"Homat ORD company"
I really used much effort to hold back my tears.
I've done it twice before,
now, it's finally my turn...
The first day of enlistment is still so clearly stuck in my mind and the feeling and emotion I had will forever be etched in my heart. I remember looking around and thinking all those faggots are not gonna make it in the commando formation. I remember myself finding out about the courses and wanting to go leaders course. And I remember myself chickening out in the end. I remember myself struggling to pass IPPT; I remember myself being proud of my improvements week in week out; and I remember dreading the book in.
I remember reaching the camp and frantically looking for familiar faces in Chin Boon, Leo and Zac; I remember the first stranger I came to know was Joel. I remember thinking this white chick is gonna fall out soon; I remember looking at the blur Kar Wee thinking he'll definitely not make it; and I remember we all made it through in the end. I remember being jealous of Nicholas for getting Best Signals; I remember hating Jesse for always trying to act like a leader but gives us trouble; I remember people telling me how wayang Elisha was; I remember hearing people saying Gabriel shouldn't have gotten Best Weapon; and I remember the shock I got when I came to know that Christ and I have met before.
I don't remember, when we started to become good friends;
but we did and we still are.
I don't remember when we actually started to countdown to this day, and I don't remember how much the anxiety was.
Because today, this day, the day has come. And we're finally parting ways. After leaving so many different places in the past, we know we will eventually miss it even when we can't wait to leave it. And true enough, some part of me tells me I'm hating that I have to leave.
I remember the moment when I prepare for my first jump out of the plane; and I remember the last second before I landed on my last jump in Thailand. I remember the turn out we had the first day in Battalion; and I remember the bittersweet parade we had to get our Red Beret after the 72km. I remember waking up early to go for practice missions for ATEC; and I remember hearing "Heaven now" through the comms on our final one in Taiwan. I remember the anxiety we had last Xmas when we have to check our pager once every few minutes; and I remember the ferry ride back to camp after the Tekong deployment. I remember the blood, sweat and tears we shared during our training; and I remember the laughter and joy we had reaping the reward of Redcon 1 and going for R&R.
I don't remember missing out on anything;
and I don't remember the pain.
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We've been waiting for this day to come, wanting it so badly;
now, it's finally here.
Really here.
2 years have past since.
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The last time I had my pink IC, I haven't met that bunch of awesome mates.
The last time my hair was long, I haven't grow up.
The last time I went to school, I haven't learnt anything.
