Cheer up

I'll try, I just need you to be here soon! :) 

Plan

Sometimes, things just don't go your way...

Heaven now

Two more days to the end of this cycle; but end of today's mission marks the closing of the high key events this ICT. Till the next one then! 

Just yesterday

Sitting in the jungle staring at the night sky, this view is so nostalgic. In fact, I seem to have last seen it just awhile ago... 2 years have gone by too fast. 

Civilian life

Missing out on THOC, Arts O'week, and trials for Arts team when I'm the captain. The opportunity cost suddenly seems steep, especially when all the group chats are so active and here I am, packing to go outfield. Everyone's just shag and sian max! 

But then again, we'll pull it through!!! (Shouldn't complain much since I'm the enemy)

I wanna burn calories!

Hahah just kidding...

But who the hell have sex for only 30 seconds? That is one weak male you have there! 

Time travel

I'm in the present living a life of the past stuck with National Service liabilities, reminiscing hall life of the future. Legit. 

Hall life

Saw the video and it really racked up so much memories for the past one year... 

Hall life is really something I have and will never regret having; 3 more years, let's go! 

2359

It's been long since I have a Sunday night book in. I feel the agony I once felt; and yet this is kinda different this time round...

Sensitive

You're not being immature! You're just being you! And you're just becoming a more sensitive you. 

Regardless, you are still the you that I like and love... 

And they didn't even acknowledge my well wishing

I feel so... Dispensable.

Exercise All Out

I don't know how I manage to complete it in the past; nor the BMT; nor the airborne course; nor the ATEC trainings; not the Brunei trip; nor the many many more trainings; nor the turnouts; the confinements; the stay-ins; the regimentation. 

Mentality, like fitness, must be trained. And it's really all about getting-use-to, I guess. After today's exercise, we all realized, we really aren't that upz anymore. Time have taken over many of us, and looking back, ask us to do all that we've done again, we probably won't be able to...

Then again, there's so much more that I can't let go now!...

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Oh, and I can't imagine how I've managed to survive the constant attack of all these blood-sucking mosquitoes as well -.-

Guess who's back

And I did it again. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a mummy's boy; or rather, a homie boy...

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Suddenly have the respect for those that passed out as a ranger when I was looking at them train; how the hell can someone not go home for 2 months... 

But then I thought again, will I survive exchange?...

Dream, is a wish your heart makes

And it's our reality. Hopefully! 

Glad you're doing it now, and maybe someday we'll evolve together! 

Aaaaaaand, we are not one of them :(

But soon, we'll be part of the 25K and 50k strength 

Country or the state

Legit, and I do think the current one deserves it, while many would definitely disagree. Deserving or not is so subjective, but perhaps his point here is to love your COUNTRY no matter what, and choose the GOVERNMENT that does good to the country. Touché. But then again, vague. 

We are all ugly

To my superficial bros:

I love to exercise too!

Maybe someday we'll be able to do this. Hahah

3 more days to book out

And 9 more days to the end of this!

5 more cycles before all these will end altogether. 

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Cos this is what we always do: countdown. Coming back to army really brought back so much memories; good ones that I wish I could turn back time to live it, and bad ones I wish never happened. Some things have changed for the better, others for the worse (not too much though); and the rest, just stays the same. 

Duh, Jason! Stop stating the obvious! 

But no, life has been so different, before; during; and after NS. So many things that we've learnt, we've forgotten; these are the technical portion. But even more that we've lived through, we retain. Friendships, mentality, stress coping, way of life, etc etc. 

I want the book out so badly; but I wish the 5 cycles won't end. Maybe in between we'll struggle, but the end is always desired, yet dread. I always hate to leave a place I've been attached to, but the feeling has never been as mixed as when I ORD-ed. WO Edwin's post today on Panther's chat about feeling glad to see some of us back hits right straight to the point. Pardon if I sound gay, but I really do miss him, and the time all of us had... 

Maybe we'll catch up someday. Till then...

