I am not.
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I am glad I am the one you talk to and not other guys cos a shoulder to cry on is a dick to ride on
(not like you will but yea... Hahah)
So... "run to me, tell me your secret, I promise I'll keep 'em"!
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So you were crying on my shoulder (and didn't fulfill the second portion) and I started to think...
You are so imperfect.
You lack social confidence, or for the matter of fact, you lack even self-confidence (or even confidence at all)
You are a follower, and you are too weak to be a leader
You have little emotional control, and you are too fragile internally to survive this world.
But, that didn't really matter...
To me, you are so perfect.
You show me your truest self without the need of courage;
you lead my heart to everywhere you go (even all the way to Prague, and to liking Matcha too, of course)
and you control my every emotion, and have the ability to make a strong-headed guy succumb to patience
You don't have to be perfect for everyone; no one is really perfect actually, not you and definitely not me.
Be who you are, and don't force yourself to abide to circumstantial influence; if what is socially acceptable is not what you are, then don't be!
Be yourself and be Jason-acceptable, or Hanni-acceptable, or Yuanwei-acceptable, or Cheryl-acceptable, or whoever-you-think-is-important-acceptable.
Not everyone-else-that-don't-matter-to-you-(aka socially)-acceptable
Not everyone needs a large group to function, and you for one, is someone that treasures those that you keep in your small circle; and that is why everyone you have kept close appreciates you. Don't every try to change that by being "sociable"!
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And yes, "everyone sees what you appear to be, few experience what you really are" But why would you want everyone to experience what you really are? Let only a small handful of privileged few have the honour!
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And no, I am not your Prince.
Machiavelli wrote the Prince to advice Princes from the past on how to govern a country.
The context of this phrase is when he told the Prince to do evil when it is necessary; and that the Prince don't have to be really moral, he just need to appear to be so because not many people will have to know what you as a Prince have to do.
Sometimes, people over-romanticize something and the actual meaning of the word/phrase loses its meaning.
I am sorry, but the Prince you were quoting, the one that has to do evil and put on a false facade, is not me.
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And I am sorry, that you have allowed yourself to embrace the socially distorted meaning of "sociability"
