Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Post-exchange syndrome

It came late. And came at the worst of time...

So I went out for food and retail therapy in the middle of my most relaxed finals ever. And these Black Truffle "little dragon buns" are almost as good a little dragon buns as you can get! 

And Paradize Dynasty's ramen are quite legit as well! 

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And issit very loser if I feel A LITTLE BIT like crying when I look at my Europe photos?... 

I'm missing everyone and the time there. And also the first month with Ms Blur exploring the world without much worries except whether we'll take the wrong train to our next adventure. This sucks. 

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2 more papers and I have 6 days before my term starts again...

Sunday, April 26, 2015

Pretty hapz I must say

Some post-exchange syndrome; some pre-graduation syndrome; some no-finals syndrome; some just filled with delusion. 

Avengers 2 on the Sunday wee morning; and now I'm waking up for my Monday afternoon paper. I must say I'm getting pretty daring. Or prepared. Or just have lousy friends. 

Another four not featured but hey look! It's a LV wallet on the floor! I finally found what everyone's lookin at in their ootd photos! 

Friday, April 24, 2015

人死。

我们往往为人生中的种种苦恼叹息;“人生如此痛苦、如此艰难”、“人生如此这般,如此那样”…

我们被现在式的短暂无知蒙蔽了一个未来式永世的无情:人生、人,生;那人死呢?

人“生”在世短短数十年,但人“死”后却能永世长存;那为何不为死后的自己做打算,而却日日夜夜为那寥寥数十岁月拼搏?

人“生”之际,哭声不止,呼“诞辰”,庆之;人“死”之时,哭声不止,呼“丧礼”,奠之。 试问此别何在,此理何为?死亡,有那么可怕吗?还是社会潜意识的刻印让人对此课题退避三分,避而远之? 

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舅公躺在病床上,可能熬不过这漫长的夜晚。口中咽着很可能是自己最后的一口气,和自己的病魔抗战,挣扎地等待着小儿子的出现。表哥告诉我们说他很勇敢,乐观地面对无法避免的命运。考试期间,我无法抽空去见舅公的最后一面,但我也有些懊恼…

即使我去了,在那病床前,我要说些什么?…

“恭喜你!希望孩子健康成长、快高长大!”

“生日快乐!愿你岁岁有今日、年年有今朝!”

“祝你早生贵子,新婚美满!”

“愿你早日康复,长命百岁!”

然后呢?…

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“生活”中的应付自如,一见“死亡”就慌了…




Reading Weak

And before. 

Mr Guang's birthday dinner with the remnants of A5 batchies two weeks ago 
At the Union where the ramen is super large and tasty surprisingly (or maybe I was hungry)

Feeling rich so headed to Swenson's for post-submission dinner with Ms Blur! 

Super nice food but the highlight is... 

This Banana Crumble that we somehow managed to finish despite the sugary and richness

And highlight of the past week:

Before the (hopefully not) Worst! 
Also, nice sunset with my handsome face and her got-food-in-my-mouth face LOL

Also,

The on-time gang that reached at 6.33pm while the rest were one minute late at 6.34pm; and off we go for OC dinner (again)! 

And exam period also mean welfare pack period (plus a postcard which, sadly, comes from a place I miss a lot)... Still, so much love! Haha 

As the year goes by, welfare packs also upsized...

And finally, 

Back to what we're supposed to do during reading week: (nope, not to read but...) go crazy

Monday, April 20, 2015

Meritocracy, fair or equal?

I may have discussed this topic few years back but reading about it online made me ponder on this issue again, albeit amidst my revision for finals so it's gonna be a short note for my own future reference. 

Reference:
http://poskod.sg/Posts/2014/4/4/Meritocracy-as-Myth

"This is why I cringe when anyone says that the poor cannot make excuses because anyone can be successful if they worked hard enough. The fact is that not everyone had an equal starting point and not everyone was equally equipped for the same battles. Some had higher hurdles to cross. Both externally and, more significantly, within themselves."

Meritocracy wasn't meant to be equal. One of the commenter mentioned that meritocracy is less about you but more about the system as a whole, where the most suitable are selected to be employed. It's never about letting you succeed as an individual, it's about making the system a sustainable success. 

