Because I wanna let everyone know everything about me.
I wanna be truthful and frank and not hide any part of me.
I wanna let people around me understand me.
If you're humble, you're not being hypocritical;
You're just unsure of yourself.
You're afraid of people exposing the deeper side of you
and you don't want others to probe into the inner you.
But then again, it's precisely because of a lack of self-assurance that I want others to know more about me and that's why I'm such a show off.
You have no reason to boast for the simple fact that you have no need to do so.
Your character and personality will shine even without verbal expressions.
You have the self-confidence and self-esteem; that's why you can hide your ego and suppress the temptation to impress.
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So which is which?
Do I just want to shine, or am I simply a loser?
Are you unsure of yourself, or the other way round, that you are full of confidence?
I think there's always two sides to a story.
Two answers to a simple question that I've posed myself to ponder upon but they contradicts each other. Which comes before which; which holds more significance?
No one can be sure which side of the two tales they stand firm on.
But people moving in and out of your life do know which kind of person you are.
There's no need to hide, because both are true.
Trying too hard to convince others to understand you will backfire; you'll just be misunderstood to be another egoistic bustard.
But keeping everything to yourself and hide your emotions and opinions will make you appear as an hypocrite and a difficult man to be be with.
Why this imbalance? Where's the line to be drawn? What's the rationale to do the things you do? And how should we convince ourselves to be what we deemed the perfect man?
There's no right and wrong; there's just the nice and the ugly.
Who we are are not reflected by what we do, but by what people around us sees.
Or is it the other way round?
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You once told me that you're not bothered by how others look at you; you just wanna be who you are and be yourself as it is. I don't understand your rationale; how often in life do we need to be ourselves, we're merely a chess piece on everyone else's life. I do envy your bravery and frankness, it's a bold and meaningful move, but I'm sorry, I still don't understand.
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A philosophical question I've thought for for long.
