Fortunate me

Honoured.
"Good with girls"? Nah, I'm just better with people in general than introverts. But serious considerations have been made to fix my traffic light and turn it red. We shall see folks.

And suddenly I'm talking to another girl about whether you can choose who to love

I stand firm that you can't choose who you love but you can choose how you deal with it and what you do with it.

Student again

Need some time to adjust to this fact

I don't wanna lose anyone anymore

And I regretted missing parties of my old friends for the new friends I've made. In human, new things are always more intriguing; but in life, old ties are the ones more worthy to keep. I'm really starting to feel the pressure coming in from all directions and coping with them really requires some skills and self-discipline; and all of these takes time. I'm just hoping I'll survive and not crash...

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The title is pretty apt for another context.

What if someday you fall in love with a girl you cannot love?

It's a crush

Chaotah Bear and Blur China Nun.
Is the relationship so weird that people are commenting on us?
Then maybe it's time to take a step back.
Because it's gonna be a wrong move to do otherwise.

Rethink the situation

Wait a minute. Is this falling in love? Maybe it is; maybe not. But no matter what, it's gonna be stupid to make a mistake now. Even if it really is love, circumstance doesn't allow further progression. It's gonna be a tough battle to regain my rational self, but it's definitely a crucial one. Too much is at stake to take the risk.

And I can only blame it on no one.

I don't get it

So you getting drunk is more important than me working. I'll skip work then

One more fucking love song I'll be sick

If happy ever after did exist
I will still be holding you like this

And suddenly the emo songs started playing

Nah. This feeling doesn't feel good at all. I've been trapped in this place far too long to be normal. I'll find my escapade someday; soon.

Abnormal

I hate it when Jason stops being the normal Jason that's nothing but awesome. Heart defecting from the brain and it hurts kinda bad.

Repairing the traffic light

Jason is not being himself.

Reserved seatings

Maybe someday I'll come out with a project to paste the blue arrow above every seats to mock the backwardness of our country in being courteous. I have to admit I myself am guilty as charged; but every single seat, irregardless of whether or not they are reserved, really should be given up to whomever needs it more. So why the need to mark out a "reserved" seat to remind our "educated" population?! Effective as it seems, it backfired. Excuse has just been given to hog the "non-reserved" seats because well, they're not reserved!

I'm sure someday a fine will be slapped on misusers and trust me, it'll only highlight the weakness of our authoritarian governance instead of solving the problem. Education, I'd say, is the key.

Life's humour

The ones that appear happiest usually have the saddest heart.
The ones that seem really confident often are the easiest to crash

Played

I hate it that you become the scumbag you are now, bro. If there is one thing you shouldn't play with, it's feelings.

Fought

I teared not because of the future I'm promised but of the past I've journeyed.

I earned this.
The scholarship doesn't matter, the fight does.

Bitxh please

I don't wanna care about all your internal conflicts and unhappiness, but as the head of this group now I just hope we can talk things out and stay as a family. Stop being petty and play childish games, girls.

We are one.

You don't scare me leh

How awesome to have friends that are like-minded;
what are the chances.

Life's great when you have lots of such chances.

Loaded does not equate to being rich

I have been trying to drive this point across:

I'm rich with no money

Batman: spoiler

When the bunch of bats comes out and he rediscover his fear of them and his reason for choosing his fear as his symbol before he takes that leap of faith, the dark knight rises again.

Tight

Missed Golem supper outing; missed Matthew's 21st; missed windsurfing session. Schedule's like a school of sardines.

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Longest ride; soundest sleep!

14:48-17:04

Never gonna do it again. Lol

Wild ones

Looking back on my crazy youth during army daze, life's really moved off pretty fast. But I've never regretted one bit on spending those days that way.

Flashbacks have been so frequent I'm beginning to worry about my own ending.

Do you remember?

I still do.
How we first met at Amk mrt station then called each other silly names; how we went "steady" in sec 1 and how I've always waited for her badminton training to end at Hougang stadium. How devastated I was when we broke up after 19 days and subsequently for the next few years how I'd deliberately sit on the right-side upper-deck of 88 to look into her house every morning while on my way to school. How I'd once in a blue moon pluck out some courage to ask her out for a concert or movie. How we got close once again after a one year or so break. How we studied for O'levels together at J8; how we coincidentally met each other at the bus stop under my house on O'levels results collection day. How excited we were about going to JC and how firm we were on not going to the same school. How I first went to her house to meet the parent and how we eventually got close. How we celebrated each other's birthday with her baking a cheese cake for mine and me learning "Happy Birthday" on violin for hers. How we studied for A'levels together at SSC and Amk library. And how we eventually broke up and moved on to our own individual life.

I still do remember a lot of things. I'll really consider it my first love and first loves are never easy to forget.

But all these memories no longer feel like just yesterday. I've grown, and the fading of these memories are good testimonies.

What am I supposed to do?

I'm slowly losing old friends that were once so close. I've lost some and I don't wanna lose any more.

Commitment is such a bitch.

Palm reading

Yunfeng says I don't have much responsibilities. Probably started off with myself hating them.

The heavy loads of commitments are making this disgust deeper. Time to let some go I'd say.

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But never trust what those lines on you palms are telling you; you make your own fate, definitely.

Nothing's for certain, except that my traffic light's gonna blink amber for quite some time before it becomes fixed. Awesome singlehood!

