Stop living in denial bro, because nothing is worth you changing yourself into what you don't want to be, and the only thing that can possibly achieve that is your own will. Why succumb to it like a sore loser when you have the strength to fight it like a man?
I hope that one day comes fast so that you can be you again. You do know we've all been through what you've been through and we've all pulled through it eventually right? Maybe others won't tell you but I know it takes time. Just how low do you wanna go to reach your trough before you pick yourself up is really your choice; the lower you go, the longer it takes to get back up. One day all these will fade, though I know it's never possible to totally forget, but why not let the process of fading hasten by doing yourself a favor on looking at things from a different perspective? One day, you'll understand what I'm saying even though today you don't.