That said, meritocracy isn't equal but it's fair. Unfairness arise if you judge a fish by how fast it climbs a tree; meritocracy judges ones intellectual and technical capability for intellectual and technical roles, how else do you suggest we sieve out the best engineers and best doctors for their job if not by how well they do in engineering and medical school? Granted not all who excel in school are bound to excel in the workplace (I don't even believe results and intelligence are exclusively causal in the first place), but there's no way we can determine how someone is gonna survive better at work than to look at how he/she's coping with the technical workload and dealing with the stress in school that can be paralleled to what he/she is going to face in the future. At least those that emerged victorious showed their potential right? 

So it's fair; but equality? Never. No one said anything about going into battles being equally equipped. There's two things you need in a battle: your skills (analogous to your capabilities relevant to work), and your weapon (opportunities). In a random world, some people are extremely skillful but are granted with wooden swords; some are not so good but have the chance to wield swords of Valyrian Steel; others are both unskillful and unlucky; while the rest are just born on easy mode. 

Meritocracy is about ceasing such chaos and instilling fairness; unearth those extremely skillful ones, give them the Valyrian steel (because, well, they make better use of it, more than the less skillful ones at least) and make them the general. If you fear you'll die in a battle with a wooden stick, hone your skills to earn that Valyrian steel. If you want equality, the battle will be led by mediocre soldiers with Valyrian steel sword and master swordsman with wooden sticks: nothing productive will come of it (to say the very least). 

Are the skillful ones hogging the Valyrian steel? That's the question (and my answer is that I doubt it - look at all the SAF and MOE scholarships waiting for you to grab them! And may I add, they are more lucrative than more competitive scholarships elsewhere). But in a state with ever-increasing above-average swordsman, there may just be insufficient Valyrian steel to go around. How, then, can we mutate meritocracy to incorporate more equality (which, as you may have guessed, will compromise fairness)? 

Reaction says a lot about you than what you're reacting on

Many are commenting about how this lad was let off too easily, and he lacked proper upbringing, and he deserves harsher punishment; some even drew parallel to the much "harsher" punishment Amos Yee had for something verbal/virtual versus this physically aggressive dude:

But come on, haven't you been young before? Haven't you been rebellious? Or granted you're really obedient since young, haven't you had your fair share of mistakes? Give people a chance man, you'll think differently if you imagine this young man to be your brother. 

Friday, April 17, 2015

Last day again

Every semester we face a "last day;" today was it for my Year 3 Sem 2 (not exactly if you consider exams). But I've been through worse when I bade my "last day" in Stockholm goodbye three months ago...

I wanted so much to post this #throwback last night marking my three months back in Singapore and reuniting with Ms Blur, but...

Just like many phase in life, there's always a "last day", and we've been coping pretty well, moving on with life when one chapter closed, haven't we? What's passed is nice to reminisce but we probably don't have to harp over how exciting it is because, well, we wanna know what happen next right? Two more semesters, and I'll be closing yet another chapter. Reading Samuel's blog made me think about many things, particularly about how the past four years have changed me as a person and as a conscious being. But yea, I shall leave that to next time. One year from now perhaps. Doesn't matter. 

Looking at the bigger picture, these four years are but a small part of our lives isn't it? Why I'm saying this? 

When someone you grew up with moved on with life BIG TIME. Like, not the next chapter. The next SECTION. It hasn't hit me till now. This is not gonna be a four-year thingy. It's like a forty-year or eighty-year thing. This is a chapter that's not gonna close till the end of the book...

So much that we've experienced the past 20 odd years are but the "introduction" chapters really. It's the most interesting to keep you flipping the pages; but it's probably not gonna amount to much when the climax comes... So yep, let's just flip the next page slowly, patiently, and with a smile. 

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

It's been three months since

I'm missing the snow~

THOC in THDND

From here: 9-2am everyday for four days

And here we are, legit af

Still pissed that we didn't win but with the memories conjured and experience of working with these people once again, it's still a win. 

Also, food this year looks quite legit
Looks only, not that fantastic when we eat it. Or maybe just too sour from not winning HAHAH

Monday, April 13, 2015

It's not even my problem

But if knowing the truth burdens me, reading her blog breaks me. 

So many times I've wanted to pick up my phone and text her, to tell her it wasn't her fault, that everything happened not because he was vexed over your future, that he is, unfortunately, really happier than you would think he is. It pains me (for inexplicable reasons) that she's blaming herself for something she's not guilty of, and I really wanna tell her to stop being so sad because he's not worth it. He's not worth your tears, your words, your time, or even your memories... Just let him go. 