Spam

Even before my official appointment, my Hotmail has been spammed with emails from hall office and the 25th; I foresee a busy work year ahead

After all these years

Home is still where I belong. Even with the shortest nights out, home is where I rush back to... And it is really in times like these that I feel really fortunate to have a home to return to, and parents to care for... 

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I have this sudden realization of how good it was to not have a relationship while I was serving my NS, after I have these panic attacks of missing you while I was in camp. 

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And yes, I'm glad I made that trip back home. 

Awesome SAF

Best thing to happen: camera phone (meaning my iPhone) can be used in Pasir Ris camp. Whatsapp, people; woohoo! Beat that! Hahah

Who?

Who don't crave for brands;

Who can cook;

Who don't keep complaining;

Who gives freedom;

Who is independent;

Who doesn't get angry easily;

Who is satisfied with hawker food;

Who isn't materialistic;

Etc etc

Listening to my bunk mates complaining about Singapore girls and saying nice girlfriends are hard to find, I feel so much like shouting at them, "MY GIRLFRIEND!"

Christin Milioti

I have finally caught the last episode of HIMYM Season 8, and am really impressed by the production crew's casting ability, to find someone so stunning yet having a girl-next-door look that's easily accepted. Excited, and totally mesmerized.

7

This looks so perfect, it's tempting me... 

Till the night falls out

I hate being sidelined; I hate being insignificant.
But there is really nothing I can do.
No responsibility is given to me cos of my absence;
and no commitment was required.

There's so many things I dislike about the team;
how my group of good friends work as a team without me;
how the girls are taking over control from the head via a coup I strongly disagreed;
how the seniors are pressuring us;
and how stressed up many of them are.
And I'm just here, watching everything as if a bystander, when I am, in fact, part of it all.
Or am I?

For the past years, all that are in this sub-comm eventually have nothing to show;
no colourful portfolio, nor exciting charges.
This year, my fellow mates turned away and committed themselves with something more interesting;
and I am just here, watching everything as if a bystander, when I am, in fact, part of it all.
Or am I?

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I wanna be part of it all; but perhaps I'm not.
No one from the whole team will know about this post;
but I hesitated just now when I last walked out of the seminar room:
should I say my last goodbye after leaving them in the lurch,
or should I leave silently, fulfilling my insignificant part.

Of course, I chose the latter.

Till then, people.

Ceremonious

Last time I remember having a MND EDGE Scholarship ceremony, you were asked to join pageant the night before; you asked if you should, and I said it's not bad an experience!

You didn't reply me the whole night till the next day before the ceremony, and that was the first time you got me so worried.
Little would we expect so many more time to come...

Who you really are

Two years ago, your tumblr consisted of mainly girls with back views or with hair covering face. Mysterious, reserved and lack of confidence. 

One year ago, before you met me, most of the posts were emotional, self-reflecting and even explicitly expressing your confusion in your relationship. Lost, and hurt. 

Now, you're found. But there's this element of stress in you... Don't be! Just stay close, don't go; and enjoy this unexpected love we've found ;) 

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Waiting for you to be back makes me realize I really love you a lot too. This whole Prague episode is a real test, and missing you now may not be a bad thing! Stay safe, babe!  

500m laps

And thanks to this suggestive and weird banana-shaped route, I salvaged a much-desired silverware. I have 8 months to work on 14kg, 1min 30seconds, and the mark of champions...

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On a side note, beastly Zongrui does a 1:30 laps for 6 rounds round this shit. He used to be sick, now he's a monster... 

This really got quite irritating after awhile

But still, epic! 

We are none the same

Boss returns

On a nice weather that's rare and shocking

Training to be soldier, again

Alas, silver

Not a good day to take it but still managed to struggle it through. 

Didn't feel the desire to get it until I have gotten it now; not bad... Early book out lo! 

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On a side note, now I'm even more determined to shed the weight I've gained! 

