It is not yet the end of everything,
but at least the first chapter of our life is coming to a full-stop.
It wasn't all smooth-sailing, but there were no major hurdle.
It wasn't all so happening, but there were memorable moments.
It wasn't all about fun, but at least I enjoyed.
It wasn't all filled with happiness, but at least I smiled...
So many things had happened.
We've altogether been through so much.
So much...
I'm not sure if I should feel happy, sad, excited, nervous, ...
Or rather, I don't even know how to feel right now.
It is like being at the end of a maze; you were so eager to find an exit when you were so lost, but when you finally break free, what is presented to you is not what you had expected all along. You feel uncertain, because the future is blurry, it's unclear. And now, you find that the maze presents a much friendly environment, but there is no way back anymore.
We can choose to find our way out of the mist, or just stay put at where we are; it doesn't matter.
What matters now is that we are seriously on our own.
We have to face the problem presented in front of us on OUR OWN. .
It's not like we haven't had these kinda experience before; we were given the chance to make crucial decisions once in a while, but guidance were always there because people always think that us being young will make irrational decisions. Yet, we always try to find our way out and be the 'adult', doing things that we were not supposed to do, just to show that we are more mature than the others and also to show the world that we, though young, are capable of doing things that even some adults are unable to. We've tried to make things work, OUR way. In reality, how often do we succeed?
But now, we can no longer TRY to do it, we HAVE to do it, and it must succeed.
The period of egoism is finally giving way to an era of consequence.
Did you, the self-centric you, once heed the advice of what the other more experienced ones said? If you haven't, good luck.
Will you be able to survive in the vicious world all by yourself?
Given a choice, will you rather go back and be the boy dictated by the adults, or be the man dictated by the world?
I'm lost, seriously, in such a dilemma.
But goodbye for now, for I will seek my escapade.