Thursday, April 9, 2015

d'Good day

Monday was bad, Tuesday was d'Good day
With d'Good oyster cream pasta
d'Good ham 'n cheese ('n blueberry) 
d'Good matcha lava (the "highlight")
d'Good salted caramel cheese cake (that was super jerlat) 
"Follow the white rabbit"

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Saturday, April 4, 2015

Gunung Stong, Kelantan, 2/4/15-5/4/15

Hike hike!

Trip started off on a pretty good note cos we entered and Malaysia in less than 2 hours! Partly cos we used the Second Link, partly cos we took the bus lane, but I would like that think mainly because we left at 6 instead of the original 630 (cos the only-can-end-work-at-630 Thursten pulled out). We even had time for KFC at Larkin Terminal before we took the big bus for the next part of the 13-hour journey. Reached Kota Bahru ahead of schedule and transfer to two smaller cars, where Gao Yun and I boarded a Proton Saya that's driven like a Ferrari, as is usually the case in Malaysia, except this one ended up with an overheated engine and we stopped over for breakfast while they fix the issue. But we 20min we drove, and then we stopped. The car was declared overworked. But fret not, the bike gang comes to rescue!! 

These bike gangs come from every part of Malaysia and Singapore and they all ride powerful bikes! 

Caught this nice cover photo material 

Had lunch and headed off to our camp site from the trailhead and it took a good 2.5 hours with all our heavy packs. Gaoyun also decided to not join us for the summit so the four of us went. After a long 5 hours climb, we reached the summit just around the sunset. And all I can say is that it was really underwhelming. Tree cover obstructed most of the views and all we could see was three distinct summit over at the other side of the river. Even the clouds covered the sunset and there wasn't much of a view. Coming down was even more arduous and it took us a good 7 hours. Sun sets at 7.30 so this meant we reached back our base camp at 2:30 in the morning! It was a simple 2-hour hike down but Shiao Yi was too scared of the steep downwards decline, coupled with her night blindness, it resulted in a couple of interesting events such as the guide having to bring out his Parang and the other parties at the base camp having to walk out to find us cos the tigers begin roaming just after midnight. Also, I twisted both my ankles once each, plus some damage to the knees. But all's well and good and we eventually had our dinner at 3am. 

强颜欢笑 and I look damn surprised lol. Shiao Yi also look abit like Joanne Peh in this photo! 

Highlight of the trip, however, has just began. The three of us (less Lan) decided to head down to the "shower" to take a bath. It's actually just a pool of spring water from the waterfall! So at 4am in the morning on a full moon night, 3 of us went into the icy cold water for our "baths" while Gaoyun stood there and 打灯. I believe this is truly a super unique experience that I'll say is probably once-in-a-lifetime. 

To prove that there's still light when we reach the peak

Also, check out our tent! 

3-room "Bungalow" 

Didn't make it for the sunrise (duh!) and we also forsake our waterfall hike the next day cos everyone was just too tired. But we still manage to get a pretty nice view from the edge of the waterfall which is a 1min walk from our base camp (and thus I have no idea why there's a need for another 3 hours waterfall hike. 

Slightly further downstream (about 5m) from where we bathed last night, and yes, we're brushing teeth , with the source from where we peed and bathed. Lol

Breakfast was good but the Maggie we cooked after that was "luxurious" even on half-filled stomachs. 

Maggie mee party!

Master chef Gaoyun 

Took another short bath by the river, packed up, and off we go down the mid mountain! 

Our guide, Bob, on the bridge on our way down! 

Some minor drama on our way down followed by a 2 hour car transfer and we just nice reached Kota Bahru Bus Terminal with enough time to packet some (really nice) Nasi Lemak before our long distance bus ride again. 

Our bus also landed up at some ulu place of Singapore (The Plaza) and we had to (hide our passport!) follow the angmohs who walked so confidently out of the area. Eventually ended up in Beach Road for some prawn mee, ah, the real comfort food from home. 

"When you face mental stress everyday, it's good to feel some physical stress once in a while to remind you that you're still human" 

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Air flown from Europe!

Dankjewel! (I Googled) 

Really miss one of my favourite food from Europe~