1. I believe in myself more than anything (not fate, not luck, not god, or whatever), but I also agree that there may be something up/out there to rely on in desperate time and to call for help for things beyond me
2. And so, I believe in karma and that if you do good, things will go your way when you're at your desperate end
3. I'm not always positive (no one ever is!) but I try very hard to be so every moment (they say it's contagious, I hope all of you who are emotionally-attached to me feels it lol)
4. Then nature had to be funny and give me a short-temper, so when I'm pissed off I lose myself and stop trying so hard. It's quite an irritating problem.
5. I got my temperamental self (and most of my other self) from my mum, but she does a good job in containing herself, probably with experience and age
6. Which is why I respect my mum a lot, and of course, even more so for my dad, since he manage to love my mum after all these years despite the flaws; and also because he really is a nice/good family man.
7. There's nothing, absolutely nothing, more important to me than my parents; they are why I am who I am today and while we're not rich, they've given me all that they've got and made me "wealthy" (if you read this blog long enough, you'll know)
8. I also can't live without friends. I love all my friends and each and every one is important to me but to different extend. I have some kind of list that reminds me who deserves my love more. And friends usually comes in cliques
9. Solomangarephobia (but this is not the reason why I can't live without friends)
10. Siblings are my very first friends, and this clique comes top of the list. My 14-years-older sister is like my second mum, always caring for me and making sure I'm on the right track in life. My 10-years-older brother is like my best buddy, despite our age difference, and he's always been my role model. Sometimes I wonder how amazing it is that this is possible.
11. There's this certain person that holds a totally different place on my list: she has got my father's patience to tolerate my temper and probably matched my mum's love for me. Kinda like a younger sister, she is naive at times but innocent always. We're very different but we somehow got very comfortable with each other's presence. I have a long history, but this is something special. I know I'll have to hold on to her cos, cliche as it sounds, she's the one.
12. In our relationship, contrary to popular belief, I'm the needy one, and she's the stronger independent one.
13. Commitment. Everything in life requires it. Your family, your love, your social circles, your studies, your work, your hobbies, and even your passion. Everything is about how much you wanna put in. You don't have commitment issues, you just have time management issues; and I think the success of a person is determined/measured by how well he/she can devote to things/people he/she wants AND needs
14. I used to think I'm independent, having started working since a very young age; and I always pride myself to have one very important strength - confidence. But after traveling around Europe and settling down in a foreign land for exchange, I realize there's more for me to learn and grow.
15. Then again, I'll never wanna leave Singapore for good. Bar chor mee is one reason (I can eat it for 9 meals consecutive), but mainly because I love the place I grew up in, and most importantly, the people I grew up with.
16. I actually cry very easily. When I give an angry-speech or motivational talk to my team, I usually get choked up. So while I'm (very) sentimental, I don't like to show my emotions and usually wear a happy-face mask, like what everyone in modern society do (except my innocent girl haha)
17. I don't wanna work for private companies because I don't want some capitalist to be reaping the most from my effort; why not spend the time and energy doing something that improves lives of the masses more directly! My ultimate aim is to work in ASEAN or UN dealing with developmental economics issues.
18. I love planning. Planning doesn't mean inflexibility; it just tells you what you're gonna give up on when you choose an alternative. I planned my modules in NUS way before I entered (hence I can finish my Honours with 2 minors in 3.5 years, hopefully); and I've planned out when and where I wanna travel until I'm too old to move (and technology should be good enough to bring the handicapped me around by then). I also know most of these plans will end prematurely cos I'm probably not gonna (don't wanna) live till such ripe age.
19. But then again, I'm a tech-idiot. Technology and I don't go well most of the time. And I've never played any of the major/popular PC games (only played my first Counter Strike in army; only games I played on my comp was related to Chinese history or novels); never played on gaming consoles before (except a game boy colour that I earned, with a good result in primary school, to play Pokemon with. And even that is pirated. Also, I can still remember the excitement when my mum brought me to 214's minimart to buy it and she was still complaining that it was very expensive!)
20. YOLO. But not the swag kind. The "live like you're dying" kind. What if tomorrow's your last day? I believe I'm still on the upwards climb of my life; "today is the best I've ever been" and if my life were to end today, I'll probably die at my best and without regrets. And I wanna keep this climb going; everyday shall/will be a better day if you live like you're dying.. (Autocorrect also reminds me to love like I'm dying and yea, I guess that's right)
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Many of these are may turn out to be different in a matter of months and there're of course more than 20 facts that makes a person who he/she is. Do yours and you'll start to realize there're so many things that defines your existence...
