At least I chose the louder silence.
I've said what I've wanted to say so many times I've lost count. And no, it's really not okay. I'm not even giving you anymore advices; you yourself know what's wrong. Go fix it; if it's always the same old issues, I don't understand why and how you can keep feeling the guilt but still commit the same crime over and over again.
I don't know how to console you really.
But anyway, just stay happy...
Octopus~~~! ^^