I hate being sidelined; I hate being insignificant.
But there is really nothing I can do.
No responsibility is given to me cos of my absence;
and no commitment was required.
There's so many things I dislike about the team;
how my group of good friends work as a team without me;
how the girls are taking over control from the head via a coup I strongly disagreed;
how the seniors are pressuring us;
and how stressed up many of them are.
And I'm just here, watching everything as if a bystander, when I am, in fact, part of it all.
Or am I?
For the past years, all that are in this sub-comm eventually have nothing to show;
no colourful portfolio, nor exciting charges.
This year, my fellow mates turned away and committed themselves with something more interesting;
and I am just here, watching everything as if a bystander, when I am, in fact, part of it all.
Or am I?
--
I wanna be part of it all; but perhaps I'm not.
No one from the whole team will know about this post;
but I hesitated just now when I last walked out of the seminar room:
should I say my last goodbye after leaving them in the lurch,
or should I leave silently, fulfilling my insignificant part.
Of course, I chose the latter.
Till then, people.