Spoiled plan

Because plans are meant to be screwed

Slowing down

After a hectic week, things are finally slowing down (because I choose to pon them) in preparation for another energy-drainer whole of next week starting this thurs.

Y U NO NEW POST?!!

Awesomes of me; you 3 weeks no new post already! Life's getting kinda boring on your virtual side!

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I DON'T WANNA MISS IT!
(Then my finisher tee will be outdated...)
But I have a paper on the next day after the race. How?

Wounded with joy

Shoulder injured, multiple cuts on fingers by barnacles, torn skin, muscles ache, heavy eye bags.

Windsurf, rock climb and night cycling consecutively is kinda overloading but definitely worth it.

For now, sleep is more important than anything else.

Best OG

Even if we didn't win it, we've been through it.
It's not any single camp that changed me;
I guess they all adds up to make a whole big picture clear enough for me to understand myself so much better.
No, this is not some self motivating thrash talk or a master plan to life;
it's really just a self reflection and revelation of what I really want in the near future.
Or at least, in the prime of my youth.

Just live like you're dying;
just do anything you want.

Because you only live once.

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Some day we'll all be gone.
Some day we'll look back and there's definitely gonna be regrets.
You don't measure life with what you've missed out,
you do it with what you've taken up.

Life's short

Your youth is shorter;
your prime is even more so.

If there's a time for you to give all out and live your life to the fullest, now is the time.
I'm gonna live my next 4 years as though it's the last 4 of my life.
Life's short; stop wasting it

One year...

We're supposed to be celebrating our one year anniversary soon but things didn't turn out as we've expected. But anyway, happy one year worth of friendship! And many more to come...

Thanks for the memories, babe.

Tweet tweet!

Dink says this place is like a private twitter. Seriously? It's way cooler! Lol

It's mid-July?!!!

Time is really moving too damn fast! In a month's time I'll be attending lectures! Something I once thought too far while in army, and now it's freaking just a month away...

I started working at Akzo Nobel half a year ago! And it felt just a minute away. And hasn't army just started yesterday and vj life the day before?! Just got mindfucked by the calendar. Can't it just CTFO?!

Youth is really running away. There's too many things to be done and I'm left with 9 years before the big 30 approaches. Hold on tight, game on!

This is the orientation camp state

Some day, that other side of me will be back. Just don't be stunned when you see him.

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I actually don't mind him hibernating forever.

Prioritize

That's something I realize I am bad in but really need to master it fast, especially now that I have so much commitments at hand.

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Paper at 5 later with 100plus more pages untouched and here I am blogging after doing some packing of the room.

New-found friends

I'm still trying to make sense of them while they attempt to figure me out. How many really will stay close and last till the end, I don't really wanna know.

What I know is, the old ones are not gonna leave.

End of a 2-year break

It's finally time to chill the fuck out;
and I have four years for that.

I just don't know if I really am ready for it!

I'm gonna give it up

I don't normally do.

And it's really a rare opportunity to be invited by the school to join a prestigious second major but I really just wanna stay where I am and take a chill pill.

I'm gonna screw up all the plans I have on my list of intended modules and just do what I think is really interesting. What double minors or second major; screw it! I'm gonna spend my uni daze with my awesome groups of friends...

Attention attracting

Am I? Time to tone down then.

45 years

Dad was telling me about how he met my mother and how they got together. Just another five more years, they'll be friends and soul mates for half a century.

I'm jealous. I want that girl in my life too. I'm still searching, still waiting. Still envious...

As our lives change

Come whatever,
We will still be, friends forever

Valid reason

I just found one for why I'm starting to dislike gambling...

Gossip SPs!

What machine gun. -.-

So I heard my two SPs spent the afternoon ranting about me. Naise...
Settle scores soon! Hahah

Hall scam

COS THE FREAKING ORIENTATION COST $365!!!
They are charging us additional 2 weeks of hall fees cos of the orientation... What the shit is this. -.-

Though mine is probably free, it's still pretty unreasonable!!!

Irritated

Some people are just so retarded that they piss you off without them realizing it. Irritating max. I've tried my best to avoid but some are just not meant to stay

"Tracy"

That's the name of the imaginary ghost the girls came up with during the whole rovers camp. -.-

Oliver

My nephew is celebrating his first birthday today. His actual is next week.

He kicks his soccer ball around the house and sometimes does tricks with it, and loves to sing himself to sleep. He enjoys flipping through books my brother and I have got in the house and he picks up phone to pretend he's talking to someone.

He's only one; genius...

True story bros.

Profile visitor

Wts is this?!! FB is becoming like Friendster in the past!!! Why would we wanna let people know we have visited their profile?!! That said, time to check out who checked me out! (It's really making the social networking system counterproductive)

Amber

What are we...

How small can the world (NUS community) be?!

Awkward moment when you realize your Arts camp SP is good friends with your Rovers camp SP and they are meeting up to squash (-cum-bitch-about-you) this weekend! Hah!

Best Freshie

But any one less, it would have been much less interesting! Thanks everyone for the fun and joy!!!

I don't normally skip group outings

Being left out is never fun,
but my schedule is just too packed.

Awesome OBS!

One word: Fun!
Did multiple times of climbing the logs to earn more (redundant) Lego bricks but it was all worth it...
And mostly because of the awesome people there!
Next up: Rovers; just pray I don't dieeeeeeee

Chris says I'm emo!

Which part?! Hahah...

If my memories didn't fail, the last time I see myself emoing is quite a few months or even years back! Move on, peeps! =)