I finally know where on earth my emotions all welled up from.
It's the chill, the coldness, the emptiness, the hollowness, the blankness,
the nothingness...
So yep.
I'm free, a FREE man.
Nothing's gonna bound me.
Except, perhaps, the pain and the tears.
Well, we've all expected it to all come down to this isn't it?
So, nothing much to grieve about.
Nothing to moan about. Nothing to be sad about.
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Freedom has always been the thing I was looking for.
Now I have it.
But just like the kind of feeling you have after buying some things better off not brought.
The feeling is wrong.
The excitement is not as anticipated.
The pain is there.
The is an element of regret.
The major compound I would say.
Regret...
Something I've been telling myself not have.
Well.
It. is. over.
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I'll be fine; I am fine, actually.
I always look on the bright side of life.
And I know we are on the bright side; we, both.
I don't just wanna look at it, I wanna be in it.
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Yes, be there to do that. Just that.
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Yes, I'll have one less worry, one less burden.
One more freedom, one more ... .
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It's so sudden, but not so sudden.
There's no shock factor.
We all know it'll come down to this.
This very moment. This very conversation.
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We're not meant to be together.
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period.
