Zzz. I realize everyone's getting about the same kind of result as me.
Haiz. I wanna do so many things, but I'm neither here nor there.
I'm just so common among the others. And I'm at the rock bottom when placed among the elites.
I wanna pursue my dreams; but will I be given that kind of chances? Or have my luck been used up already? On top of that, do I have that kind of caliber?
Haiz. I'm not trying to say that having good results is bad, nor am I saying that it's useless. I've accepted it gracefully, and thanked all that had given me the well wishes. But I think every man is greedy. We all want more out of what we have.
I wanna do more; and I think I need more.
I am happy, not because I get the desired score, but because I got more than what I intended to get, which is less of what others expect. So, am I really glad about it?
I don't know the answer.
Looking all around, many are crying and regretting. So, do I really have the right or moral conscience to post out this entry?
I don't know what's right now. But I think I just wanna shout it out in this personal space of mine.
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I want more. I surrender myself to the greed and indulge in the temptation to think that I could have done better. I want more.
And now I can only pray that what little I have with me now is enough to fulfill my greed, to allow myself to do much more, even if it's a mistake. Even if it's wrong.
