetched isn't it? But then again, we all ought to be thankful we're not the ones contracted with the disease and it doesn't even matter what kind of sexual life you lead. Being supportive isn't about the prevention but rather, the process of accepting the unfortunates who are nothing but fellow mankind.

Stop

This is not healthy. I mean the kind of communication we're having. You were the one that chose to let go, now learn to move on. I wasn't destroyed, but I fell hard enough to learn another lesson. Now it's your turn. It's my fault to linger. And now, indeed, it's better for you to want nothing. Someday you'll find that someone new. For now, let's try being friends again... We've been friends since forever, it shouldn't be that tough anyway.

Troubled kid

Sometimes when I feel like I needa talk to someone about something that troubles me I'd go, "nah, let's not be an attention whore"

Then I come here ranting on

Now tell me the colour of his eyes

Some times, things aren't the way we want it; but the minimal we can do is to look at them positively and stay happy.

Maybe it's not that he doesn't wanna care but he just doesn't have the time and energy, or even moral courage to do just that.

Meanwhile, stay awesome.

Ya, sometimes I try to keep everyone happy too

But I don't even know what you're talking about! Just babbling nonsense. Lol. But I guess there isn't much stuff out there that can make you so confused... Must be something you don't have much experience I suppose ;)

Tell me!

What then, do you want?

Not exactly

But yup, almost truth.
To be honest, I've long known the power of a year.

Superhero kids

We have a world to save!

I can't believe it's happening

My best of friend is actually married!!!

14 years ago, we met. A few years after that, we were all sure you're definitely not gonna be the first to fall into the tomb of love. Seems like you've proven us wrong once again...

On this special day, you're officially married. Truth is, I don't even know what to feel. I'm happy, sad and excited altogether. No matter what, wishing you all the best and eternal love...

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Just for today, you're the handsomest amongst us all!

Congrats bro

Hit the books, bar, mahjong table and gym!

It's once again the start of a long-awaited term break from school! Technically, the first one in 3 years. Time for some reading and meeting up with the dudes (don't say bojio, all jio together!), for a drink or two for some, and to settle old scores over the six-kinsmen-no-recognize "war-zone" for others.

Gyms? Meh. Just kidding.

Lemonade

Today I learnt that it actually cools someone down, literally. But still, not to my liking. Hahah

Slave of technology

Either my iPhone or Facebook has some problem that caused the photos to fail to upload. One of it is then pissing me off! Zzz

Long gone were the army daze

Went into a frenzy after failing to find my army uniform which got thrown deep into the store by my mum. Hidden deep in a box at a dark corner of the room, it's the same as where it belongs in my Mind. Got it in the end after ransacking the whole store; couldn't imagine how frantic a scene it'll be if tomorrow is reporting day. Truth is, there's still 7 more months before that day.

No matter. The stale smell of the clothes stings my nose and the dusts covering my boots are literally half a centimeters thick. Time really flies... Long gone were the army daze!

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Anyway, found some cool gems in the sacks... 10 years worth of difference:

End of sem

Last year this time, I won't have thought the day will come where I'd be reading books instead of clubbing when the whole world is there

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And yup, everyone came back drunk

Numbed

In the end, it does matter.

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After writing 19 pages worth of essay in 4 hours today, my thumb doesn't feel like it retained any sense of touch anymore..

After several grueling hours of studying and examinations, I've recalibrate my grades expectation, mainly in view of the easier nature of the finals

Yup, awkward indeed

Every time I browse my fb homepage I feel like people around me are judging me for looking at women clothing which are actually just photos shared by Kellie that floods the whole page. It's like I'm forced to be homo.

And I don't like to be forced

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Sent a message to the wrong person with same name

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Saw my uni student tutee with her boyfriend...

Exams are over

Last two essay papers conquered today. Fingers are still numbed. Roommate's still mugging hard. Torn my schedule for the exams. Kept all the textbooks away. Bringing all my notes home. Packed my table. Ready to head home.

Suddenly, it seems like there's nothing to do with life. But there's still quite some stuff to settle. I've anticipated this to happen. Not my first major exam anyway.

No matter, lets just return home and see my parents before the world goes on without me. Then continue to pray for a pleasant surprise 23 days later...