'Cos even when you're crying you're beautiful.
But don't cry too much later really dry contact lens will drop out.
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We can learn together! In fact, you have been teaching me so much, you just don't know about it. I don't even know where to start; maybe from the fact that you were the one that led us to every single accommodation that we've reached safely no matter what time of the day/night it was. And trust me, no one will ever believe this, but truth is, you did it. When we hit the canal cruise, I lost it. But you remained calm and told us to go slow; I mean, that is the very basic that I've learnt from my boating course and I didn't even thought of it! And Zermatt, 'nuff said. And you taking your first solo flight, even before me!
Maybe you've spent too much time trying to figure other people out that you haven't realize how amazing you are. It's not even all these that matter. The simple fact that you have survived the trip with someone like me says a hell lot about who you are. Wiser? It's hard to be wiser when you already are.
I've experienced so much throughout this trip and I've learnt even more; and you were the teacher for the most part of them all. I believe you've grown much much stronger through this whole "ordeal" as well, you just haven't had the time to reflect. Sit down on your desk, take a pen out along with some paper; write down all the strength you've exhibited during this trip and tell me, ...
... tell me again that everything has beauty, and that you can see it in yourself.
(and do this soon before your work piles up! I'm serious)
And yes, improving your geography counts as well (I realize many people are worse than you anyway)
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Getting all socially awkward and don't even know how to say no to a stranger asking for your number is really just who you are. Maybe you'll cease being "Qingying" when you start giving stern face and saying "NO" (though you've done that to me couple of times but I guess I'm the only exception? Hahaha). Yea, we all gotta learn to fit into social norms and having an "innate need to satisfy everyone around" is really just an innate human behavior; you're just very good at following this evolutionary trait of homo sapiens (and you carrying this type of genes probably means it's good enough to survive this cruel world; your ancestors were probably as lucky as you to have met someone like me to ensure your/their survival though). So maybe you should stop harping over it and think you're all weird and quirky. You're just ... too human.
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It's called homesickness, babe, and it's kinda like the second phase of the whole SEP thingy after the honeymoon period (you didn't pay attention to the briefing slides right). But this is great! At least you feel (something) about yourself now -- and not thinking about how others feel.
And I hope being your boyfriend also means I'm a part-time friend right? Cos you feel grateful to have your friends and if I'm not part of the "friends-you're-grateful-for" I'll be jelly. I also don't judge you hor, Ms Blur.
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And like you, I never knew I could miss someone so badly...
