Torn. Taunt.
Between the course I wanna take in University.
I suddenly lost direction with all the blurry comments and advices that people around me gave and are giving.
I was once so passionate about doing my civil engineering course.
Then I realize that it can actually be taken with another of my interest - economics.
This double degree course has been on my mind for a very long time, so when the opportunity appears, I didn't hesitate to go for it.
The five years duration was a deterrence, but it wasn't the main reason for me to back out. It's really wasteful to spend 2 years to get good grades, only to apply with them for a course that don't require that excellent a result when you got it. Civil engineering is really rather undervalued in the current local scene. And I'm not confident of saying that that picture will change any time soon.
So I turned away and look for an alternative to my other interests. And I realize I really love the finance and relevant field. And I found a new course in NTU - Maths and Econs. It's a combined degree that exposes students to both fields with greater emphasis on the quantitative aspect. It's a really good deal, and I really devoted much time to research bout it. And that's when I realize that the mathematics portion isn't really what I'm in for. So I turned yet again.
I didn't wanna waste my results, so I looked at courses that are more prestigious and promising. And I turned to ISE in NUS. Then ME and EEE in NUS. Then Aerospace in NTU. Nope. Nope. Nope. Engineering is not promising. I even thought of Law. But I know that's too far fetched.
I've always condemned Business courses, and Accounting. I can always engage in a business or financial activities even when I'm not a graduate from Biz courses. Accounting's too specific a course that'll suit me anyway. I thought. And that's as far as that thought would go. Cause I've decided to bent it. I've decided to go for it.
Business and Accounting, doubles.
I don't wanna waste the grades to just do business when I can do both,
and furthermore, just in case my mind changed again like how fickle it is now in future, I may just fall in love with accounting.
Well, that's just a tentative plan anyway. I still have a scholarship to think about; though my brother's promised to sponsor, I'll rather have my allowance settled too.
And MAE is more promising in this prospect. So many Biz students are applying for scholarships all over the world, with my average grades, having a good one is highly unlikely. So that'll be an important aspect for me to consider.
Anyway. Just a side note, I've considered signing on and applying for LSA. IFF I end up having no scholarship AND find back my passion for engineering AND military life (...), I'll do just that. =]