Bee-do~ Bee-do~ Bee-do~ Bee-do~

Don't ask me to find the other 4 ah! 

Fester and the moon

Normal is an illusion 

Crazy is underrated 

Everyone has their own problem

Move on with your own life... And live like you're dying! 

Scapegoat

I wasn't even there. But I have to save the team;
Even at the cost of my future dealings with the support staff? Yes, apparently.

Sometimes we make irrational choices; but most of these times, we made them because there is something we believe we should hold on to.

Silver

Much alluded. I should have made the decision to take it with them; or maybe, this is the right choice. No matter, I'll get mine soon... I just wanna get this burden off my shoulder!

Zorro

After one year, I'm still glad I didn't head down for bash last year... 

Confession time: 

Listening to Gladys talk about bash last year makes me realize I really hated the idea of you on-stage not being mine. Possessive as it may be, yup, I hated it.

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And I'm still trying hard to reject my part in this year's  

Tough egg

Went to your blog and I suddenly had this phrase coming to me:

"Tough times don't last, tough eggs do!" 

Hahah. Strive on! After so many catapults and you're still alive in one piece; I'm pretty sure you will survive the crisis this time round ;) 

I'll pick you up when you get down

And out of all these things I've done, I think I love you better now...

Book in lo!

I was really kinda looking forward to it... Meeting old friends, worry-free and healthy lifestyle, and even the outfield experience. Until today's refresher course, made me realize how much time is really wasted in-camp! Probably a large part is due to you being so far away as well; now I'm like a NSF waiting for book-outs to meet my girlfriend, except I just need a text from you. Take care, and by the time I'm done with this cycle of in-camp training, you'll be back! 

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On a side note, everyone's saying I look young after cutting my hair... Welcome back, short hair. ;) 

All you do is cry

Suddenly, I see a live feed of yours.
I realize we have long been history, but you walked in at a time my life is full of excitement and risky adventures.

I must admit, you are one of the stronger girls I've seen. Stay awesome, girl.

Passion

Some people fight so hard for what they believe in, they ignore the macro views of others. Then what? 

Taken

Now it's time to give

In life, we sacrifice. Opportunity cost as they call it. So don't regret your choice, cos at one point of time, this was the best choice. And at this point in time, this is the only choice. When you look back in future, there will be no other path that leads to where you are. 

Smile, and move on

Yup, I wish you so.

We were once each other's BFF, and this won't change! 

My lungs are weak, but my mind is strong

If I can't finish 12 laps at one go, I run 6 laps twice. And I finish off what I have to do. 

With a perfect plan, we can leave this place

This song brings back too much memories. Who I've met, what I've done and how I've done it all... First year of university officially ended quite a while ago but listening to this song once again brings time back to a time when I was both lost, and found.

Season of break-ups

Nic and Fay blew off after so many years. They've always been an item since the day I met him. Time and commitment were the factors. Rocky road along the way, the hurdle that trips them turns out to be something they've overcame in the most critical period when Nic was in army. Some things just aren't predictable. And practice don't always make perfect. 

Mac and Monica also decided to part over small issues. But truth is, we all know she is a temporary measure. When you try so hard but you don't succeed; you look for substitute, one that lessens the pain. And now the root problem is back, it is time you face it and walk away once and for all bro. Deep down, you should know she ain't the Jeanette we all once known. 

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The hard truth about having many ex-girlfriends is that I have been through many break-ups as well. I've walked through them all; some took a long time, others easier... Everyone has a different reason, and every one has a different remedy. 

Do I miss you?

Fel posted this trick question on me. I asked if she would believe if I said No. 

Then I told her "actually, I really don't"

True and false. I'm enjoying my freedom while knowing you're having fun; why let this temporary pain destroy a good summer?! 

But I really misses you... :(

I have many love stories

Some ended well, some ended with much tears;

Some had dramatic endings, some were peaceful;

Some were clear-cut, others left traces dangling...

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Ours, is different; we don't end. 

I miss you too, babe! :')