Time is moving so fast, and the semester is coming to an end in one and a half month. I've been looking forward so much to this summer even before the sem started, and now it is within reach. IHG made time seems like it's moving in double speed and the mid terms that followed didn't really manage to slow things down. Results coming in were so encouraging and I am even more determined to score well for this semester now. Submitted my SEP application with only one choice; though I really hope I get it, I know the chances are slim, but I will try harder next sem! For now, all the best to myself! And yes, how can I forget the mad rush of finishing a 4-man project that ended up being a 2-man work. After today's Amazing Race (that ended with an expensive supper where the ticket I found it hard to swallow), it's now time to really look forward to the next phase of hall life. I've never been the star, no matter how hard I try to garner the attention I am always a sidekick. And truth is, I kinda like this position. Constant race to the top gives me the motivation and adrenaline to fight. I won't know if it's a right decision, but I hope it'll at least be a good experience. And for now, what's left to do is to wait.
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So much have been happening ever since I've stepped into hall, but even more has been lost. My life is so packed everyday, but no longer with the variety I fancy; now it's all only about hall and school. Seeing how Kangster felt left out, how group chats start having gay conversations like "I miss you guys" and how Alex and gang are tight without me, I start to think whether the balance in my various friendships is lost. But even more saddening is when we casually started talking about how our parents would help us wash clothes during army days and how it became an addiction to feel the love from my parents every weekend, but now coming home is just solely because of the emptiness in hall. I know some parts of me will regret all these happening...
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But no, I've been through this many times. From pri sch to sec sch to JC to army then finally to uni; people had come in and out of my life, and many had stayed even when the time spent together started to reduce. I guess some other day, when this part of my life fades away, the old and gold ones will stick close once again; or perhaps, just so I hope.
