Staying in camp is a good opportunity for me to forget about civilian life and all my troubles out there.
But I don't wanna be totally detached from the outside world.
I still have friends and family that love me there.
I still miss my freedom...
Anyway. Bro is going off to USA tonight.
I'll be left without a computer from now on. Haiz. Kinda sad.
Not that I don't have a comp now. But I'm gonna lose yet another confidante.
Even though it's only for two months.
Life will never be the same for this 2 months I guess.
So many things's been happening.
And I'm feeling nothing but depressed.
All the above notes are things that I've written on my phone for me to blog when I'm out while I'm in camp. Though I'm feeling a little lighter and happier now, the same kind of sadness still lingers. When I'm out, sometimes I wonder if it's a good thing to not book out. But of course, like I say, I still miss my family and the freedom I have here. Maybe it's just the boredom that kills me out here. Hope this 2 months, in fact, 2 years to be exact, will pass soon.
I really and desperately wants my freedom back.
I wanna be with my parents, whose age is catching up fast.
I wanna be with all my friends, who all seem to be drifting away with their own private life.
I wanna be in my house, that seem all so unfamiliar to me now.
But maybe I'll just get use to the life in there one day.
Just that it won't be any time soon I guess.
